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  1. 5 points

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Don't pay attention to them. They are fools. If they only knew how strong people who fought this illness daily were....
  2. 5 points
    Peace for you Peace for me
  3. 4 points
    I know they are fools. Every day I struggle to try to fit in with people but if they treat me like that why do I even want to? Everyone wants to be loved and accepted but I don't see it happening in the real world for me. Why do people have to be so awful sometimes?
  4. 3 points
    Have you tried approaching her in a different way? For example ask her if she would like to go for a cup of coffee and tell her with patience that even though you're still living at home, you're 19 years old and would like to have your hair the way you want to. Reassure her you still love her, but are an individual as well. Maybe it helps if you tell her somewhere that's not in the house, where emotions can explode easily. Is it possible to rent a room with housemates? Or to move out? If not, it sucks, but you'll probably have to deal with it to some extend until you get a place of your own. Good luck!
  5. 3 points

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    I'm sorry about complaining about the same things over and over. I had told myself I'd step away from these issues just for myself, to give myself a breather, but what happens is that in my attempt to say something supportive, I forget about this. I share to show I get it.
  6. 3 points
    I'd love to know what's so awful about me. It is hard knowing that no matter what you do nobody will ever care about you in real life. I have had to learn to live life alone because I know I have no choice. For whatever reason people want nothing to do with me. Every single single day taking my tent and living in the woods away from people sounds better.
  7. 2 points
    It is ok gs22. I'm used to it by now but it hurts. I'm a very emotional person. Every moment of every day it's like I'm walking a tightrope emotionally trying to keep it together and all it takes is one small thing to send me over the edge. I wanted to enjoy the holidays but instead I spent 2 days in bed sleeping and crying.
  8. 2 points
    INVICTUS William Ernest Henley Out of the night that covers me, Black as the pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is ******, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds and shall find me unafraid. It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul. I wish I had this spirit, instead of the crushed, mutilated shadow that is me.
  9. 2 points
    Welcome back, and Happy New Year! ? I'm so sorry this happened....but I hope it might make you feel better to know that my CO left his band a few times and came back a few times, so you never know...your CO may return to his group too. In my case, substitute "alter ego" for myself and what I quoted above would apply to me too When bad things happen, it's really important to focus on separating the fantasy from reality....we have to hold on to the fantasy at all costs. When things like this happen, it's really a struggle, and I DO understand how exhausting it can be.....but the struggle is worth it. I wish you luck to get through this. Come back anytime for support if you need us. ((hugs))
  10. 2 points

    Your Feelings In Single Words #4

  11. 2 points

    Interesting Take on Shame

    Ran across this anecdote reading' "Wealth and Power", a book about the modernization of China. Once the Wing Dynasty signed the treaty of Nanjing to end the first Opium Wars their once great Empire had been shamed by the English. Instead of trying to forget this shame, they actually made a holiday to commemorate it, called the Day of Humiliation or something of that nature. Why did they do this? Because they wanted to use the shame they felt as fuel so that they could learn the ways of the outside world to use them to their advantage. The ideal was of using Western techniques with a Chinese core. When I read this it struck a chord in me, maybe that's what I should do? Maybe be that's what we all should be doing here? So remember the next time someone gets in your face and tries to make you feel small, let them. Get angry, get motivated and shove it in their face as you of prove them wrong. Learn what you can from people, but never forget who you are.
  12. 2 points
    @4amRedLight I fear you misunderstood what I meant in the original post. The fact that there's a stigma against people with mental health issues DOES cause some people shame. I don't mean the shame they have because the mental health issues, I'm talking about the shame people try to put on us because of their small minds and big mouths. Also, I wasn't talking about America, merely individual people using the Chinese way of thought toward the shame of the Treaty of Nanjing.
  13. 2 points
    I feel like I just don't care about very much...which I know is not the truth, but what my illness wraps me in daily
  14. 2 points

    Out of Citalopram

    Look, it takes 6 weeks for esc to kick in. That, in my non medical opinion, means, that two days off the same meds, means nothing, you should be fine. I once did not take esc for four days, without any conseqences. Just wait till pharmacy opens... Only if the symptoms of depression would return, you should worry. So, have a happy new year and dont worry.
  15. 2 points
    If there is a god out there I just wish he would put me out of my misery but he obviously enjoys my pain and misery.
  16. 2 points
    I got another 45 minutes yet, but happy 2017 to you all. - KS
  17. 2 points
    Lady Mozzer

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Thanks so much for your words and your hugs.Happy New Year to you and yours!!!!!
  18. 2 points

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    so depressed.
  19. 2 points

