So I'm still working at Belk. I feel pretty alone there. I mean, there are a few people who I will talk to but for the most part I dont have any friends. heckle and Jeckle irk me most of the time, especially Jeckle. I mean, she thinks she is too good to even respond to a good morning. Forget her. Sometimes i will catch my reflection in a mirror as i am walking by and all i see is a fat, sweaty, very unhappy looking person. I hate the way I look. I never smile.
I feel very sad today, very lonely. I go to this depression group on Tuesdays and its more like a class. The guy teaches us something and that's it. it's not a place where people share and then we give feedback. That's what I thought it would be, so right now i feel like I am wasting my time going all the way into the city and spending a whole day out for it. This is one of those days when I ask myself why. what is the point of any of this? I cannot see beyond my nose to anything hopeful. It's all grim and glum. I just dont know what i am going to do.