Last semester I did ok in terms of socializing with classmates, but we just came off a long holiday break. I'm talkin weeks here, so I've been out of the social practice for awhile.
Yesterday I woke up feeling extremely anxious, but once I left my car and got to my 1st class, the butterflies went away and I was able to talk to some people. It was a pretty good day. I talked to 5 girls and even got 2 phone numbers (yay)!
Today I have three classes. I went to my first one already, but it was cut short because so many people wanted to add the class. I woke up today feeling very anxious, but I had to remind myself that people are not looking at me and that all of my worries are in my head.
Last night, while surfing the net, I saw an article on "Be True to Yourself." It stated that in order to be happy, you have to accept yourself and not try to be something you are not. This hit home for me because this past sunday I had a shocking revelation: The person inside my head and the person I actually am are two different people. Meaning that the way i see myself and the way i actually am are not the same. So now i'm doing some serious self reflection to determine who i really am.
this means no more lying about what i do and what i want to do with my life, i guess it's true that when you tell so many lies, you really do begin to believe them.