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  2. JessiesMom

    Insomnia

    I have the same problem. I am taking 100 mg - and when I went back on it a while back I was able to fall asleep with not problems - but a few weeks in the insomnia was back. Do you take your pill in the morning or the evening? I have been thinking of changing from PM to AM to see if the issue resolves, but I know that there can be some effect on heart rate with these meds as well.
  3. sad in grand Rapids

    angry zombie

    thanks i really need to her that. it reinforce another reason not to use mind altering substances which could be contrubting to my mania and depression. for now i need the meds because at least i can sleep. i accept right now i can't do much. i will still go skiing and get out doors. it helps to get things off your chest so to speak. I'm living with parents and they aren't complaining the mess i make. i so tired and out of it that i even doing the basics is hard. i really appreciate you and many others who gave me the courage and motivation to get help. david
  4. sober4life

    angry zombie

    They had me like a zombie for many years. That life wasn't for me and drinking and doing drugs wasn't for me either. Today I stay sober taking no medication at all. I haven't taken medication in probably 5 years. They basically thought I was so out of control that they kept me so doped I couldn't get out of bed. They weren't wrong. I was as out of control as you could get but it wasn't the life for me.
  5. sad in grand Rapids

    angry zombie

    im about lose it do to fatigue im feeling do to meds. i cant take this feeling like zombie. i said before but i really frustrated. also i have a sleep apena study results pending from over two weeks ago that pissing me off.i cant do anything and am not able clean up after my self and everything is fuzzy. on top of that i meeting with boss next tuesday to detrimin status of my job due failed drug test. i tried Coffey drank 6 cups and still couldn't wake up then had panic attack. i am worried that i will be this tired forever. i meet with her on jan3. I'm feeling overwhelmed today the work meeting has me overwhelmed. i can barely get out of bed i tempted to decrease meds my self as I'm sleeping most of time. i won't but its tempting. i just needed to vent and am feeling sorry for self. david
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  7. Natasha1

    SLAM

    Thank you Bulgakov! Something i love to do is write when things hurt. Woild love to get good at it. If i won the lottery i would get a creative writing degree because...just because.
  8. Floor2017

    How Do You Feel Right Now #9

    Guys, I totally understand and for each one of us you have to find something in your life that is worth fighting for and a reason to exist beyond your own circumstances. For me it is the will to help the oppressed, the less fortunate and to inspire the next generation on how to overcome obstacles that might stand in there way.
  9. MarkintheDark

    How Do You Feel Right Now #9

    Tired, but feeling some anxiety. It's a good tired b/c I took a midweek day off, spending a couple hours doing some photography with a UK friend I hadn't seen in months. Loads of gossip about our respective health issues. It was good to let those issues out for some fresh air with a good friend. otoh, came home to a message from the realtor for Mom's landlord changing the walk-through from Thursday evening to Friday morning - thx for the notice - and that she nevertheless needed the paperwork tomorrow. In the scheme of things it's not a big deal. idk why it's causing me anxiety. I guess part of it was that, until that point, I'd been able to completely turn off my problems for the day. Against perhaps my better judgment, I may run over and have Mom sign it all this evening, just to get it out of the way so all I have to do it scan/send it tomorrow...and have TWO full days free of Mom's (potential) drama. Six of one, half a dozen of the other.
  10. Atra

    What Are You Listening To? #3

    White Pixels - Sync24
  11. MarkintheDark

    How Do You Feel Right Now #9

    I do that all the time. Helps me set some priorities with him. Inadvertently, turns out it's often a bit of self-help prior to my appointment.
  12. Almost Christmas. I am on my Netflix Christmas cheese quest and this got recommended and boy, it did not disappoint. Looking for anything that'll give you a laugh, go for this one! Any movie that has me laughing every 10 minutes or so or choke on my drink, gets the thumbs up from me!
  13. sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #9

    I think something has to come along for me to fight for because I feel like I'm deteriorating rapidly.
  14. Tux

    What Are You Listening To? #3

    Wagoner Bros. - Hail Santa
  15. Atra

    How Do You Feel Right Now #9

    Yup! Yeah you do. To the point of DF and what is the value of a support forum, it might help to think about the difference between treatment and coping. Doctor, therapist, medication and actively using the skills and tools - that's treatment. But I still need help coping. I can always use help: Remembering others are suffering so I feel less alone. So I can practice compassion towards them and perhaps learn it's acceptable to receive it. Applying tools/skills that are effective. Maybe I learned them in therapy, in any case I need examples of how people actually living with my illness use them. Challenging the negative thoughts, the black and white thinking, the distorted way in which I see myself and my world through the lense of mental illness. I need someone else's words in my head because sometimes my mind is too strong. I need it more often than once a week for 1 hour. And to the point of an internet forum I need this now, it can't or shouldn't wait until the next office visit or for a time that's convenient for someone in my life. That's what I can think of at the moment.
  16. ladysmurf

    How Do You Feel Right Now #9

    same here. i think eventually i will lose it, but still hanging on
  17. ladysmurf

    How Do You Feel Right Now #9

    very tired, slept all day....doctor wants me to try more new drugs...yay!
  18. ladysmurf

    Fetzima Posts

    thats where I'm headed......per doctors orders...even though i'm so tired of them.....but what are you going to do? nothing else left to try...hoping for a miracle
  19. ladysmurf

    Fetzima

    I doubt it will come out soon
  20. Andres1978

    How Do You Feel Right Now #9

    My dog is the most balanced, sanest, loving creature I know. If there is no heaven for my dog then I don't want to be there either.
  21. BeyondWeary

    Signs Of Emotional Wall Built?

    I think emotional walls are when we are not are real selves. We pretend to have it together. We keep our feelings to ourselves and only show what we think will be acceptable to others. The way to break those down is to work at knowing the real you and learning to accept yourself, I think. That can be done through work with a therapist or there are some good books/workbooks to work through that can help. One book is called "The Child Within" and there is a workbook to go with it called "Healing the Child Within".
  22. Bulgakov

    SLAM

    "There is no such thing in the world you are God of . . . " I like your poem Natasha, Bulgakov
  23. Bulgakov

    Is this it?

    Only a couple of clicks away Tami, Just feel better, and do whatever you need to ease your mind. People here are always close. Always look forward to hearing from you. Bulgakov
  24. hocico

    What Are You Listening To? #3

    Around the world - Daft Punk
  25. hocico

    What did you drink last?

    Rooibos
  26. Floor2017

    How Do You Feel Right Now #9

    Well said my friend because it truly makes me feel normal among my fellow sufferers who are experiencing some of the same things. If we tell people outside of this DF what is actually going on in our heads they would think we are crazy and begin to label us with mean and nasty names calling. It’s good to have a place to be you and to let out your frustrations with people who understand you.
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