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  1. 18 points
    MaepleSyrup

    To everyone with depression.

    I just wanted to take a moment and tell you all that I am so proud of you for waking up to another day. I know it may be hard and I know you all are struggling, but what matters most is that you survived another difficult day- know why? Because you are strong. You have managed to fight those depressive thoughts and managed to wake up to another morning. I want us all to be proud of each other for still being here and not giving in to our suicidal thoughts. You all deserve better days and better lives, but don't forget how strong you are for facing your own battle. Sometimes, it may seem like you are waking up to the same morning or same day, but just try to believe in that one special day where everything changes. It's almost like war- there's almost no way to determine when the battle will end, but there will always be an ending. That day will come. Just keep it in mind. I wish you all the best day/night, and again: I'm so proud to see all of you who make it past each and every night. Every day you wake up to is another yesterday succeeded! Keep your heads up! You got this 🙂
  2. 15 points
    JD4010

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    I'm doing better than I was yesterday. Five hours of sleep definitely helped. I'm training myself to think of my cats when I start getting down at work. I need to be there for them. They were abandoned when they were 8 years old. Now they depend on me. And I depend on them to make me laugh. 🙂
  3. 14 points
    sober4life

    How do You Feel Right Now? #12

    I'm a week away from being sober for 900 days. I have to keep that in mind to get through the rest of this nightmare!
  4. 14 points
    jkd_sd

    How do You Feel Right Now? #12

    Honestly do not know how I feel. As I have posted before, the anxiety is pretty well handled, but the depression is being stubborn. Just came from the counselor, and I am going to try a different approach -- if I can make myself. I told my counselor I was going to come to this site (not the actual site name) and ask for some support while I try to get a handle on the depression. She thought that was a good idea. Sooo, here I am. When I first came to this site, I kept waiting for someone to 'scold' me for responses I posted. ☹️ It took me a long time to realize that was because I am used to that reaction from the 'real world'. Every time someone leaves me a 'Like', etc., it is such a positive thing. Thank you all for your support. (((Hugs))) to all.
  5. 14 points
    salparadise6132

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    Thank you everyone!!! So, so much. I am sorry I put you through any worry - though I am touched. I took an overdose last Friday morning. Fortunately, the only think I had in my cupboard was a bottle of expired "statins," which my doctor said would not do the trick. I have been in the mental ward without phone for the past six days. They set me free this morning. I am feeling much better. I have a plan. They helped me so much, the doctors, nurses, social workers, therapists and most especially, the other folks in with me. I love you all!!!!!! And I'm glad to be back.
  6. 13 points
    To all the neurotypicals who never really got what living with a mental illness is like. Having a hard time adapting to life during a pandemic? 😬 Are you struggling to cope with unbearable debilitating anxiety? 🤯 Do you have intrusive, persistent thoughts that scare the crap out of you? 😭 Does the present situation distress you and our future prospects depress you? 😷 Are you afraid of going outside? Do you keep checking and rechecking yourself for possible contamination? 🧟‍♂️ Are you frightened of people, feeling unsafe near them? Having a hard time focusing on work? 👀 Are you feeling isolated and disconnected from others? 😰 Unable to enjoy the activities you used to? Problems sleeping? 🥺 Wishing this would all just go away? (Or, I dunno. Have you considered that maybe this is all in your head because tbh I don't see anything wrong with you. You're probably just making this up to get attention). 🙄 Welcome to our world.
  7. 12 points
    Nightjar

    MERRY XMAS

    To everyone who celebrates: Wishing you a Happy Xmas this year. Thankyou so much for all of your suport this year. Love you guys xoxo xoxo 🎄
  8. 12 points
    I know things are becoming very difficult for some of us out there. But I want to encourage everyone to continue to trust in the Power of the Living One and to know that the land will be healed of this Coronavirus that is putting fear into the people hearts. Stay uplifted and trust in the Mighty Power of God. Be blessed your DB friend Favor2020
  9. 12 points
    20YearsandCounting

