havent written in awhile....guess just trying to get thru each day. im in kind of an "avoidance" mood. like the type of mood where you would avoid your friends, turn down invites out, hide away in your house. one would think, how do you know you are in that mood if you dont have friends, or get invited places....well, i guess i know, cause my anxiety kicks in with the though of going to the food store...and running into someone i know.
i have been trying for the past 2 months to get myself out running in the morning before work (like i used to). im awake at 6am i just cant get myself out of bed. part of me wants to go, but the other part just wants to stay curled up in bed. id truly like to stay there all day.