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    To all of you who seek love & peace. And truth. May joy find you! Happy New Year 2017!
  20. 1 point
    'budfox', on 03 Jul 2010 - 23:03, said: I was going to write this post as a journal entry to myself as I'm feeling very low and panicky at the moment. However on the off-chance that it might be of benefit to some of the good, nay great, folks on DF I thought I might as well post it here. I read a lot of the posts on this forum and one very common feature of what people are going through is the fear and panic they feel at what is happening to them. Browse through the posts and you will see a lot of, 'I don't know what's happening', 'Something is not right', 'I'm losing my mind', etc. I've made similar statements in some of my previous posts on this very forum in the past. Even though I've suffered from depression for more than 10 years I am still freaking out at how bad I'm feeling right now. Surely by now I should be an expert at managing this? I have had enough experience after all. So, this is what I'm trying to tell myself (and for what it's worth I know this to be totally true, it's just that depression sometimes casts a dark fog over our thinking): For all the terrible symptoms it produces we are all suffering from the SAME basic condition. Of course depression and anxiety affect us uniquely, such is the nature of a disease of the most amazing and complex system known to man, the human brain. However, even though we probably all feel like we are going through something totally personal to us, and I don't deny that in a sense we are, essentially we're all suffering from the same underlying illness, caused by abnormal changes in our brain neurochemistry. The reason none of us can just 'snap out' of depression is that it's an absolutely real illness. Stop thinking of the symptoms you are experiencing as being a manifest reflection of something that is deeply wrong with you. You're just ill. In the future they will be able to precisely elucidate the neurochemical changes that are going on within the brain. For now, they have kind of a rough idea of what's going on but not much more than that. Some days I wake up and can hardly get out of bed. I mean that quite literally. I feel numb to everything, no energy, utter hopelessness for the future and no interest in anybody or anything. Then a day later I can wake up and feel totally normal. Nothing in my life circumstances has changed from the bad day to the good day, it just so happens that for some reason that is inexplicable to me on the first day my neurochemistry is screwed up and on the second day it is within normal ranges. So whatever weird, horrifying, disturbing symptoms you are suffering from please try to remember that you're just ill. If it was an illness of the body you would feel pain or you would have difficulty walking or impaired vision. However, because illnesses like diabetes, arthritis, etc affect organs other than the brain the symptoms they produce, while they can of course be very serious, are still more uniform and less confounding than an illness which affects the brain, an organ many many times more complex than anything else in these bodies of ours. If you feel totally down or anxious when reading this then just accept that there is little that you can do about the way you feel right now to feel instantly better, although of course things like exercise and certain fast acting medications can help greatly. But also know that your brain chemistry is in flux and you are not going to carry on feeling like this forever. There's no point trying to analyse the way you feel or trying to think the way out of your depression, anymore than it would make sense to try and think your way out of diabetes. The depression or anxiety is there, it is making you feel so bad and when it goes you will feel better. I realise that we might all have developed depression for different reasons but I doubt there is one person on this forum that can say that his or her life circumstances are absolutely unique and that the life he or she has gone through is worse than that experienced by many of the millions of people who go through terrible things but don't ever develop depression. Accept that the depression or anxiety is there for now, stop thinking about it and learn to function as best you can even with the worst depression or anxiety that you have ever felt. And take hope in the knowledge that this will get better. Many posters are also blaming themselves for something that is not in the least their fault and saying things like 'I feel like a loser', 'I don't feel worthy', etc, etc. I say to you 'Nonsense!!!' You are just ill. In fact you are more worthy than most because you're dealing with a horrible illness and still managing to keep going. Most of you deserve medals, I tell you that. You're soldiers. Yet because our society is so nasty and backwards, we are still expected to function as well as people who don't have depression at all. When I think about how I am, I mean how functional I am on a good day as compared to a bad day, the gulf between the two is massive. The bad day Bud cannot possibly hope to compete with the good day Bud. It's like trying to be in a fight with someone with one hand tied behind your back. So be realistic and don't be too hard on yourselves. When you're down then do what you can but don't expect too much. Be gentle. As for what everyone in your company or your social circle thinks, to hell with them. They're not experiencing this and you are. Human beings like to go around feeling superior to others and judgmental, especially in modern workplaces. Their lack of sympathy, empathy or understanding is a sad reflection on them, not on you. I tell you you are all wonderful people and it pains me to see you suffer. Well maybe right at the moment you can't help the suffering but you can avoid compounding it. Let's support each other through this and take the view that we are in it together. Know that if you post here you'll get a reply, so however incapable of understanding people in your lives might be, you'll always have this forum to come to. I don't know about you but I at least find great solace in that. Thanks for listening. B
  21. 1 point

    What Are You Eating?

