So my gf left me to be with another guy. I cut myself so that it bled a tiny bit, but still very superficial. Might develop a scar though. I just see no point in living. I might cut myself again and maybe strike a major artery, not likely though. She told me she'd be my friend still, and I actually maybe do want that. I just want someone to be with me, not be all alone. I don't even miss the sex that much, like I feel like I could just live with her and enjoy her company. But it's gone now. In a couple of days I should get Football Manager 2015 so I can play that 24/7. I guess there are things I can do to keep me busy till the end of my life, for example if I started watching all the TV-shows that have been made.