Things have gotten far worse. I am filled with anxiety every waking moment. I don't know how we're going to be able to make our rent payment next week. I don't know if we'll have enough money for groceries and other necessities. I decided today that I am not good at my job. I cannot figure out Google, so I suck at my job and what I do. I should know this after seven years, but whatever I am doing, it's not working. Depression is sinking in and worsening. All I can do is lie down during the day to try to de-stress. I have to find a new job since I am now partially unemployed, but how can I when I have no confidence or success to speak of in my current role?

To top it off, I am losing my health insurance in a week and therefore, access to a therapist and much needed med prescriptions. The healthcare system here is abominable, and it's depressing me beyond belief.

My stress level is far too high, and I think I am suicidal. I just want this stress to end.