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About this blog

Hey friends :) 

I'm reflecting on things and somehow

 trying to shape myself into a better person so bare with me. :hearthrob:

I appreciate every single one of you for making me feel so supported and giving me the courage to speak openly in the way that I do X thank you

 

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I don't know how this helps anyone

I've said this before. I take things to the extreme.  I've always been very hard on myself. Unless I'm pushed to my limits I don't feel accomplished, and I very rarely feel content with myself. I have the ability to home all my focus into just one thing, and end up neglecting everything else around me.  That got me into a lot of trouble last year, and I guess because of that, I'm in even more trouble right now.  --- I remember the feeling I had then. I felt like I w

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Wavelengths

No matter what I say, no one will ever understand me. No matter how convincing I try to be, no one will ever believe me. My cries are falling upon deaf ears. They carry on with their planning and gossip as if nothing has ever happened.  I feel as though I am living with terminal cancer, and everyone is treating me like I'm suffering with the flu.  - A temporary pain in the arse, but will pass eventually  No. I really thought I wasn't going to come back this tim

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F me

"when you walk in the bar. And you're dressed like a star, rocking your f me pumps..." So I'm writing this while listening to Amy Winehouse. I guess I understand her better than ever now.  I want to be honest. I'm angry. AT myself. I've wasted so much of my life caring about what little nobody's thought of me. Putting on a fake show to try and win them over.  Always striving to be as popular as my friend (who was an absolute social butterfly) - and putting myself down in

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D is for Demons day

Today is April 1st.  That means tomorrow is April 2nd And April 2nd is the day of my first A level exams. Now, if you've heard anything from me in the past couple of days, then you'd have heard about this exam thing and probably are sick to death of hearing about it. But... BEFORE YOU STOP READING ! -  I'm not trying to make a big deal out of something ordinary that everyone at some point in their lives has to face. No. I'd probably bore you to death if I did. 

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My depression story

*I posted this on the new members forum, so if you've read it already just ignore it. Just wanted to get it on the blog X Hi, my name is Meg. I am 18 years old, and I suffered from major depression for the past 4 months.  I've come to learn so much in the past four months, some of the most important things i've learned in my lifetime.  I want to share my story and the things that i've learned from this experience in the hopes that one of you - out there, may be able to relate, fee

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Just a little pick me up

List of things that I'm grateful for today 1. My bed 2. coffee 3. My cat 4. My education 5. My Dad 6. My Mum 7. My Nan 8. Comfy clothes 9. My friends 10. Food 11. Music 12. The Sun 13. The Sea 14. My Dog 14. Fluffy Socks 15. Showers 16. My Phone 17. My laptop (because it allows me to talk to you guys :)) 18. Candles and perfume 19. My car 20. Kind strangers 21. Gogglebox 22. My Heal

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Self-pity (an Inhibitor)

Life is unfair.  If you look at life from the perspective of good and bad. Some people are more fortunate, others are less fortunate. Shouldn't it be equal ? Why should one person have it easy whilst someone else has to struggle with sh*t throughout life.  ----- That's the perspective that I used to have. I would view myself as being less fortunate than others - why did i fail my exams when I tried so hard and sacrificed so much ? Why do I have a knee

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I want to be content when I die

I just watched a Louis Theroux episode called 'Edge of life'.  It showed hospital patients who were on the verge of death, and it showed them and their loved ones having to swallow the death sentences that had been given to them. A particular guy moved me to tears. His name is Langston and he was in his early 20s. Langston had overdosed on heroin which caused severe brain damage and ended him in a coma. The hospital called in a Neurologist to examine his brain scans. Langstons pro

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The Dark Pit

You don't want to sleep,  but you don't want to be awake. You don't want to eat,  but you don't want to be hungry. You don't want to be around people,  but you don't want to be alone. You don't want to do anything,  but you don't want to do nothing. What you really want to do is stop existing, but you can't do that without dying,  and you don't really want to do that either.

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