So I basically have not been walking. I've been on Hydroxyzine for about a year now, for my anxiety. Before that I was taking Benadryl. The Benadryl was not cutting it, and I'd been trying in vain with that for years. My doc (not psychiatrist, family doc/GP) finally started me on Hydroxyzine, and the help has been tremendous. It cuts my anxiety by at least 90% on non trigger days. When I'm triggered, it helps dampen what I feel by about 75% - so the effectiveness goes down somewhat, but it
Okay, I am failing. Miserably. I have been so down and so exhausted. I really think my exhaustion is partly my body not having nearly constant anxiety/adrenaline coursing through it, for nearly a year now. The last couple months I have been really fragging exhausted. I know I'm out of shape, but it feels like a deeper exhaustion than that. And I think it is also partly my body just being tired of the spring time change and not being able to hack it anymore. It has been increasingly difficul
I'm hoping I'm starting to be on the tail end of this utter exhaustion thing. All I want to do is sleep. I've been on Hydroxyzine/Atarax for about a year now, and I wonder if part of my exhaustion is just the absence of constant low level anxiety, punctuated with bouts of anxiety or panic attack. It doesn't feel like 'depression tired' - does that make sense? The exhaustion is physical, and affects my mental energy, as opposed to exhaustion being mental and affecting my physical energy. I"m
I have been unbelievably exhausted in the morning, especially considering that I am generally getting to bed at the unholy early hour of roughly 930pm. I think my body is finally tired of the spring time change - my natural circadian rhythm seems to match the fall time change best. I wind up spending most of the year feeling like I'm not quite getting enough sleep.
Wed, Oct 9th storms threatening this morning - will have to try later; - too hot after work, didn't make it
Thu, Oct 10t
Wed, Oct 2nd I nearly didn't get out this morning - for the last few years or so, showering has been a bit of an athletic event for me. But I did -sometimes showering feels like an accomplishment.
Wed, Oct 2nd 650am, 75F, .54 miles/10 mins, hr152 - nice breeze this morning
Thu, Oct 3rd It's raining this morning - looks to last most of the day; I'll have to try the gym after work; 600pm, walked around the neighborhood between storms - .81miles/15 minutes, hr 144, temps 57F
Sorry for the delay in getting this up... I've been at a work conference the last couple days, and decided not to take my laptop with me. So. Much. Walking! And sitting. But hubby was able to go with me, so it was good. Wound up being sort of a mini holiday.
Wed., Sept. 18th Hubby & I estimated about 3 miles total, between walking back and forth between the conference center & our hotel, walking around the conference center & exhibits, and walking back from an evening confe
Wed, Sept 11th 640am, 72F, .54miles/9 mins, hr 144
Thu, Sept 12th skipped so far (a.m.)
Fri, Sept 13th 630am, 68F, .54miles/9 mins, hr 160
Sat, Sept 14th skipped
Sun, Sept 15th mowed for an hour - 40 mins, break, 15 mins, break, 15 mins done. It really nearly did me in. And temps only got up to about 86F.
Mon, Sept 16th skipped
Tue, Sept 17th 645am, 68F, .54 miles/9 mins, hr 140
Sept. 11th - my old family doc retired and I saw my new doc - a Ph
You all have my apologies for my inconsistency and struggle the last couple weeks or so.... I feel like I let you guys down when I cannot get out and walk. Sometimes it's all I can do just to wake up and breathe, you know?
Wed Aug 28th - .54 miles/9 minutes - hr 144 taken near end; 700am, @72F
Thu Aug 29th - .54 miles/9 minutes - hr 148 taken near end; 630am, @74F
Fri Aug 30 missed - rainy before & after work
Sat Aug 31 - missed - rainy, car show made things too crowd
I've really been struggling lately. It was all I could do just to get up this morning... I nearly didn't get out, and then only for about five minutes and because I thought of it as a mindfulness exercise. I am thinking of trying beginner hiit - there's a group called HasFit that has a free youtube video of cardio hiit for beginners. It's 30 minutes, and I don't think I'm up for that, so I think I might alternate walking with 15 minutes of that. I think I might be getting bored of my routine
I'm trying to figure out if I can retroactively give certain others permissions to add their own progress to my blog entries, besides in the comments. So far, I have not had any luck. I don't want to scrap the progress I've tracked so far, though. Sorry. Feel free to post your progress in the comments.
