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  1. 3 points
    It's wonderful to hear all of the things that everyone is accomplishing. Even the small, seemingly insignificant things matter. Today I went to work. It was a slow day, but the tips were good, so that's something to be thankful for. I also did some dishes. Not all of them, but I was able to make some headway on the pile that has been accumulating over the past few days. My mom stopped by to visit, which was stressful, but I managed to make it through. I didn't cry until she left. All in all, not a terrible day.
  2. 3 points
    ahiddensmile

    Random Thoughts

    If I'm liked on here or anywhere. Then there is a point I don't get with myself. Why I fight hard for others at times but not myself...
  3. 3 points
    I have accomplished didly squat!..........lol I've watched football all day. Didn't even get out of bed until 2 pm central standard time. Slept for about 13 hours straight. I usually sleep about 7. I have kept track with everyones posts in this thread. That's something positive I guess!
  4. 2 points
    goincrazy

    How Do You Feel Today #31

    I feel hopeless,I feel like giving in to the cravings and thoughts .
  5. 2 points
    iceflower

    Hope 2015 Is Better :)

    I think I say this every single year lol... I hope the next year will be better, I hope the next year will be better :) That sort of faint glimmer of hope...that even though everything has SUCKED, it "might" get better. That aint too bad!
  6. 2 points
    StoniumFrog

    A Positive Thread!

    Good to hear you're doing well Curtis. Please though be careful - I've somehow a vision of you attaching a canister of Liquid Hydrogen onto the mower "Heck, I want to get it done FAST!" Good to hear you are keeping it real about the health. Its gone a bit Baltic over here in the last few days and have had one or two ups and downs. But when I remember to calm down and take things easier, reducing them to their basics, it is easier. Ribs getting better - it was mere bruising but like a toothache is like a pyromaniacal orc ... a flamin' nuisance! TC and remember - if everybody else is losing their heads while you are remaining calm ... you probably didn't get the memo P.S. If having a bad day, stop whatever you are doing and throw on some Sigur Ros or Air. Physically, chemically and biologically impossible not to chill listening to them.
  7. 2 points
    InfinateandDistant

    A Positive Thread!

    Hey Gals and Guys, Today has been a pretty good day. I was able to drain the fuel out of my dune buggy and fill my lawnmower with the fuel. Now I just need to mow 1 last time before I put it up for the winter. I have to say I'm enjoying my internet connection. It's pretty sweet and lightning fast. I bought me an XBOX 360 3 month card that allows me to play online. It's pretty sweet!. Lightning fast. I love the game of Need for Speed Rivals. It's an awesome game. I think I'm going to mow as soon as the sun comes up some. I have an appointment tomorrow morning at 9:30 am. I'm doing ok nothing to worry about. My blood pressure may be a little high, but I'm okay other than that. I hope all of you are feeling blessed, loved, and very needed in order for me to live. You guys and gals are just awesome. What we're doing isn't easy. I want you guys to know that I have each and everyone of you. I care for all of you. I think of you as family. Until I hear from you I'm sending you hugs, best wishes, and you have the love of a brother in me. I'm here and not going anywhere. Sincerely, Curtis
  8. 2 points
    Oli92

    Hope 2015 Is Better :)

    Thank you all.
  9. 2 points
    JarrodM

    How Do You Feel Today #31

    Today was brutal. I had to put on my "everything is fine, leave me alone" face. I had a panic attack in the bathroom and I started to cry at my desk before going back to the bathroom so I could cry there. I don't cry very often... maybe once a year if that. Okay, okay.... Positive thing: My cat loves me.
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    Hi . i really like reading what other people are doing. and also I like having to think about what I did. Wasnt much to be sure. I picked up some medicine. I bought supplements from Amazon. I packed up something to bring to the post office tomorrow. I still have to make up some greeting cards to send to someone tomorrow. I have to get moving on that. I should to it right this very moment . Thanks for this thread. Please wish me luck tomorrow going to the postoffice. I cannot put it off another day.
  11. 2 points
    Wrenn84

    What Are You Reading?

    continuing on my nerd a thon by starting to reread LOTR series which I do at least once a year .
  12. 2 points
    went to a pre employment exam for this job I applied for, and passed. not sure if I want this job but I guess I cant decide until I get it lol slept as I didn't sleep at all last night, anxious bought a used laptop, have been living without a computer for about two years lol now Im job searching and sick of having to run to the bibliotheque to do up a cover letter and resume every time since it doesn't work on my ipad started my annual reread of LOTR its my winter tradition applied for a really cool job but don't think I have enough experience did some laundry still have gargantuan pile o'laundry did some journaling.
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    No motivation what so ever
  14. 2 points
    Lack of pleasure in things I used to enjoy.
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    20YearsandCounting

