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Dream came true

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Hertz

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One of my dreams for many years was to have a big heartbreak.
I had never had one and felt I was missing out. I knew it was a symptom of my inability to fall in love.
Then it happened. I fell in love. For the first time in two decades. She was not available. There was no possibility. I was, and still am, crushed.

I'm living the dream.

I'm glad I now have the ability to attach myself.
This came with a price.
I found out that the other side of love is loss.
The more you love something, the harder the loss.
The harder the distress. The bereavement. The crying. The hopelessness. The powerlessness.

I'm also finding out that I have more strength in me than I thought.
This situation is forcing me to rebuild myself.
It also brought me closer to other people who've been through the same thing.
And these might be better gifts than if I had ended up with this particular person.



 

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Relationship heartaches and loss are so hard to grieve because the other person is not actually gone, and it can feel impossible to let go.:hugs:

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12 hours ago, TopekaK said:

Relationship heartaches and loss are so hard to grieve because the other person is not actually gone, and it can feel impossible to let go.:hugs:

I completely agree. Although it's always better when the person is alive and well, the fact that it's technically possible to meet and communicate, and that the future is uncertain and you never know if your paths will cross again makes it really challenging to move on :hugs:

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On 6/15/2018 at 12:38 AM, TopekaK said:

But you should take the chance.

Thank you TopekaK for the encouragement. Lately I've been feeling very timid in general, unable to take chances. I have a lot of internal barriers and inhibitions.

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Oh you're always welcome! But I'm sorry to hear it and I'm finding it difficult to do many of the things I used to do, due to inhibitions. I hope it's just a phase for us.  A lot of 'dos' in that sentence.    😄

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