WOW - HUGE BUMMER happened only just three weeks into my new job. I became very overwhelmed by the stress involved in a very steep learning curve, and for being placed in a pressure cooker environment, that I began to have a breakdown again and had to take a month-long unpaid medical leave. I am still on leave, and I am trying to find ways to support myself financially during the time I am out, and I am pretty much out of luck.
My new pdoc added new medications, which haven't helped all too much. I have done exorcisms because a large part of this for me IS spiritual - I hear voices, and energies have been able to move my body and speak through me, when I know it's not ME doing it. It's SO distressing. I even went to a Church to be baptized and asked them to perform an exorcism on me.
I am at my wits end with it, and am losing patience. I am trying a number of solutions, including strong medications, but it's been a tough nut to crack.
I am very concerned about having to go back to work soon, JUST so I can earn money. If I am still symtomatic, they will likely need to let me go since I won't be able to perform at the level they need.
It's scary for me right now, but I am holding onto my Faith in God and in Jesus to pull me through.