For the past 2 nights, I have been struggling with suicidal thoughts - again. When I got to the point of having a well-developed plan, the only flaw of which is that it requires me to do something I physically can't do (drive), I realized it was time for another hospital visit. It's for a trivial reason that I'm not there: I have tickets to a concert next week, and I don't want to miss it. Hopefully that's also enough to keep me safe for the next week. It may not seem like much, but I've been waiting a long time for this concert. If that's enough to keep me alive, I clearly need to start going to more concerts.