Standing at the edge of the world as I know it
Falling fast and hard
The darkest corners of my mind await me;
And pain clawing at my soul my only fate
Then lost within myself I see you as a beacon of hope
Your hand outstretched to take mine
Fingers entwining, hearts beating in perfect sync
You are my home.
My heart longs for its home
But what if home is not there upon my return?
For I am older than the galaxy
And older than time itself.
Stranded without a guide,
I lay awake at night waiting
For my call to leave, my chance to fly
But it never happens, and so I stay
In a world where I am unknown
My soul desires to be free,
But what if I cannot be saved?
Even if I'm not the only autistic person who gets extremely territorial over their special interest(s), it's definitely become a ginormous problem in the last five years or so. I've honestly reported and/or blocked people in the past cause I'm so territorial over them; plus, I think I may have even scared a few people off in the past cause of it, online or otherwise.
During this pandemic, I've had a lot of time for thinking cause, let's face it, there isn't much else to do, and I genuinely
Do you hear my broken soul
Crying out to yours?
Will you listen to my heart
And feel it beat for you?
Without your love and guidance,
I would disappear like mist
Or unwanted smudges on a page.
For you calm the endless storms
That rage inside my mind.
I originally intended for my Blue plush to be a stand-in for Joshy cause there aren't any plush versions of him, but it kinda backfired cause now I have feelings for her too (even though I don't have my plush yet). Plus, when a friend referred to her as their baby girl a few days ago, I felt an intense surge of jealousy like no, she's my baby girl, and I just wanted to protect her from them.
I want to shout it from the rooftops but I can't cause it's really unorthodox and maybe even wr
Tomorrow morning, the final episode for season one of Blue's Clues & You airs and I'm not even close to being ready, nor do I want my Joshy to go yet.
Yes, we're getting at least two more seasons, but most of those episodes are going to be actual new episodes and not remakes. Unlike a lot of others, I love the remakes - to the point where I might not want to watch anymore if it's all new content. Honestly, every time I think about it, I feel like crying my eyes out (but I won't cause it
Run away with me
Take my hand in yours.
Feel the beating of our hearts.
Buried deep within.
Tell me your innermost thoughts
Let your words wash over me.
Hold me close if I should cry
Cocooned in a blanketful of love.
Kiss me softly, kiss me tenderly,
Breathe new life into my broken soul;
Mend my wounded heart.
When you called me beautiful
My world began to spin
And it was then I knew
Our hearts would someday meld.
When I heard your laugh
And the thoughts inside your heart
I thought I heard an angel's voice
Calling out to me from deep within my soul.
Every time your smile crossed your face
And your eyes were all aglow
I knew I had come home.
I was the highest bidder in an online charity auction and I won a 15 minute Zoom video chat with Josh Dela Cruz.
I'm...I can't believe I actually won. Nor can I believe it's really going to happen. I...I'm in shock and...just...oh my josh. I get to spend 15 minutes with somebody who is very, very special to me. Yes, I know it's strange to love somebody like him the way I do, but you can't help who you fall in love with. I wish I knew how to thank him for everything he's done for me thus far
I don't know what I'm doing anymore. Nor do I feel like I'm truly living due to the pandemic and everything else that's going on.
More than anything, I just want to not be so anxious all the time. I want to be able to leave my apartment without feeling like I'm going to catch the virus within seconds if I'm not wearing a mask and two pairs of gloves. In short, I want to be able to do things again and not feel so panicky in general.
I have a support system, of course, but I don't wa