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  1. 2 points
    JessiesMom

    With depression and axiety

    It depends on how severe your depression and anxiety are - I think of meds as a way to put symptoms into abayance - so that issues can be worked through - but this is not true for all people. And there may be issues that can never be healed from - meds can make them easier to live with. I know two people who suffer from bi-polar disorder. One has been able to wean himself off his medication and is living farily well. He does not have a regular job and is able to adjust his life to the rythems of his disorder. The other went off his medication and went off the deep end. It is tricky - and you will never know what the result will be until it is too late. This is probably a conversation best had with your prescribing doctor and a therapist. However, it is not a good idea to just go cold turkey no matter what.
  2. 2 points
    @sober4life I know what you mean. I have been in this prison for a long time now. folsom prison blues by Johnny Cash perfectly describes how I feel
  3. 2 points
    I so feel for you. Living with depression is very draining. When I feel like that, I do extra things to take good care of myself like go to bed early, get a special coffee, read, leave the chores undone, take a nap, eat a protein bar for dinner. Good self-care can help us so much. Keep posting, Floor! People read your posts. They may be just not sure how to respond. We need all the positivity we can get. 🙂
  4. 2 points
    ViceCityKitty, I hope things have gotten better for you since your last post. I wasn't sure how to respond to it and I'm still not sure. I used to have a friend who was a Jehovah's Witness. I lost touch with her but it was interesting to learn about religion from a different perspective. I don't know if this will make you feel any better but I think that it's important to have friends from different backgrounds. I know what it's like to feel like you don't have approval from your parents and the hurt that can cause. I'm 37 years old and their opinion still means more to me than anybody else's. The only thing I've learned is that we can't always make them happy. We have to do what makes us happy as long as it's not harming us or someone else, we shouldn't worry. We always will though unless we're lucky enough to be completely 100% independent. I only know two people like that my sister and this friend of mine that came to this country when she was 25 and almost never goes back to her home. Even my brother is not 100%...he won't take my mother and father's money but he often seeks their advice for raising his kids and we babysit them a lot. (It's wonderful when I'm healthy...I hope they never see me really ill...). My mom is going on a trip with them and he said he didn't think I should go. I wasn't ready to go on such a massive trip anyway but it still kinda hurt. I guess I give him too many mental health updates for him to be confident in me in that department even though I am better than anyone else in playing with those kids. I can play for hours without getting tired as long as I'm not running constantly. All I just got back from a really nice trip but the last night was horrible. I only got five hours of sleep and the night before the last night I was one hour short of what I needed. I had to fake good health with my mom yesterday and it was so hard. I think I need a week to recover. But something happened that I want to share with you guys. Have you ever wanted to be with someone just because you loved their family? Well, my mom was married to someone like that once and he turned out to be a bad guy. I just met my best friend's son (my best friend is older than me...old enough to be my dad...it's weird I know). He was 31 years old and I was so relieved because I didn't like him. He told a really inappropriate story and it was like thank God I don't like him...but it was a little hard to sleep after I met him because I gave him the cliff notes version of my personality and how I never want to settle for the wrong guy. My weight makes me more self conscious than I used to be and he said I was beautiful. Now, guys, I know that's nothing but to me it was everything. No guy outside my family has said that to me for a very long time. I am so glad I can share this with you because I still don't have a new doctor and therapist yet and I'm getting stressed about that. I think I have enough meds to hold me over and my parents can take me to a doctor in an emergency but I'm still stressed. I could write pages on this site but I will quit for now. I hope everyone is doing okay.
  5. 2 points
    This has been happening more this month, but particularly struck me this morning. When I woke up, opened my eyes to a black kitty's face blissfully asleep just a few inches from mine. I'd almost swear there was a smile on those tiny kitty lips. I'll add this is a step up from his usual habit of resting warm, happy paw(s) on inconvenient places like my mouth, nose (either nostril) and eyes.
  6. 1 point
    Scias