    Dave

    I appreciate the thought, iWantRope, but I think it would be best if his threads and posts remained up. He was able to help so many others, and they might still help/inspire others. I will run the idea past the site owner, though. I would expect that she would want his posts to remain up, though. Thank you for thinking of Dave.
  10. 12 points
    Sorry to interrupt your scrolling, but I just thought you should know that All of You (Us) Are Amazing and Deserve to Be Happy!
  11. 12 points
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    I also found out my refrigerator has a 1 year manufacture warranty. Let's hope my "repairs" don't get in the way of that. Today has been a good day for a change. I'm dancing around the room I'm so happy and pumped up.
  12. 12 points
    adamrparr

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    Doing okay. Left work early sick yesterday, legitimately, and am out today at home. Actually sick. Feeling better though. Mentally/emotionally ok. Still very much getting used to living a new & different life now. It’s more of an adjustment than I originally thought it would be. It’s worth it but I don’t tend to like change, especially when it’s so widespread & fundamental. However, I’m very grateful. Really glad that the Sun’s shining.
  13. 12 points
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    Nobody really fixes a microwave. The people at the hardware store acted like I was an idiot. I had 2 microwaves neither one was working. I got one to work. The other one if there was a repairman here he would say go buy a new one. I have one going and the other one will stay here for parts for now. I got one to work. Who's the idiot now hardware store people? All that was wrong was a fuse needed replaced inside that cost $3.50. I painted some things here too a couple of weeks ago and stained the decks outside. I love fixing things. My first instinct is to do it myself and learn how to do things so I don't have to ask anyone for anything.
  14. 12 points
    evalynn

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    Etta is out of surgery! She is resting and recovering right now. Hopefully we can take her home in a couple days. 🙂
  15. 11 points
    So, everyone, I want to be helpful on these forums. I really do. You're all amazingly strong people going through stuff you dont' deserve. Problem is, I'm often not here. I'm sick a lot, I had a breakdown again recently, and I just don't think I'm that supportive overall. I"m away for long periods of time. But I wanted to say keep fighting! Don't give up! And don't let anyone who doesn't 'get it' tell you what to do or how you should feel. Sorry I'm not the best help out there, but I want to say that you all deserve the best!
  16. 11 points
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    I feel pretty good today. I need to get a job delivering mail around here. Most Fridays he doesn't bother to show up. He probably picks up the mail and then just goes home and doesn't deliver it until Saturday or Monday. Some days he doesn't show up on Saturday either. Around here people can use their own cars to deliver the mail so you can get away with that. I suppose I can't get angry at someone for doing the same thing I would probably do.
  17. 11 points
    i went out yesterday so that was cool.
  18. 11 points
    jkd_sd

    Dave

    Thank you for letting us know. I have been thinking about him and wondering how things were going. I have nothing to add that has not already been said. Peace to all. I sincerely wish all of you comfort and hugs.
  19. 11 points
    Laila

    Dave

    I feel sad now. He was an amazing person... Rest in peace, Mark! You're already being missed here...
  20. 11 points
    Depressedgurl007

    Dave

    I’m so sorry. This is heartbreaking but at least he is at peace now. I’ve always admired Mark for his strength and he had an impact in my daily life. A great soul has been lost. Thank you @adamrparr for being his friend, though you might be feeling lost now, I hope he has given you the strength to keep going. Life can seem so short sometimes
  21. 11 points
    Nightjar

    Dave

    I'm so sorry Adam. I'm glad that he had your support before he left us. He needed every bit of support he could get. Thankyou for being such a good friend to him. Love to you and love to Dave. I will never forget him. He meant a lot to me.
  22. 11 points
    Nightjar

    Dave

    Oh God. This is such sad news. I loved Mark. At least we know that he is no longer suffering. There is no more suffering for him now. And that thought will bring me some peace. Wishing peace to all of you who loved and knew him here. He helped me so much and he helped a great deal of others. Mark, I'm glad you are at peace now. Thankyou for all that you did for me. I hope it was peaceful for you before you went and I will never forget you. I will speak of you often Nightjar
  23. 11 points
    Tid322

    Dave

    I didn’t know him well, and yet somehow he made such a massive impact. He was always thoughtful and honest. I just hope he has some peace, he deserves that and so much more. What a wonderful soul we have lost. Thank you for letting us know.
  24. 11 points
    sober4life

