It's just such a mess.
How do you tell the difference between a bad mindset and something that is actually wrong?
Intimacy is something I physically need in my life. A connection both in mind and intertwining bodies. It provides me with a self-worth and happiness that nothing else comes even close to. I need it so badly, the frustration gnawings the inside of my head.
Despite my age and gender it's not about just the sex, it's the feeling of a bond and deep meaningful connection. I want to hold and be held, to know that I'm wanted in every way.. that I'm good enough to be a part of 'this'.
Is it so much to ask to feel wanted, loved and lusted after? I'm so sick of feeling so strong about things and desperately wanting such deep passionate intimacy - to no avail.
All this makes me doubt myself, my worth..my relationship..
I'm gunna try and put all this unwanted energy into something else. What that is yet, I don't know.
~ A Troubled Traveller