I haven't posted in here for a while cos I haven't been that depressed. I have been going to the youth centre and also I've been planning my trip to Fiji so they're distractions. Right now I'm a bit depressed cos I don't know. I'm lonely. Also there's some problems with planning my trip. Just with all the formalities. It's so hard. I hope everything works out in the end. But it would suck though if I had to postpone the trip.
Also I don't know what I'm gonna do after the trip. It sucks if I don't like it cos I would maybe have to go back to live with my mom and dad. Right now I'm living in a rental house alone, but I'm gonna end the lease or whatever it's called. Maybe I could live somewhere in Australia. I don't know. I feel like I'm having a mid-life crisis. That would mean I'm gonna die at 44 cos I'm 22 now, haha.
I guess my dream is that I like it in Fiji and I can find a way to live there. It's very hard though cos of the immigration rules. One way I think would be to invest 20k into a business there, but it's very high-risk of course cos it's a large portion of my fortune. I'll see.
I feel like I'm destined to be alone. No girl likes me cos my appearance is not good and also I have Asperger's so I don't know how to approach girls and I'm just overall bad socially.
I hope Kanye releases his album. That would give me at least some distraction. Listening to Yeezus for the first time was a mind-blowing experience.