    A pink lady apple
  22. 1 point

    Parents taking control of my life

    I understand that my family care but I should be able to make my own choices especially when it is something so small. I would understand if I was doing illegal drug etc. Note: I have no intention of having children
  23. 1 point

    That was fun!

    That was fun!
  24. 1 point
    I've been pretty blown away by some amazing coincidences myself lately (between my CO and myself...I can't share them all here because they might give away who he is, and I can't do that to him) ... so your post here really means something to me. I think "coincidences" happen for a reason. I'm into numbers myself, but the reason for the choice of 8 & 22 behind my username is pretty simple. I'm a Dallas Cowboys fan and during the best years in the 1990s, two of their best players wore those numbers....quarterback Troy Aikman wore #8 and running back Emmitt Smith wore #22. I sometimes use my birthdate or my COs birthdate for other things, but I can't reveal those number combinations here either. In my real life, Hello Kitty is everywhere (a character that always makes me smile ?)...I'm glad to hear about that "coincidence" too. I'm glad you're here!
  25. 1 point

    Husband to a depressed wife

    Here's a few "one size fits all" things to know about depression: It's not your fault. It's not her fault. Telling her she should be happy because of "(insert anything here)", is never helpful. Comparing her life to people less fortunate is never helpful. Effective treatment of depression usually includes both medicine and therapy. Support from loved ones of the depressed throughout treatment can play a vital role in rehabilitation. Anyone else got anything to add?
  26. 1 point

    Possibly Bi-Polar

    Well then definitley mention it next time talking to your doctor or psychiatrist (sic) next time you see either. While your mood might be stable, your behaviour sounds a tiny bit out. Remember - ultimately it is yourself who knows your own body and mind best.
  27. 1 point

    I can't control my obsessions

    Man, I feel this! I used to do that. A lot. Just know that you're not alone, and a lot of people do this. Even the most sane people go through it, when they've been dumped for example, or divorce, you can't help but monitor everything in the other person's life. But even if you've never been with this other person, you can experience the same feelings. I've had that before. For me, it was just an extreme need to be with someone else, to have a partner to talk to, to have somebody else there. There was an extreme loneliness, neediness and insecurity underneath it all. It ended up ruin the relationship I eventually had. I advice you to go and talk to someone about it. It's not something to feel ashamed of. You just need to learn to love yourself. And that's really, really difficult. Wish you all the best
  28. 1 point

    I Cant Take Life Anymore

    Wow, I just have to say, that sounds extremely rough. Is there anyway you can get a roof over your head for a little longer? Maybe a shelter? I don't know the situation. I truly wish you the best, and hoping you can get out of this. Sometimes life just hits you too hard. It sounds like you have to fight everyday just to survive. I understand you tried to end it all before. If you feel you want to try it again, I think it's good to post on this forum. There is always somebody out there who will listen.
  29. 1 point

    Out of Citalopram

    Thank you! I'm scared of getting bad side effects like brain zaps. I feel like I feel weird already but that could be from worrying. Just 6 hours until the pharmacy opens anyway.
  30. 1 point
    I would love to see the northern lights
  31. 1 point
    I am so sorry your post got overlooked all day....welcome to the thread!
  32. 1 point
    Hi Eren, I am so terribly sorry that this is all happening to you. Please do not blame yourself for what happened and is happening. Depression is an illness. You are not the reason for your mother's depression. And the difficulties between your parents are not your fault either. Obviously they have been building between your parents for many, many years. In fact, your mother's depression or the roots of it go back to times before you were even born, even to her childhood. How can you be to blame for that Eren? You cannot. And your parents stormy relationship also goes back years before you were born. The seeds of strife between them were planted long before you came into the world. What you did, in fact was not something to be ashamed of in that situation, but something quite noble and heroic. You were defending you mom and trying to protect her from your father's wrath. You are a wonderful person who has done literally millions of wonderful things going all the way back to your childhood Eren . . . millions of strong and brave things . . . millions of smart and wise things. . . millions of kind, sweet and beautiful things. You are the real victim of all these misfortunes happening all around you. Please lean on us here in the Depression Forums in your pain. That is what we are here for. I am very worried and concerned for you. Are you alright at the moment? Is there anything we can do for you right now? - epictetus
  33. 1 point
    Yeah. I can relate to what you mean about spending your birthday with your mom. I often am with my mom because I have no friends or boyfriend to celebrate with.
  34. 1 point
    Hi, Imaginehappiness The mistake that is being made is believing that depression needs a cause. Sure, a person can be depressed because their girlfriend left them, or they did not get what they wanted for Christmas, but those are situations that will end in a few days or a month when things go their way. Depression is an illness (or a syndrome, which is a collection of symptoms) where the little chemical pumps in your brain after stimulation of a certain kind do not pump any more, or pump wrong chemicals. That is a silly graphic, I know. So it can be the best day of your life, you might have a great job, great family, millions of dollars, and an estate made out of gold (Remember Robin Williams?) and still be depressed. It took me a long time to seek help. I've been unemployed, homeless, lost my home because I couldn't pay the mortgage, and then lost every job and relationship I have ever had because I have a trigger fuse, and am bi-polar, and no one sees me as anything but normal because mental illness is a "invisible" disease. Believe me, I can't believe what I am doing when I do things like that! I also used to think that since I was not starving on a gutter or in the desert, I was okay. But, that has nothing to do with whether you have "depression" or not. Although I have been depressed since early Teenage years, it was only till I was an adult and started to regularly take medications that I understood how different feeling "happy" is, compared to what I felt before. Those silly commercials about someone lifting the haze on a window are somewhat true. It is great not to have this endless "sadness" and pessimism all over my every thought. Thank goodness you are seeking to find out what may be wrong with you, and then possibly get help. You really should try to find qualified medical help, and stop asking friends and neighbors for medical advice. Have a wonderful New Year.
  35. 1 point