    Random Thoughts

    'Give me a break...it's my first time yellin' at a bag of chips.' -Gabe Gallo, Scorpions (TV series)
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    I often hear the phrase "There are no coincidences". Some people believe that it's because we are part of a grand scheme, that the universe is watching over us. This is sometimes called synchronicity. The fact is, that we all live inside a narrative. It is a story in which we are a character. Narratives are given by our culture, how we were raised, what foundational myths were taught to us. When some event happens, it is very hard to not see meaning in it. That's because of the narrative we live in. A meaning will involuntarily pop out most of the time. A meaning will jump at us and we'll adopt it. Because a narrative is a way of interpreting events. We pick an interpretation that fits with our story. The narrative determines the interpretation. Sometimes, we can't find a meaning. We are faced with something meaningless. That's because we can't find a way to make it fit with the rest of our life story. The narrative we used so far is too limited, it can't handle the new data. Therapists and priests are asked to supply meaning in these cases. In politics, we ask "experts" who appear on tv. For any event, there is a narrative that can give it meaning. But so far it appears that no narrative can give meaning to all events. Religions claim to supply the grand narrative that can give meaning to any event. But even they will say that we can't know everything here, and must wait the next life to find all the answers. There is a patchwork of different overlapping narratives. It's also possible to construct a narrative to make sense of something. Some narratives were constructed to give meaning to a particular event, and were expanded from there. Foundational myths take a particular event, and give it a meaning, and this meaning is expanded upon and gives a narrative. Sometimes, foundational myths don't even need to have really happened. For any event it is possible to give a meaning ad hoc, and expand from there. Anything that is meaningless can be the beginning of a story that changes how we see the world.
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    in the shadows

    Random Thoughts

    I like you ahiddensmile, you are a great person
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    in the shadows

    Hey, Where Is Flasquish?

    I hope he is ok, I have not seen him for a while,
  19. 2 points
    I did not do much today. Sent out a few resumes.
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    Oli92

    Hope 2015 Is Better :)

    @callierose303 :) thank you.
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    Fizzle

    Hey, Where Is Flasquish?

    Good point JD.
  22. 2 points
    I spoke to someone in person about what I am going to have to do when I finish school and what adding an extra semester will do in regards to taking the Bar prep course I signed up for as well as the Bar itself. I'm scared #$%#less but at least I know now what my options are. Problem is, all of them sound impossible.
  23. 2 points
    Already sick of work and I've only been here an hour. I haven't taken more than a day or two away from work since last year. I want to fall out for a 10 day span, but there's always so much going on.
  24. 2 points
    Saturday.......nada. Spoke to my sister about my depression. It was a total waste of time. Watch sports - cricket. Sunday.....slept all day......birthday dinner for my sister.....do the dishes.....met my friends for a coffee. Watch more cricket.
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    coldpain

    Poll On Depersonalisation!