    Hey everyone, new member here

    I've been suffering from chronic depression since I was 15-16, I'm 28 now and it hasn't gotten much better. It's not an everyday thing but it always sneaks up on me every now and then; feelings of hopelessness, anxiety, self-loathing, fear of never being loved etc. I live with my family and work a barely above min wage job. I'm very sensitive and have issues with coping with rejection, I've never had many friends in my life and have always felt like a loner for the most part. At first it wasn't quite that way, but from middle school-high school onward I definitely was. I have no friends now outside of people I met online now. These feelings have always been there but I think it got worse after a rejection from someone I had a huge crush on at work. I tried online dating after that fell apart and I had no luck on there either. Over the last few years, all of these feelings soon started to turn into fits of pessimism, anger, resentment etc. All of my peers from school are married, bought a house, went to college and ended up with a good job etc, while I have next to nothing. It's gotten worse since now I'm close to 30; at 30 with little life experience and no relationship experience as well makes for a highly undesirable person. I can't afford therapy and I tried medication for a little bit but it did me no good. I've always been introverted and have a hard time forming lasting friendships that lead to anything. I've become weary and untrusting of others. I've had a difficult time forming new friendships online as well, I'm hoping this will be a more rewarding experience since this is a community that would understand and not judge my feelings, especially my negative ones. Thanks. Nice to meet everyone! I have a hard time really typing my feelings out without going into tangents or ranting so I tried my best here.
  7. 1 point
    That's cool, Hopeless. I am glad they inspire creativity.
  8. 1 point
    Oscar K

    With depression and axiety

    I can't comment on meds since I never used them however I'm a big believer in what I like to call MEDaphors. Depression and anxiety play awful tricks to our fragile yet resilient psyches. My approach is to play a few tough, clever tricks right back to Old Man Depression. Anyone reading my posts over the past few years will see how I invoke a cave metaphor for depression. It's been quite helpful to me and occasionally to others. I constantly need to remind myself that depression can be a natural resource. I know it sounds a bit crazy but everything in this world is more than a bit crazy. Anyway this forum has helped me so much and I'm very thankful for the insights.
  9. 1 point
    lonelyforeigner

    With depression and axiety

    You can learn to manage anxiety without meds. It's not easy but doable... With depression it kinda depends on the underlying cause. If you've been depressed for a long time and it's not just the occasional episode it's obviously a lot harder. Many people do manage to get it under control with just therapy though so there is hope. If your depression is not at all circumstantial or related to your past then the underlying issue might be a chemical imbalance which like high blood pressure will require ongoing medication.
  10. 1 point
    @sober4life Sometimes I wish I could own a gun so that I could end it quick and painlessly. I won’t obviously, but still. When I’m a 80 year old depressed man then I might do it. My maternal grandfather who meant a lot to me never complained, he worked hard all his life. Then came a day when he had enough.
  11. 1 point
    It’s not about being lonely. It’s about having no one that understands you, that kind of lonely. When you feel stuck in your own little world.
  12. 1 point
    ladysmurf

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    I really don't know what the point is ...everyone has their own theory......but after so many years, I can honestly say that I wish I had not been born because I'm suffering and this is not the way I imagined life, nor do I think its fair that people suffer the way we do. But I try not to question it, otherwise it just drives me insane. Some people are just lucky, and others aren't. I guess it's just all random. I mean if we lived in a perfect world where no one got sick, k*lled, robbed, in fights, some are rich, others starving to death....so many people like doctors, cops, lawyers, businesses, etc would be out of job...so I suppose my only explanation is that some people are lucky and others aren't so lucky, and sh*t happens whether we like it or not.
  13. 1 point
    Just had some chicken soup. Wasn’t as good as I remembered it to be. Food isn’t very enjoying when you’re in my mood.
  14. 1 point
    Ever had one of those days when you wish you felt sick, or had a broken arm so you could have a legit reason to not go to work? Not because you want to stay home and goof off, but because you're just having a hard time 'adulting' that day? Yeah, that's today for me. I'm having trouble adulting today. I feel like a car with a faulty tie-rod end - the next bump or pothole could send my tire flying off into the blue yonder & leave me stranded. I really need to stop, put the car up, and fix it, replace that tie-rod end before it goes. So why don't I?
  15. 1 point
    ladysmurf

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    Yes we do change, but for those of us who have been dealing with this since we were young kids, not being able to work, or live a productive life ..I don't believe a higher power will help me out. if such a thing existed I doubt after so many years I'd still be dealing with this. But to each his own. I don't like arguing over religion on this matter. I respect peoples beliefs, it's just not mine...if it works for you and others good..its not my thing...
  16. 1 point
    Floor2017

    Workplace Bulling!

