I still feel the negative energy and I’m still in a negative space right now. It still lingers on from yesterday. Pain anxiety guilt self pity anger hopelessness feeling lost. Feelings of all these are still lingering on from yesterday.
This morning I tossed out all my weed and caffeine pills, and pre workouts.
I don’t know where to start and The anxiety and fear of future what might happen gives me anxiety and fear.
Tomorrow how will I handle it?
what should I do now?
afraid to take steps because of the hopelessness and pain that comes when I fall hard..
ill somehow managed to get through this day. Today I have all to myself. It’s hard to move but I guess I will. I don’t know...
i wanna get back to Eckhart Tolle and maybe even try a short meditation again. I read and heard from ppl how it helped with their chronic anger.
At this point I just want to have a better handle on my anger and have ability to see things from more calmness and clarity.
I feel very unbalanced and lost right now.