I haven't been on in awhile because I just have been scared about opening up I guess... So I am a little over 9 months clean and sober. Its the hardest thing that I have ever done in my life. My depression has been getting the best of me and I don't know how much longer I can keep going like this. I want to give up so badly. Just to be gone and pain free. Thats all I have ever wanted.. So how do I keep going when I have no more fight left in me. Everyone says it gets better but it never does... so what am I supposed to do?