    "Wow", I feel your pain because I have been in a similar situation for about 14 years on my job where I am not giving the respect or pay I rightfully deserve and I can not leave because I'm not physically able to start over at my age. You have to do the same thing I have done weigh all of your option and see witch one is best for you. Like can you afford to leave and start over, is it worth it to stay, your physical health and can you mentally and emotional take the mental abuse from your co- workers otherwise it might be better to leave and start over. Hang in there my friend and may God give you the wisdom, knowledge and understanding on what you need to do to be your best self.
  17. 1 point
    @sober4life Hank williams is great as well. I’m so lonesome I could cry is such a great song. I have always felt a connection to Johnny cash. Sometimes I can hear him talk to me, it’s probably my unstable mind, but stil. I love his music. I have listened to his first 4 albums.
  18. 1 point
    samadhiSheol

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    Nice one riv! 😀
  19. 1 point
    HuronZephyr

    Could I be Depressed?

    I saw my doctor today and told him about the problems I've been having, including problems at work. He filled out a 'fitness for work' form that only requires identification of limitations/restrictions and not a diagnosis, as my employer will need to accommodate me, not for depression, but because of problems I have with focus, concentration and ability to do detailed work. All of which could be caused by the depression. He has prescribed Wellbutrin to see if it helps with my ADD and with my depression.
  20. 1 point
    bellerose

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    Been in a good place. I am feeling more confident that my life is going in the right direction. it's not perfect, not quite where i want it to be, but it's getting there. So many of my worries and fears have been hushed for now so i am taking advantage of it. i have been eating better. I am now 10 lbs. lighter than when i was at my heaviest. I am smoking tobacco only 3 days a week. I am exercising at least once a week. i am working on my crafts. things feel real nice. I like it.
  21. 1 point
    TheSandman

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    I had a dream-free sleep this morning and woke up anxiety free for the first time in months. Even had three hours of good before I started falling back to usual. I'm back to my normal, anxious self now, but it's nice to have a relief for a little while, anyway. Plus, it gives me hope that I can maybe, eventually get better.
  22. 1 point
    Sentinel2

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    Feeling better today, did some things during the day and did a good training also. Knowing bad days will come, i cherish the minutes that i am not suicidal.
  23. 1 point
    Extra Stress or fear of not being able to perform can also be making your problem worse than what it really is, try to relax before you get ready to be intimate.
  24. 1 point
    ladysmurf

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    Sometimes I do, and sometimes I don't ...it all depends how I wake up. Sometimes I go for a walk and it helps a bit, and other times I wont bother getting out of bed, because whats the point? Plus I don't always have the energy to walk or exercise ...
  25. 1 point
    @BeyondWeary I don’t feel better when I walk, so I don’t get the point really. I just keep it to keep my mind occupied, it’s still painful though. I know, I barely have the motivation to get up on the mornings.
  26. 1 point
    BeyondWeary

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    That's great that you can walk that much even when you are stressed. I need to get some exercise but have no motivation.🙁
  27. 1 point
    I've had a therapist for over two years and it sometimes does help but not that much. I work in a small company too which kind of a downside because most of my colleagues expect me to always interact but I'm so depressed and introverted. It make me stick out.
  28. 1 point
    SpiralingMind

    What Really Bugs You (7)

    When the Powers That Be move the place you vote to a location 1.7 miles from the nearest bus stop.
  29. 1 point
    RiverLight

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    I passed my analytics exam!!!!!!! 97%! WOOOHOOOOOO! I got 2/70 wrong, not bad!
  30. 1 point
    justthinking

    Could I be Depressed?

    Have you reached out to anyone for help? Or looked into any resources?
  31. 1 point
    20YearsandCounting

    What Are You Reading?

    Two different authors for me, both well done. Solomon Bull by Clayton Lindemuth; main character is Native American, cross country runner, independent stock trader, savvy hacker, and a bit of a counter-culture person. I enjoyed seeing things from his POV. 😎 The Gauguin Connection by Estelle Ryan; main character is on the Autism spectrum, and has turned her intense powers of observation into a career (think 'Lie to Me' cable series). There is a hint of romance towards the end of the book, but it is very subtle, and viewed within the framework of the main character's understanding. 😎
  32. 1 point
    Camellia, I'm beginning to believe that my posts are to positive for some people, because I get very few replies. I want to thank you for responding to my post. I'm not trying to make anybody feel bad, it is just the opposite, if God can give me the strength to get up everyday and FIGHT for what is rightfully mine, I'm just saying you too can fight for what is rightfully yours.
  33. 1 point
    Kogent5

    What's On Your Mind Right Now? (2)

