The only audition i have ever won was getting into two universities to study the flute. Auditioned for 4. Good old Doug Stewart could always be counted on at the University of Toronto for bring an elitist dick. When Camille (i think it was her) asked him if he wanted me to play "the Hindemith" (crap cant remember if i spelled that composers name right) as it was my other piece...Doug's response? Lol. A disgusted grimace and head shake as if to say oh God no, why would you torture me?
I guess there was the audition for the christian band, but i dont think they had lots of people jumping in there.
I should have seen the signs you know? Not getting into performance program, my experience with Doug the Dick, always being asked in the band to sound like someone else (guess what? Im not someone else)...giving the piano stuff to a non piano person in the band because lol it didnt matter that im a piano teacher...the list could go on.
My audition today. I guess it was decent. But i am simply not good enough. For anyone and anything.
Im 46. And i finally see.
Im a stupid wannabe with no talent or skill.