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Not Been On Depression Forum For A While...


boriqa

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I havent actually posted anything in a few days here, really. I had typed up some draft blog entries but haven't had time to edit. It's almost like work?

I haven't been doing good even the last few days, as over last 5 weeks, but this few days the badness has been in the form of emotional numbness, still painful bit different.

I actually had a brief suicide ideation? thought that I discussed with a friend. thant scared me.

Today is another bad one, so far, even though I am trying toi keep busy.

Very lonely. Even though there are times when I'm around people or family or friends. I just don't feel well. I had better stop typing.

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im sorry things are so hard for you right now. sometimes destractions dony work and you need to just sit with the emotion until it passes, now that is easier said than done and i learnt that at group therapy but still can not do it so i am starting the group again to try and sit with it with the help of trained people.

i hope you are able to get some relief soon even if it is a small part of everyday.

take care of yourself.

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Suicide ideations come and go, you just have to live through it. My therapist is always telling me to **** what is causing you the pain without hurting yourself.

So if loneliness is the problem, you have to make yourself socially engage with friends, with family, with someone.

I just read this idea this morning. Loneliness involves a sense of separation from people and will intensify over time. In this state we find it hard to reach out and easier to not be around other people. When our mind starts telling us no one's interested in what we have to say or do, we build a wall around our heart and allow access to very few. The more we withdraw, the worse we feel. Peace of mind eludes us, and loneliness weighs us down.

We were not meant to live our lives disconnected from others, rather we are social beings.

So as hard as it is, when you feel alone it is up to is to reach out and ask for help.

So this is me reaching out to you because you said you were lonely. Like others who have responded, you have friends here who care.

Take care~Snow

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im sorry things are so hard for you right now. sometimes destractions dony work and you need to just sit with the emotion until it passes, now that is easier said than done and i learnt that at group therapy but still can not do it so i am starting the group again to try and sit with it with the help of trained people.

i hope you are able to get some relief soon even if it is a small part of everyday.

take care of yourself.

Thanks Nataya. This area of letting the emotion pass sounds really, really important. Thanks for your kind words, please let me know if you learn more from your group.

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Suicide ideations come and go, you just have to live through it. My therapist is always telling me to **** what is causing you the pain without hurting yourself. So if loneliness is the problem, you have to make yourself socially engage with friends, with family, with someone. I just read this idea this morning. Loneliness involves a sense of separation from people and will intensify over time. In this state we find it hard to reach out and easier to not be around other people. When our mind starts telling us no one's interested in what we have to say or do, we build a wall around our heart and allow access to very few. The more we withdraw, the worse we feel. Peace of mind eludes us, and loneliness weighs us down. We were not meant to live our lives disconnected from others, rather we are social beings. So as hard as it is, when you feel alone it is up to is to reach out and ask for help. So this is me reaching out to you because you said you were lonely. Like others who have responded, you have friends here who care. Take care~Snow

Thanks Snow, very helpful...I discussed this with a friend.

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