    Dave

    He certainly helped me and supported me. He was an amazing friend to me. I fully believe in life there are angels that come along to help you through the parts you can't get through on your own. He was one of those angels in my life. I love you man! I'm crying my eyes out right now. I hope you're at peace and I hope you know how much you meant to me and everyone here. You were an amazing man and an inspiration to me. God I'm going to miss you so much!😭
  25. 11 points
    anxiousE

    Dave

    I'm going to say something before I lose my nerve (I'm terrible at these things). I'm deeply sorry to hear this. I didn't know him that well, but what was going on with him is just devastating. I'm so sorry you have to go through this now. Now is the extremely hard part for you...but you can overcome this! You and everyone close to him are in my heart right now and I send my deepest and sincerest condolences. Like I said, I'm really bad at this. I couldn't even talk to one of my friends after her brother was killed. It's just really hard for me, especially with someone I know. But if I've learned anything from that experience it's that I need to say at least something. I truly hope this something is somewhat of meaningful to you. Hang in there! Stay strong! Dave would want it that way.
  26. 11 points
    evalynn

    MERRY XMAS

    Merry Christmas, everybody! Hope your day is filled with peace, love & joy!
  27. 11 points
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    I got my car fixed. Hopefully I have some peace for a while.
  28. 11 points
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    It's going to be another busy day. People will be here in 10 minutes to help me cut up the wood and get it out of here. We can't burn here until January so there's going to be a huge pile of brush for a while but one thing at a time.😧
  29. 11 points
    Nightjar

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    Feeling OK this morning. I woke up feeling fairly positive for a change.
  30. 11 points
    idkusername465

    People suck

    I think it would be really healthy to eliminate people from your life who you feel don't reciprocate your love and affection and only drain your energy.
  31. 11 points
    JD4010

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    Well, I'm feeling 10,000 tons lighter than I did earlier today. Had it out with the boss this morning and I'm still employed. It was actually a somewhat constructive meeting. I honestly thought I was going to get the axe. It's a huge relief to find out my fears were far greater than reality.
  32. 11 points
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    It's crazy next month I will be sober for 2 years. Every other time I quit my situation was much better but somehow I've been able to do this in what has basically been a horror story nightmare the whole time. There was never any real hope but here I am beating all the odds. It feels good.
  33. 11 points
    MarkintheDark

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    I know EXACTLY what you're talking about. idk if someone else's similar experience will be useful, but here goes. My folks divorced when I was very young, five. At the time, back in the Dark Ages, it was assumed - heck, mandated - the mother would have custody. Mine was a narcissist who remarried and moved us out of state. The marriage lasted barely a year. Meanwhile, Dad, too, remarried to a strong, wonderful, compassionate Irish woman who, like your fiance's parents, always treated me as one of her own. She and Dad provided the only sense of unconditional love and normalcy I ever had, albeit only a few times a year when I was permitted visitation. The torture of returning to the narcissist's lair was, so many times, more than I could handle. On returning, I'd be peppered with questions about my visit which she'd use as ammunition to reassert that they "spoiled" me, that they were out to undermine her authority, etc. Even right into my teenage years, I'd cry myself to sleep when I was about to be returned to her or when I'd returned. I was completely isolated. Put bluntly, the woman was a bully and I was her convenient, perpetual target for her sadistic inclinations. Sound familiar? Like you, I counted the days until I'd be free of her. It was an extension of counting the days until I saw Dad again. And, whenever possible, I'd find almost any excuse at your age to avoid "home." imo, that's a good relief valve for you. It's not a mistake. Even at that, it took years for me to get my revenge. And, make no mistake, it was revenge. As I became an adult, I was able to confront her and not back down every dam time she tried to reassert control. I also became successful in my career and the b*tch couldn't stand that. Eventually, about 12 years from my emancipation and to my considerable satisfaction, I was able to cut her off completely. Let me add, too, you're not completely isolated. You have us.
  34. 11 points
    evalynn

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    Etta is home from the hospital! She's groggy but fine. We haves meds to give her, and in about two weeks her sutures will have to be taken out. Then in about a month, we'll get the results on her bladder stone and it will tell us what kind of food she should be on. She's sleeping on the couch right next to me right now. 🙂 On another note, the estimate they quoted us was way overblown. They actually owe us money from the deposit! It's still a lot of money but it sounds way better than what they originally said.
  35. 10 points
    MSC71