    Yes to all of those, I have a lot of experience with it. It can happen more with lots of stress but generally it's random and I actually don't mind it but I know it can also be very terrifying to some people that don't know how to adapt to it well. I can describe it as everything being very far away but close at the same time with a very deep sense of peace. I can't respnd to people very well and my emotions can sometimes be strange during them. They don't seem to have any triggers besides stress sometimes. I get a lot of vision distortions during them when I do experience episodes with more than very tiny amounts of them such as distortions of color, space, and perception of objects. My body does feel very alien to me in them. I'll seem to just see it for what it is, a thing we're inside that we need to use here. I'll have much less awareness of it when I don't focus on it. I honestly don't feel anything negative from it, it gives me feelings that life as we experience it is like a very powerful short sighted illusion we all share in a nutshell. I have had a complete out of body experience once, I was standing outside of it looking at it down on my bed for some seconds and then everything went black and I woke up in the morning in what seemed like just a second. There was no pain, no perspective of things like temperature or other sensations even though I had some sort of body I was using, no sense of time but no distress related to it either, and much more freedom of movement. These things can last up to around an hour at most I find, when it stops I get a feeling like I've been snapped back into place. And it's not like time is distorted but rather it just isn't there and you're just seeing things happen. This is all separate from depression and anxiety besides sometimes being triggered by stress like I said. I've had them ever since I was very young. I don't seem to have much issues with memory loss though.
  26. 2 points
    Went to the gym before. Had to rush my workout due to getting there at like 6:15 when the gym closes at 7. Should have went earlier, but oh well. Also, got about 10 hours of sleep.
  27. 2 points
    ...Most of my opinion regarding 'people sitting on their butts having children' is based on actual people I know and see regularly in my community, and people I've met in the different places I've lived. I'll quote one able-bodied, highly intelligent young man I know is in his late twenties or early thirties with no disabilitites: 'I won't work, they'll take away my food stamps.' My opinion about 'people sitting on their butts' is based on sentiments like his expressing an unwillingness to work because it would negate food stamp or medical aid qualification. I fully realize there are those who legitmately cannot make ends meet or who legitmately cannot work at all or enough to pay the bills... Hi 20years. I recognize it probably wasn't your intention to be hurtful but it was and although I'm sure it isn't your intention now, either, I'm still finding myself taking offense to your position though I don't dislike you on a personal level or anything like that. So I will state my opinion in response to yours in the most respectful way I can... I've had painful experiences in my life that informs my opinion, as well. I am currently on SSI and SSDI because of a few unfortunate events that have occurred in my life as a result of my major depression and social anxiety symptoms. Before this, at some point, I was on food stamps, though I was still struggling with my depression then as well. One time, my sister (who'd never bothered to be in my life, for the most part but thought she somehow had the knowledge to judge me) said a similar thing about me just sitting on my as* (I wasn't working at the time). She didn't care about my depression or pain, nor did she understand it as a disability that could keep someone from working. She just thought I was making excuses and complaining, instead of doing something about it (later on, she did attempt to find me some help, after I ended up in a mental hospital for telling the truth to an interviewer for a depression study that could've gotten me the therapy and help I needed, that I was having thoughts of suicide. This hospitalization got me kicked out of job corps despite them telling me before I went in, that it wouldn't get me kicked out which is why my sister helped me... I also got turned down for the army because of my mental illness diagnoses in my teenage years). Some people don't even believe in mental illnesses or the struggles that people deal with in relation to them, at all... Honestly, I believe that you aren't in any position to make a call on who is able to work and who isn't for many reasons. You aren't a vocational specialist or vocational counselor or psychologist or anyone with the knowledge to be able to determine that. Your observations about who is capable and not capable of working is purely subjective and based only on your opinion, as you already stated. When it comes to the guy who doesn't want to work because he is afraid of losing his food stamps and medical aid. That seems like a very rational response to me. Based on the current state of the job market, perhaps he's AFRAID of starving and getting sick and racking up tons of medical bills just to stay alive because he can't find a job, after putting in thousands of applications. I don't know the guy though, so all of this is just conjecture on my part. Also, another thing I find really upsetting when it comes to people who take the stance you do, is the fact that you guys never scorn the system, itself (I don't agree with the current world economic structure as it is), but instead, only attack the person at the bottom of the pyramid (using up only one percent or five percent of the resources in a lifetime that a billionaire will use in a year) and scorn him or her who has no choice but to participate in the system as it is, whether he wants to or not. I don't agree with the debt based structure of this system, nor how a few people can amass billions of dollars in wealth while others have to scrape by on food stamps or live in abject poverty in the third world (this stuff really depresses me). Things shouldn't be this way nor do they have to. There are millions of Think Tanks everywhere and yet they can't come up with a better, more sustainable economic system. NO, it's because they don't WANT to change the system as it currently is because it BENEFITS them. And yes, it benefits me too but that doesn't mean I'm still not entitled to my feelings about it. If I had the power, things would be different (at least, I'd hope, I'm still human [unfortunately]) but I don't, so... Another thing I should mention is that there often aren't enough jobs available for people to work and this is this way by design. Also, this system is set up in such a way that not everyone can work a job based on their actual talents or abilities. Instead, they are forced to work jobs that make them into emotionless robots (I'm very emotionally sensitive and have major depression and anxiety symptoms, so I don't fit well into that) and non-entities with no consideration of their talents and/or abilities. Often times, people are circles being shoved and forced into square pegs. Some people just can't deal with that and have nervous breakdowns, end up with mental illness and miserable, develop physical health problems, etc. Not everyone is capable of going to school, either because they don't have the abilities for that (intelligence, mental capacity, belief in themselves, self-esteem, emotional support, discipline, motivation, energy, etc.). Further, not everyone can work fast food or retail or in sells or the service industries. That's why people with severe mental illnesses end up outcasts in society. This structure does not take the real and profound limitations of people as individuals and human beings, into consideration. Instead, it only sees them as a bunch of robots with a number stamped to their heads. Also, many people such as yourself, seem to place value judgements on whether people work or not. The impression I got, reading your post, was that you despise people who do not work and feel that they are lesser than you and others who do work and that they are less valuable, overall along with BAD and EVIL for not working. Who cares about the other aspects of who they are or that they volunteer or have other value systems or definitions of success such as spirituality, mental improvement, etc. that aren't based on WORKING? All that matters is that they work. But more specifically, that they do something which earns them an income (NOT earning an income, despite doing things, doesn't count...). It doesn't even matter what kind of work they do or if that job fits them or they are able to actually DO the work without having a nervous breakdown or dying at an early age, just that they WORK. When it comes to myself, I'm insecure about enough things as it is and I come to this forum so that I can feel like I'm not alone and get some support, not to feel lambasted and ridiculed. It hurts to see posts like yours, reminding me of yet another reason why I should not feel valuable about myself and why I'm different from others and don't belong. I get so tired of people's judgements and condemnations in this society (there's just too many to count and it gets overwhelming). Most people are already aware of their deficiencies and what they need to work on and what other people are scorning them for without people like yourself constantly rubbing their deficiencies in their faces without ever looking at or addressing your own. Lastly, not everyone is like you and are capable of working. We have different life experiences, brains, temperaments, personalities, etc. I've heard people say, in a manner of words, that if they can work with their limitations, why can't this person? They aren't you and you aren't them, it's as simple as that...
  28. 1 point
    Hi, my name is Nancy and I recently tried to commit suicide. Don't know why it didn't work and don't know why I don't have any permanent damage from the attempt but I now understand that there are other options and I just need to learn ways to deal with everything that is going on in my life. One thing I learned from being in a lock-down unit at the hospital, is that having people who've been there, to talk to, makes a big difference in how I feel. I'm really looking forward to being part of this forum.
  29. 1 point
    Sorry I didn't answer all your questions. The group therapy was awful. I hated it with a passion but it must have helped. My therapist was great. I am not sure exactly how it worked but she developed positive attachments with me.
  30. 1 point
    hocico

