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  2. Pulled my weight at work. Finishing a course I'm doing. Done my physiotherapy exercises. Doing whatever I can to feel better about myself. Being there for people. No sense of accomplishment though. No satisfaction. Just emptiness. I've never felt true satisfaction in my life.
  3. Tired of fighting with myself

    Hi SpeSalvi, Depression is awful. Beyond awful. There really are no words to describe it. Although I am not in your shoes, I feel a kinship with you because it feels like we are in the same boat or maybe in different boats in the same stormy ocean. The battle is so tiring. One small thing can drain one's energy in a split second, Sometimes I feel like a snow pack on a mountain top. Everything is precarious and then it is as though just one teeny tiny flake of snow can cause an avalanche. I often feel so tired and spent. You put what I am feeling into vivid words. I don't know if it will be any consolation to you, but I see you as a very noble human being of great worth and stature. You help people here on the Forums with your posts. You help me. This is healing and life saving. I could never see those who save lives as worthless. Quite the opposite. I can only look up to them in awe and great respect. There is an old saying that goes something like this: "Whoever saves a single life saves the world entire." That you help save lives here on the Forums is astounding in itself. But what is even more awe inspiring is that you do it in the midst of the most terrible personal agony and pain! I am certainly eternally grateful for how you have helped me with your posts!!! - epictetus
  4. ED Recovery Reading List

    The mindfulness and acceptance workbook for bulimia Author: Emily K Sandoz, Kelly G Wilson, Troy Dufrene The approach to moving beyond bulimia in this book is different than other treatments you may have tried. Instead of encouraging you to avoid or fight against the conflicted feelings you have about food and your body, this workbook invites you to welcome and accept your deepest fears, learn to live with them, and put the things that are really important in your life first. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  5. ED Recovery Reading List

    Telling ED no! Author: Cheryl Kerrigan Recovery from an eating disorder requires support of all kinds, and this book is filled with ideas, exercises, and insights.with over 100 practical recovery tools. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  6. ED Recovery Reading List

    Why weight Author: Geneen Roth A workbook that will enable readers to explore for themselves the issues that lead to compulsive eating. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  7. ED Recovery Reading List

    Overcoming binge eating Author: Christopher Fairburn This trusted bestseller provides all the information needed to understand binge eating and bring it under control, whether you are working with a therapist or on your own. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  8. 4 months off prozac - soooo depressed

    Hi and welcome to the Forums, Apollo555, I am so sorry you are undergoing such anguish and pain ! ! ! How awful ! ! ! Since I do not have any personal experience with Prozac, I am hoping those members who use Prozac or have gone off of it will respond to your post. It is just heartbreaking what you are going through! Just heartbreaking! ! ! Wish I knew what to so or say to help. But I am at a loss here. So sorry I am unable to be helpful! - epictetus
  9. ED Recovery Reading List

    The anorexia workbook Authors: Michelle Heffner, Georg H Eifert Structured in a logical, step-by-step progression of exercises, the workbook first focuses on providing you with a new understanding of anorexia and the ways you might have already tried to control the problem. Then the book progresses through techniques that teach how to use mindfulness to deal with out-of-control thoughts and feelings, how to identify choices that lead to better heath and quality of life, and how to redirect the energy formerly spent on weight loss into actions that will heal the body and mind. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  10. ED Recovery Reading List

    Overcoming bulimia workbook Authors: McCabe, McFarlane, Olmsted This workbook contains tools to help people struggling with bulimia to break the cycle of bingeing and reacting, allowing them to take control of their lives and make positive behavior changes. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  11. ED Recovery Reading List

    The invisible man: a self-help guide for men with eating disorders, compulsive exercise and bigorexia Author: John F Morgan Applies the latest research to produce a practical, problem-focused self-help manual for men with eating disorders and body image problems. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  12. ED Recovery Reading List

    Sensing the self Author: Sheila Reindl To recover, bulimic women need to develop a sense of self--to attune to their physical, psychic, and social self-experience. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  13. ED Recovery Reading List

    Hope, help and healing for eating disorders Author: Gregory Jantz In this powerful book Dr. Gregory Jantz shares his well-tested and successful approach that addresses the emotional, relational, physical, and spiritual dimensions of healing from an eating disorder. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  14. ED Recovery Reading List

    Bulimia: a guide to recovery Authors: Lindsey Hall, Leigh Cohn This self-help guidebook offers a complete understanding of bulimia and a plan for recovery. It includes a two-week program to stop bingeing, ideas for things to do instead of bingeing, a guide for support groups, specific advice for loved ones, and the author’s inspirational story of her self-cure. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  15. ED Recovery Reading List

    Lying in weight Author: Trisha Gura In this groundbreaking book, science journalist Trisha Gura explodes the myth that those who suffer from eating disorders, including anorexia nervosa and bulimia nervosa, are primarily teenage girls. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  16. ED Recovery Reading List

    Goodbye ed, hello me Author: Jenni Schaefer In “Goodbye Ed, Hello Me” Jenni shows you that being fully recovered is not just about breaking free from destructive behaviors with food and having a healthy relationship with your body; it also means finding joy and peace in your life. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  17. ED Recovery Reading List

    Life without ED Authors: Jenni Schaefer, Thom Rutledge Prescriptive, supportive, and inspirational, “Life Without Ed“ shows readers how they too can overcome their eating disorders. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
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  19. ED Recovery Reading List

    Eating disorders: the path to recovery Author: Dr Kate Middleton Written primarily for young adults, this insightful handbook is designed to push those suffering from eating disorders towards recovery. Information is provided on every aspect of eating disorders, including what they are, how they operate, who is prone to have them, and how they can be treated. Source: Eating Disorders Victoria
  20. I know i will never be enough. It is so clear yet i keep putting on glasses to see it differently.

