I havent actually posted anything in a few days here, really. I had typed up some draft blog entries but haven't had time to edit. It's almost like work?
I haven't been doing good even the last few days, as over last 5 weeks, but this few days the badness has been in the form of emotional numbness, still painful bit different.
I actually had a brief suicide ideation? thought that I discussed with a friend. thant scared me.
Today is another bad one, so far, even though I am trying toi keep busy.
Very lonely. Even though there are times when I'm around people or family or friends. I just don't feel well. I had better stop typing.