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Kraftwerk - Neon Lights


samadhiSheol

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Very early 80's.

I began experiencing first hand what life was really about. 

You have to fend for yourself, at the very least learn to dodge when the s hit starts hitting the fan.

Bullied at school. Realizing I wasn't really smart after all. I wasn't good at anything. In fact I pretty much sucked at everything at school. But not enough that anyone would have been concerned.

Me? I was doing my best to avoid being bullied. Doing my best to just survive in classes of incomprehensible math, languages, school in general.

School and study never made much sense, to be honest. 

God I hated being a teenager. 

My only solace was music and 

Dreams. 

Kraftwerk was one of the early soundtracks of my life, my dreams, what I wanted to achieve. 

I dreamt of space travel, theoretical physics, black holes, hyperspace and astronomy. I thought Einstein, Schrodinger, Hawking. 

Oh and girls of course. A lot of dreams. Haha. 

I listened to "Neon Lights" just a moment ago and realized I was crying. 

I suddenly remembered my dreams vividly. I remembered what I hoped I'd become, what I hoped I would do. I remembered what I felt, how I felt. Alone and lost. But I had my dreams. 

Dashed dreams, as they turned out. 

Shimmering neon lights. 

 

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For whatever it's worth, we've been down similar paths. Being a teenager sucked for me too. I didn't fit in with any "group" really but was able to find a few other stragglers to hang out with from time to time.

I should listen to more Kraftwerk I guess. I had the old "Autobahn" album but it got lost in one move or another.

I was--and still am--a fan of sci fi, especially good space stories. I'm reading a book right now by Jack McDevitt called Octavia Gone. It's about a research station orbiting a black hole that goes missing. I love this stuff. 

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On 1/6/2021 at 5:52 PM, JD4010 said:

For whatever it's worth, we've been down similar paths. Being a teenager sucked for me too. I didn't fit in with any "group" really but was able to find a few other stragglers to hang out with from time to time.

I should listen to more Kraftwerk I guess. I had the old "Autobahn" album but it got lost in one move or another.

I was--and still am--a fan of sci fi, especially good space stories. I'm reading a book right now by Jack McDevitt called Octavia Gone. It's about a research station orbiting a black hole that goes missing. I love this stuff. 

I need to read that! 

I would be right at home observing a black hole.. 

Oh wait, I AM observing a black hole in the middle of nowhere. My inner black hole. Haha. 

But seriously, I haven't read that novel. 

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On 1/10/2021 at 1:13 AM, JD4010 said:

Haha. I like Jack McDevitt's "easy going" style. It's like reading a 1950s novel. I really get absorbed in his stories.

speaking of which, I noticed that the novel you mentioned is part of the so-called "Alex Benedict"-series. Can the novels be read as "one offs" or do I need to read them all?

Not that THAT is necessarily a problem..

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They can be read independently...the reader can get the gist of what Alex Benedict does from any one of the stories. I originally read them completely out of order. 🙂

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When Kraftwerk started I was in my pre-early teens ... Then there came Earsure, Depeche Mode etc. Now I am 48 and I am still full blast into it and expanded my horizon way beyond .. That time back in the 80's formed me. We were looked at as if we were "weird" back when.... now I crank it up in my car or at home and still get the same reaction. But I do not care. I am open minded and I expect it from every person. I am adaptable - yet need my space too. So Listening to my " teen music" is memories to me because that gave me companionship all my life and listening to others music might be new but it is OK. I do not have to like it though. But if they do I am good. That is valid for everything in life I guess. Food, Music, Habits and Dreams. We can share, accept,like or dislike. But it is always valid and valued to the other person. This is how I tick 🙂 Nice Blog! Kraftwerk got my immediate attention

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