    I have severe acne scarring. Today I did the first of several skin procedures to maybe reduce it. The thing is my face looks HORRID - literally like I just ******** someone and their blood splashed all over my face. Plus I'm super swollen and puffy. I look like a ketchup chip. I was trying to hide it going home, but my neighbor (one who I always wave to) saw me as my Dad pulled into the driveway. I really hope she doesn't think my Dad beat me...I wanna laugh at this but I'm pretty mortified and embarrassed.
  34. 1 point
    Hi JD. I think you are a human being that is perfectly imperfect. You did as well as you could at the time. Negative self-talk just does more damage and it is something we have control over.
  35. 1 point
    Work out at home. I got out of my (largely dysfunctional) head for a bit.
  36. 1 point
    I went to their show. The moment I saw their silhouettes on stage I felt an overwhelming burst of love for them. Literally, everything else was gone from my mind just a hyper focus on them remained. My unhealthy obsessions live and in person in front of me. I stopped breathing. Thank goodness for the deafening screams of the other fans bringing back my consciousness or I might of passed out. I had been doing really well weening myself off their social media and not watching videos but I knew I had just undid all that progress. My self preservation kicked in and I blocked them from everything. I have been going cold turkey for a while. It's been painful. My mood is noticeably worse. I wasn't strong enough the first time I tried to purge myself of this obsession I don't think I am strong enough now.
  37. 1 point
    You should tell him to leave and evict him off your place. He has done nothing to help you out at this moment now. It is best to even cease contact with him. If he threatens you, call the cops if he won’t leave. And also, you should get help with the landlord, especially if you have the intent to kick the guy out.
  38. 0 points
    I somehow took a fall with my friend, he is okay, but I hit my head either on the bumper of his truck or the concrete. Guess my eyes rolled back before they took me to the ER where I was given a CAT scan. I just have a huge hematoma on the back of my head and a gnarly contusion on my right pinky finger. Thank god it's not broken. Just feeling like poop now.
  39. 0 points
    Floor2017

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    I feel like I can begin to breath I'm tired and I just want to rest. It been a long week and now I need time to get myself back together from a long stressful week on the job.
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    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    I am so lonesome I could cry but at the same time people drive me absolutely crazy so it's a real fun life.
  41. 0 points
    JD4010

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    Yes. Hank and Johnny both sang about my life with many of their tunes as well. I could well have followed Hank into an early grave with my lifestyle. I'm self-destructive, stemming from my self-loathing.
  42. 0 points
    I don't know where home is. I've never really known. I don't even know who I am.
  43. 0 points
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    Pretty much every song of his and every song from Hank Williams describes my life. All my life I've been a loser should be the theme of my life.
  44. 0 points
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    I have to find some type of happiness in this nightmare. Every day feels like waking up to prison.
  45. 0 points
    you are damn right i had the same experience before and it sucks
  46. 0 points
    Im new here. I feel the same way. I had a total breakdown 16 years ago and have some diagnosis that are awful. I feel what you are going through. I have some good days then the depression always returns. During those times i feel like the world can just stop spinning so i can jump off. But i know that isnt the answer. I look forward to the days that are good....however today has not been one of them. Im just letting you know youre not alone and i feel the same. If anyone else tells me it will get better, i am going to bite them. But they are right. It does get better but the crap comes back.
  47. 0 points
    JD4010

    How Do You Feel Right Now? #7

    I screwed up something big time on a personal level. I let myself get carried away but had to pull myself back. Somebody got emotionally hurt as a result. I was trying to be a "nice guy" but wound up getting too involved. I apologized profusely but the emotional pain for the other person remains. This is the way my life proceeds. I'm a profoundly negative force within the universe. No wonder it hates me.
  48. 0 points
    Wisteria

    What's On Your Mind Right Now? (2)

    I should be better, skinnier, prettier, more intelligent, more popular, happier and not born to be this mess who I am now.
  49. 0 points
    JD4010

    Cat's Paw

    I haven't been keeping up with this blog like I wanted to. I intended it to be a gratitude journal but it is instead mostly me b*tching and whining. Who wants to read that sh!t, eh? OK. Something to be grateful for...let's see...well, I accidentally shut the window on my cat's paw earlier today. She jumped up onto the sill just as I was pulling the window down. She screamed in pain but seemed able to walk OK afterwards. I laid down with her for awhile and she was her usual friendly self--purring and snuggling. It would devastate me to know that I had injured her. But it looks as if any injury was small. Wow. That really shook me up.
  50. 0 points
    Lady Mozzer

    What Really Bugs You (7)

    My anxiety.

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