    How Do You Feel Today #31

    Relieved, things went better than I expected at my appointment but I still feel nervous about having to make a decision regarding my health.
  31. 1 point
    Happy birthday GAJ123! I hope so too.
  32. 1 point
    GoldenEve

    Hey, Where Is Flasquish?

    It's been quite a while that I having see posting from flasquish or epitectus another amazing fellow. Hope they are both doing OK.
  33. 1 point
    @Hopeless, funny thing is Ive only seemed to have developed a soft spot for John Frusciante recently since watching an interview from several years ago! He is in no way gonna replace "D" not in a million years, I don't have any feelings for him In that way! But you were right on the band RHCP! "D" joined them if I remember right in 1993 after John left, then "D" left RHCP in about 1997 and John then replaced him. Strange affair! I do remember being heartbroken, because I wouldn't see him as much, and my schoolwork really suffered. Are you feeling any better today? @Ewing, I agree it is a relief that it's not the same Dave! Maybe we should swap countries. Lol. Has your Dave been in the band a similar length of time 20 years? my "D" has been in his main band on and off over the years and has joined other ones though for a little while too. Also how old is your Dave, if you don't mind me asking? It's interesting that we have the same name of CO and although I haven't a clue who your Dave is, I've got a feeling he may look similar to my "D"! Also are your feeling ok today? @Vicecitykitty, nice to see hear from you again, but I'm sorry your having a rough time at present! Do you think you would be happy to go back to JT, was he someone who brought you happiness?
  34. 1 point
    God has shown His presence in my life so many times. There were three accidents in my life when I should not have lived, but I did. Many people since have told me that God has a purpose for me here on Earth, or He would have taken me then. That is the only thing that keeps me alive sometime when I feel that I have hit bottom and can't go on. I wish I could say that it made those down times easier, but it really does not. It only gives me enough strength to keep going for a little longer. One of these days, whether here on Earth or in Heaven, I won't have to deal with this anymore.
  35. 1 point
    I want to go to sleep before 3am and wake up anytime after 6am. Just once. Come on Insomnia. Get in touch with your inner Santa and drop some sweet dreams down my chimney.
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    hystericalanduseless

