Yeah that's me. I will never be good enough for them. Or anyone else for that matter.
I guess maybe i shouldn't say that, as the yoga studio that i give janitorial services to in exchange for free yoga seems to be thrilled wirh my work.
But what good is that if my husband and daughter don't accept who I am?
Ah, right. I totally forgot that i am a bad person.
This is the crap that sent me back to ED-land. The need to control at least one thing, just one god damned effing thing was achieved. Dare i go back there?
No. I don't think so. I can't do that again.
I might though.
Dinner is in the oven. I bet that will be "wrong" too. It is store bought but i am sure they will find something wrong with it.
Now, here i am, once again withdrawing. Just like i used to.
At least i am not looking in other places to fill the void. The places i am not supposed to. It is really too bad that i did that at one time in the first place. Now living with that the rest of my life.
I am a horrible person and now it is more obvious than ever.
They are supposed to be the ones who stand by me.