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  2. samadhiSheol

    TA's "What's On Your Mind Right Now?" Thread, Part 2

    Anxiety. Stuck in this pointless existence. My life is wasting away, for the reason that I haven't a clue who I am or what i want. "Knock knock. No one there". Nothing within me. I am tired of people and there stupidity. People aren't stupid per se, it's that they CHOOSE stupidity and more to the point choose to stay stupid. I am stupid. If i weren't, I'd have a life.
  3. SpiralingMind

    Favorite Cartoon Character(s) 8-]]

    Mr. Peabody and Sherman
  4. SpiralingMind

    Natasha1's "How Is Your Weather Today?" #18

    Winter storm watch. Snow starting ~11:00 and will continue for 24 hours. Then c-o-l-d (highs in single digits F). Why the h-ll do I live here?
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  6. Lady Mozzer

    The "what would you like to be doing" thread

    I`d like to be sleeping right now but I didn`t take my bedtime meds.
  7. Lady Mozzer

    What Are You Listening To? #3

    Reel Around The Fountain ~ The Smiths
  8. Lady Mozzer

    What Did You Do Today? #2

    Helped my Mom pack away some kitchen stuff Visited with my little sister and my nieces and nephew and my cousin Did some laundry
  9. MaepleSyrup

    Better Conditioning.

    I've been doing a lot better physically. I've found myself going to the gym more often and pushing myself to actually have a better diet than before- better choices in breakfast, cutting out snacking, and not going to my favorite coffee place as much is did (which was every other day). I've toned up a bit and have been losing weight. I plan on keeping this up. Work is still going great, just never in the mood for dealing with people's unnecessary bs. Though, I have a great reputation and experience in my job overall, so there's nothing really to complain about. I've been making enough for me to live off of for both myself and my pet- luckily, I don't see myself leaving my job anytime soon I haven't been as harsh on myself lately, but I still feel lonely. I haven't found the courage to really socialize with people and I've been growing more distant with the two people I've been socializing with; I'm finding it harder and harder to start up conversations with them and keeping them going. But I will say that I did buy some birthday gifts for one of the volunteers and they seemed to really appreciate them. Since then, we've been socializing a bit more. My coworkers are probably the people I socialize with most, if not my family. While I may not have an outlet towards sharing things with people, I at least have them to chat with to clear my mind Ive been improving a lot with my physical and (somewhat) mental health. As for emotions and socializing, they've probably seen better states. I plan on taking a vacation soon, but I'm just worried on who would watch my pet while I'm away XD Other than that, things aren't too bad for the moment, but I hope it stays this way I hope you all have been doing well too. Just remember to keep your heads up. I wish you all the best with better days ahead of you Thank you for reading
  10. MarkintheDark

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    Turned into a scary day for me health-wise. That li'l cold blew up a bit into a mucous-fest that put my COPD into overdrive. Had a few coughing sessions that were exactly like the ones before I put myself into the hospital in October. Not being able to draw sufficient breath is terrifying enough...shaking, gripping the edge of the table. Add some anxiety that crests into full-on panic and that describes it. Yeah, considered putting myself in the ER again. tbh, too, considering my HIV, I have to admit pneumonia crossed my mind, despite having dodged it for 26 years. Each time I managed to slow my breathing and calm down enough even to doze off, albeit only on my back. My inhalers only helped a little. Had to PM with one of my DF buddies for support. Took me hours to build up the courage to venture out to the drugstore for the Robitussin DM they gave me in the hospital and that was the only thing that worked. Yeah, that simple. But not easy. For the first time all day, I'm feeling like I may survive this round. I'm physically and emotionally exhausted and may even yet indulge in a good cry.
  11. Extremebeginner

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    I just put some oils in my vapouriser and am going to tr6 to sleep with trickling water, lights and a nice aroma, wishing us all a decent nights rest
  12. evalynn

    Make a sentence game- by alphabet

    Brenda brings barely buttered bread by Billy's bungalow.
  13. SunshineorSadness

    I think I'm getting better 😃

    That's great to hear ChrissyNoelle! Life is certainly a rollercoaster and depression is like riding without a safety restraint. But once at solid ground we get to know how strong and invincible we truly are!
  14. Devlinkyla

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    I don’t think you did anything to deserve this me on the eather hand I’ll tell yea I missed up pretty good not trying to sound I don’t know how ever that sounds
  15. sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    I know it's miserable. I go out and see other people enjoy life and then here we are honestly believing this could be the real hell. I wouldn't be surprised a bit if it was true. I don't know what we did to deserve all of this.
  16. Devlinkyla

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    I agree it is hell sorry you feel that way also
  17. sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #10

    Thank you! I'll be ok. I'm just in a miserable time in my life.
  18. ChrissyNoelle

    I think I'm getting better 😃

    Hey guys, been gone since Christmas got hella busy for me, and after that was a HUGE emotional rollercoaster. But for once it was a good one. However Christmas was a bit melancholy this year, with depression and "growing up" making it a bit duller. Still taking antidepressants, upped my dose a bit ago and it made an impact. I was pretty much out of commission for days but it may have given me a boost. I think I've got the direct aftermath point of depression. I'm surrounded by rubble in my mind and I'm trying to build a couple bricks back up. The bloody battle is pretty much over but I'm very hesitant to try to go back to a vibrant life. I kind of just want to lay low for a long time. I wasn't one for an energetic lifestyle in the first place anyway. My psychiatrist keeps pushing me to find a group in town to hang with, but honestly I think it would just exhaust me. I'm trying to get back to more schoolwork but I keep getting sick and it just gets too hard. Even though I feel I don't have the energy to go out and do recreational stuff, I've actually improved relations a bit. My best friend asked me to be his girlfriend shortly after New Year's, so I'm in my first relationship. My brothers are being slightly less little pricks. And my parents are showing to be less paranoid than I thought. Speaking of which they're gonna let my boyfriend visit in summer. So I'm very excited. Stopped feeling like I don't want to do anything, and suicidal thoughts are almost nonexistent now. I'm working back into a routine and things feel like they're going to a normal pace. So yeah. I'm doing a lot better than I was.
  19. Hearing the songs that used to play on the easy listening station my mom would listen to in the car when I was a kid. Remembering random things that made me laugh or silly inside jokes between my little sister and I. Whenever I think of an aardvark, I remember the song from Sesame Street that went "I'm an aardvark and I'm proud..."
  20. Epictetus

    funny miscommunications

    At the first Olympic games, athletes ran, threw the javelin and hurled the biscuits.
  21. My husband actually cooked dinner for us tonight for the first time. He made lamb with sweet potatoes and onions. It wasn't bad at all. We also got some grocery shopping done, watched some TV, and went on our walk.
  22. Epictetus

    What would you like to buy

    I'd like to buy a Boeing 707 airplane to put in my backyard.
  23. Take a ride in a submarine
  24. Epictetus

    TA's "What's On Your Mind Right Now?" Thread, Part 2

    I'm thinking of writing a book.
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