    Random Thoughts

    Could, would, should of life's complicated enough as it is
  37. 1 point
    Fizzle

    The "how Do You Feel Right Now?" Thread

    Really self hating. Just for a change. I guess I at least haven't lost my capacity for self sarcasm.
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    in the shadows

    What Are You Eating?

    popcorn , I love the stuff
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  40. 1 point
    Ah, I think I can take a guess even though it is just that. Some t's use only one type of t and believe in it passionately and exclusively. The two most extreme camps when it comes to this are psychodynamic and CBT. There are a certain amount of each that have scorn for the other. You do of course get many other t's who use multiple approaches and don't feel that way. Or who do one but are not that anti the other. Psychodynamic therapy when done properly is very complex and someone doing a behavioural therapy at the same time may well interfere with what is being achieved. To think of what psychodynamic entails then think Freud. It can also apply to other types of psychoanalyses such as Jungian therapy though. One thing the t avoids at all cost when doing formal psychodynamic is telling the person what to do or think. You can see how opposite that is to CBT. As for your other question: just my take but what about reevaluating when you get there. Personally although I am forever grateful for DBT and especially mindfulness, all my deepest healing has come from talk therapy. I think a lot depends on the person though. And yes talk t is more scary I find as it isn't all cut and dried, Glad you enjoyed your first taste of DBT.
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    in the shadows

    What Are You Eating?

    coffee and a pumpkin donut
  42. 1 point
    ahiddensmile

    What Really Bugs You #6

    When people you think will be there and be real with you end up being a whole different person and leave.
  43. 1 point
    Ditto, Camellia
  44. 1 point
    I was on Sertraline for 4 years and only when I stopped it did I realise that my neck/shoulder pain had gone. It does include 'joint/muscle pain' as a side effect but this is something far more specific - and serious.
  45. 1 point
    Paddry what a beautiful prayer. U can pray for me anytime n I'm not joking. If only others had your words. Lord bless
  46. 1 point
    delete FB, I know you said you coudnt but its could help alot. like now I have FB because of teamwork . I did add some friend, I used to be bummed if I didnt get lot of like, sometime I only wanted to do an activity so I could post on FB. but I think its been going on for so long that now I don't care lol Congrat for running all this!!!!! I wish I could get off my butt and do some exercise -_-
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    I have suffered from this for a some time now... It was very bad before, now only mild. It became easier when I realized that ''I AM GOOD ENOUGH!''. No reason to be envious or jealous to anyone. I am ME and that's completely fine!
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    Epictetus

    What To Do When One Feels Humiliated?

    Hi RG, How awful that you are treated that way! I have the same experience sometimes both in religious and secular situations. Don't know if it would be helpful to you, but I learned something from a psychologist for dealing with those situations and it helps me. It consists in responding to rude remarks or tones of voice with a single word: 'WHAT?' This works [for me and others] because it is not so provocative as to start an argument, not so passive as to merely allow rudeness and . . . as a question, it throws it back to the person who is being rude. It gives them another chance to rephrase what they said in a less rude way. If the person responds to your 'WHAT?' with another rude remark, just say 'WHAT?' again. One can keep doing this over and over again. Here is a little example of this in action: They say: "Do this!!!" You say: "WHAT?" They say: "I said, do this!!!" You say: "WHAT?" They say: "Are you hard of hearing of something? You say: "WHAT?" They say" "You're crazy" You say: "WHAT?" et cetera The person behaving rudely gets nothing but "WHAT?" unless or until they treat you with respect. This psychological technique seems to work in many situations. Nothing is perfect of course. My apologies if this advice is not helpful to you R.G. It can also help or might help, to realize that your worth and dignity as a unique human being is intrinsic to your being and cannot be taken from you by others no matter what they say or do. Throw mud on a diamond and it is still a diamond. I hope the situation improves for you ! ! !
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    Hi VJoy Forums can be a little overwhelming if you are not used to them, but you will eventually get used to it and you can pm any moderator or Admin for help and we will be more than happy to help you. You may want to join in a couple of threads in One Step at a Time and the Water Cooler. Also try and post in topics of people that you can relate to and that will start conversations. Once you have 20 posts, you will be able to access the chat room and you can make some pretty good friends in there. There are some pretty good people in the chat. Trace
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