    January 1

    Be kind to yourself
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    To all my kind, dear, complex and empathetic friends: May we all feel good more consistently; suffer fewer bouts of doubt and anxiety, and believe in our powers of emotional and physical healing. Love to all -- WOTL
  37. 1 point

    What Are You Listening To Right Now?

    Through The Night - Grum
  38. 1 point

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Well . . . it's just 5 mns away here, on the east coast
  39. 1 point

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    i should be happy though. i bought a sleeping bag...a nice fancy one...or at least fancy for me...one step closer to Hiking Heaven. so why do i feel so crappy...
  40. 1 point
    Lady Mozzer

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Hugs to you Natasha.I`m so sorry you are feeling depressed.I hope you feel better soon.
  41. 1 point

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    Good man, be strong and keep resisting the urge, I hope 2017 is a good positive year for you buddy
  42. 1 point

    What Are You Eating?

    Beef jerkey
  43. 1 point
    happy new year to all. may we all find peace in 2017. im trying to forgive myself so that maybe i can too.
  44. 1 point

    The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" (4)

    To anyone here going out for the new year be safe and try to enjoy yourself. While I'm still off work I managed to catch a sinus infection. My Mom caught it as well. Slept a lot and I can't play guitar for even 5 minutes at most before snot starts running from my nose.
  45. 1 point

    Your Feelings In Single Words #4

  46. 1 point
    Honestly, when I was working labour 9 hours a day and walking 5km every day, it didn't help all that much. I still got really depressed at work, and sometimes even on the walk home, had some days where I even had breakdowns and etc. I guess it just depends on the person, or what kind of problems you have.
  47. 1 point
    It's funny that you mention this. I have thought the same thing. The word preposterous comes to mind. It's just so unnecessary this kind of misery.
  48. 1 point
    @walruscarpenter I just wanted to say something about the sexual assault issue. Indeed, sexual assault has come to be understood as encompassing more than what is considered rape. What you described also happened to me, and I was just dwelling on this today, and it got me upset all over again, though it happened many years ago. Actually, it happened to me twice. At the time I didn't intellectualize it as sexual assault but I felt merely upset about these two incidents. In my case, I've confided in a very few people, and no one who knows me well. I could just see them blaming me or saying I hadn't protected myself well, which I know but that kind of thinking is of no help to me. With regard to your actual question, I agree with your friends. The right guy would not care. He would also understand the reasons why, not that you should have to explain them. Many women struggle with body images issues, even while in relationships. Every guy is different but why not ask that guy out, the one you're interested in? If he cares about you, he will actually be supportive of you and what you've been through. You'll need to open up a little so he can begin to understand and appreciate you.
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    I thought I had a boyfriend

    I wouldn't make him jealous. I recommend dealing with him openly and honestly, I know that's hard but you don't want to make things worse. ita with the poster above to keep it platonic from now on.
  50. 1 point

    Zoloft Withdrawal

    Just wanted to let everyone know that if your depressed or still have anxiety DON'T for the love of god just go off all anti-depressants. Switch to another one till your well and then do a very very very long taper. I went off Zoloft got 3 months of brain fog and just now switched to Prozac and its fixed it and feeling better again. If you feel like death warmed up in the morning you need a anti-depressant to help fix you. Good luck
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