    Happy Thanksgiving

    Some of us will be alone today.....some of us will be with others today and still feel alone..... loneliness is a state of mind.....to all the people who struggle with depression and anxiety....My heart goes out to you....only because I understand..... The holidays are the toughest for us.....just want anyone who sees this to know you are not alone...
  36. 10 points
    Natasha1

    Dave

    Oh my God. He was so good to me. He would check in on me with kind words and encouragement out of the blue. Thats how i knew him. Through messages like that. Such a good person. Im so sad right now.
  37. 10 points
    June322

    Dave

    I feel for you so much! Many of us felt close to him as it is since he was such an active member that really took the time to hear others out and help us ease our pains anyway he could. I can only imagine how you feel since you were even closer to him. Hope that you feel better soon and just know he truly did a positive impact on many of us here. Hope it helps to know he is at peace now. So much love to you and everyone here struggling. We're a community that feels the pain together.
  38. 10 points
    Tears_Always

    Dave

    @adamrparr I am so sorry for your loss, your world just got smaller. Hugs.
  39. 10 points
    BeyondWeary

    Dave

    Oh, no! So sad that he is no longer with us. My heart goes out to you and all of us here. May he rest peacefully. BW
  40. 10 points
    BeyondWeary

    MERRY XMAS

    Have a blessed Christmas! So grateful for everyone here! BW
  41. 10 points
    JD4010

    MERRY XMAS

    Thank you. I wish you and everyone here the same.
  42. 10 points
    RiverLight

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    WOW!!!! I just had the most positive meeting with my CEO!!! He loves my work, he’s proud of me and says I’ve come a long way, he reiterated how much he likes me and that he believes in me, and he sees me in a leadership role! He also made it clear that my boss’s opinions of me have been stated in the form of pure self interest. Oooooooieeeeeeee!!!
  43. 10 points
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    I got the remaining 8 trees cut down. All 11 dead trees are cut down. Now it's the fun of the cleanup. I never thought I would get all of them down. What a relief. What a mess!
  44. 10 points
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    I feel proud of myself. Survival has forced me to figure out things. My refrigerator stopped completely and I got it working again. Now I'm moving onto microwave repair. I think I finally found things I enjoy. Fixing things around the house like the plumbing and the refrigerator is enjoyable to me. I never thought I could do these things so when I get things to work it feels so good.
  45. 10 points
    nojoy

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    Never thought I'd hear myself saying this but I feel good. Hopefully it will continue.
  46. 10 points
    My two cats are rubbing their chins and wets noses against my arm, and occasionally licking me (when they want to - you know, they are cats LOL), to say I'm their kin and that they accept and appreciate me. I'm not sure what could be better than that, especially when I know these two girls are rescues from under an overpass on HWY 401.
  47. 10 points
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    I found out that the hospital where I was abused and I saw others be abused as well was shut down for good so I will never have to go there again no matter what happens. It's very rare for a hospital to close forever but maybe someone was stronger than I was. I hope the doctors that hurt me never work anywhere again.
  48. 10 points
    Floor2017

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    well, my day didn't start off to good today. I left my pain medicine and I'm hurting really bad and of course that is affecting my thought process. But, about a hour later my daughter brought me my bag and bought me breakfast. It really cheered me up and now I am looking for things to improve from that point on in my day.
  49. 10 points
    nojoy

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    I feel good. I spend about 2 hours at the local animal shelter while my brother adopted a cat. I talked to a lot of seniors and played many kittens. My brother adopted a pretty calico, very shy but will play when she gets use to you. Almost came home with a very playful kitten, but knew my two kitties would not like it.
  50. 10 points
    Kogent5

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    Yes! Not only are we not supposed to be proud of the progress we've made, but we should be ashamed of the situation we are currently in (as if we haven't spend much of our time beating ourselves up mentally). The people that encourage me are on DF. So I'm gonna be thankful and keep moving forward with my progress and my goals and be proud of myself, even if they aren't. I hope you will too.
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