I thought I finally was getting myself out of this. But recently it crept in again. Didn’t think I’d fall this hard and low and be down and lost and in this tornado of insanity in my head.
But here I am. Oh well, maybe it’s just another major setback for a good reason trying to teach me something. Or maybe it’s just meaning less.
im trying to find what positive in this situation.
But then maybe it’s not a good idea to wreck my brain over this or maybe it’s not the right time to
Thank you for waking up to see another day. Thank you for my abled eyes to see. Thank you for my limbs I can use without difficulties. Thank you for letting me be able to breathe. Thank you for money in my bank account. Thank you for the roof over my head. Thank you for my ears I can hear with. Thank you for food in my fridge. Thank you for my car that I can use to drive to places. Thank you for the practice of gratitude. Thank you for moments of positive feelings as I’m feeling at the moment. T
Day 4 so far I’m doing okay.
Today I took a bit of high dose of l theanine.
It definitely makes a difference and smoothed out the edge and make depression and anxiety a lot easier to manage.
Negative voices and feelings can’t quite touch me.
But it’s not something I want to depend on because theres definitely a limitation.
i wanna be back on taking black seed oil again regularly. Black seed oil had been my favorite and the most comfortable for me.