I am feeling very fragile at the moment and I hate it. Wish I could just deal with things and just general life situations better.
Today I was shopping for some new shoes and in one of the shops I knocked some socks onto the floor when I was looking at some shoes. The woman working there gave me this really p***** off look and I said "oh sorry I knocked that off" and she didn't say a word and just put it back. I tried to ignore it and keep looking at the shoes but clearly she was so annoyed for something so little. After about a minute another staff came over and asked if they could help me and I said I was just looking. I left feeling so awful and it basically just ruined my day. I don't deal so well when people are angry at me and I spent a few hours after I got home laying in bed feeling like crap.
I think why I feel so bad is that I have been pushed around a lot in my life and it just brings up a lot of bad memories that I would rather forget. I then tried to spend the rest of the day studying for some uni work but I just keep feeling like I'm so stupid and worthless. I hate this.