  21. Dramageddon

    I sold a truck to a friend of mine a couple of years ago because she needed reliable transportation. I even made her a good deal on it. She is a good friend who has similar challenges, and I trusted her. In the meantime, she lost the title, found the title, got insurance through an abusive boyfriend, got out of the relationship and moved back to her home state, and was involved in an accident in which the truck and the other driver's car were totaled. And the other driver has already hired a lawyer and claiming hearing loss and other injuries. And I just found out that she never titled the truck in her name so now it's going to fall back on me cuz I can't find the bill of sale. And I'm getting phone calls from the police and the other driver, and probably soon will be hearing from the other driver's attorney. I'm panicking and in tears. My life will never get better. I'm so sick of it all.
  22. In my experience, any SSRI or SNRI will actually reduce dopamine activity because of the overall percentage increase of serotonin and norepinephrine which then begin acting at the receptor sites normally occupied by dopamine. Basically, dopamine gets drowned out / diluted.
  23. Effexor Withdrawals

    Hi, You have my complete sympathy on Venlafaxine withdrawal... I may be experiencing something similar after I attempted to cross taper with Trazodone last Thurs (I lasted one night on that garbage - never again!). I've been feeling exactly those exact same symptoms you describe - anxious and depressed, plus yucky, wired and brain-stupid all rolled into one. A month is a little while to be withdrawal free, then again Venlafaxine is a strange drug, plus you're pregnant and I won't even pretend to understand all the hormonal aspects which may or may not be contributing. How fast did you come off it? I can totally understand why you would fear this impacting on your unborn child... that can't be easy, hope you don't feel too guilty - its not like you are being this way on purpose and you followed doctor's instructions. Are you afraid your baby is somehow picking up the strong feelings you've been having?
  24. Depression Advice.

    Tim thanks very much for the reply. Going to doc tomorrow so il see how it go,s. The fack that I made the appointment has made me feel better. Maybe the physcology of knowing I was going to doc made me better. Woke up today and feel a lot better in terms of side effects. With regards to work my problem is that if you make a mistake it's a very costly mistake but I understand where Ur coming from. job is also very stressful so I don't want anything to interfere with me getting better. I think id rather stay out longer and go back well rather than go back and after a few weeks becoming unwell again. Iv drummed it into my head now that my health is more important than any job. I think I'm gonna try struggle along on the cymbalta for another couple of weeks. If u think about it I'm only on the higher does 4 weeks. It takes 6-8 weeks for most AD to work anyway. So hopefully the side effects subside. Tim again I really appreciate the time you took to reply. Cheers
  25. hi all. i was on prozac for 4 years. it was given to me in the hospital as i went through benzo withdrawal. after years of weight gain and lacking motivation, i made a plan to taper off prozac. over a 10 month period i reduced my dose from 40mg to 10mg. tapering wasn't easy but comfotable enough until i stopped the drug completely in November. i was ignorant not to taper the last 10mg further. went through a few weeks of heart palpitations and severe agitation for 2 months and i thought the worst was over. right around 4 months (1 week ago) i felt more unstable by the day and nearly collapsed from anxiety and weakness on Thursday at work. over the next couple of days i felt EXTREME depression building. i did not suffer from depression prior to prozac. they are the darkest and most hopeless thoughts imagineable and so unlike me...such an emptiness and lack of joy. most troubling are recurring suicidal thoughts i have no want or intention to carry out...but they aren't letting up. i have a slew of physical symptoms from withdrawal i'm coping with and anxiety is tolerable for now but this depression is hard to bare. if i knew it would get better that would help. is this going to be me forever or only stop until i give in and go back on prozac? i really don't want to go back on prozac or any other antidepressant ever.
  26. Don't Feel Well

    Thank you for sharing! My heart aches for your challenges. It is unfortunate that you are unable to find relief. Seeking a second opinion is always important or a fresh pair of eyes. It is unfortunate that you are only able to see a therapist once a month with the VA, thank you for your service. Have you considered connecting with any live counseling. I hope this link will offer you the ability to call when wanting to talk with someone. Also, I wonder about the resources in your community, check with the senior resource center that services your area as to what is available to you. As a diary writer, I am sure that you are continuing to write. That being a great resource and also can be a great release. Please know that I understand your struggles and will hold you close in meditation.
  27. I've NEVER had a good work experience

    Did you just describe what looks like the PERFECT DREAM job for some DFers? More information about the job title & description, Ms Supervisor
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