Part of last week I went to see one of my kids, so I wasn't very good at all about posting progress. For that, apologies. I didn't even take my laptop, lol. A real vacay. My schedule wa
LOL I keep forgetting that Wednesday is my day to start a new entry... This week has been a little messed up so far, but I'm still trying to keep up with it. I've decided to give myself a rest day every 6 days or so. I cannot explain how achy everything is. I"m not sure I'm doing the right thing by keeping up with this. But how could simple walking be bad? Maybe I need to drink more Gatorade or try vitamins or something.
Wednesday, Aug. 7th treadmill 35 mins total - 20 mins @3.2mph on 1.
I am starting a new routine. I botched the old one last weekend, but I'm telling myself that's okay. My youngest wants to work out at the gym, too. So I am starting a new routine of working out at the gym after work so she can go too. I prefer the treadmill because my pace is really inconsistent otherwise. My first day doing that was yesterday. This morning I still got up early and did a few minutes of yoga. Only 7 minutes, but I'm working into it. I was able to spend most of the morning re
Okay, so we are back to the exhaustion. And now I have a cold sore. Yuck. Thanks for nothing, stress. But I am practically ready to send my first report in - some final details, and off it goes for better or worse.
Wed July 24th .83mi/14 mins - getting closer to my old time, before my ankle started bothering me
Thu July 25th after work; took me 17 mins to walk .77 miles. Not too far off my time, but I was in a lot of pain that evening
Fri July 26th .79mi/15 mins - loade
It's dark days.... It's all I can do to get myself out there. It's all I can do to take a shower every three days. Thank god I work in an office. I've been doing my minimal route - about 5-7 minutes, depending on how my ankle is feeling. God, I love hormones. Not. I really need some positivity and encouragement this week.
Wed July 17th .28mi/6 mins - so hard to get out....
Thu July 18th .28mi/6 mins - and a shower
Don't think you cannot do it..... you can!
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Anything you can do is better than nothing.....
End of the driveway? End of the block?
Wed July 10 1.1 mi/19 mins - my Pacer app mysteriously deducted .3 miles, but I'm using the distance that comes up most often.
Thurs July 11 1.35 mi/25 mins - 530 this morning - I am maybe starting to get better about getting up ins
Wow! Today (July 3rd) makes 14 straight days of me getting up and walking in the morning!!!!!
I'm not actually sure if Dean would approve, but I"m pretty sure he would appreciate the effort. Okay, so he probably wouldn't care, but it helps to think he might.
I almost didn't get out and walk because my ankle has flared up again. But I told myself to just get out and walk my short 5 minute walk, and once I got outside - an hour earlier than usua
Well, I've been battling ankle pain and stiffness - I am using the insoles my family doc recommended, and it has helped the pain in my heel and foot sole tremendously. I still have places of weakness in my ankle, doc says this is basically an old injury flaring up. In addition, our car went into the shop Tuesday June 25th, hopefully we get it back by tomorrow. Bad bearings in the tires and some loose wires in the ABS system. So wow, thank you Higher Power for keeping us safe thus far. Anyway,
I feel like I'm starting over with my walking regimen. And I guess I am. I missed so much - about a month, I think - that I essentially am back to square one. I am trying to look at it as a chance to reset my thinking. For now, my goal is to get out and walk for 9 minutes every morning when I get up. I'm reminding myself that 9 minutes is better than no minutes. Likewise, 5 or 6 minutes is better than no minutes. I'm trying to work myself up to a 15 minute minimum by about mid July. At that
I made it around my 3/4 mile loop. It took me 15 minutes, and I still had some ankle pain near the end, but I did it. I am hoping to be able to do that every day. I don't know how long I'll have to keep it up before I can extend time or distance. I guess when I get to the point where I don't have any ankle/heel pain or discomfort, I'll extend it. I hate leaving it that open, because it's too easy to just keep delaying progress.
Wednesday, May 12th .81 miles/16 minutes (Gojira)
Just wanted to update anyone who might accidentally give a f*ck or two.... I have been experiencing quite an irritating amount of heal and ankle pain in my left foot. To the point that I can barely walk. I talked to my doc and he says plantar fasciitis. I've got some shoe insoles he recommended, and I'm looking at exercises for my foot. I hope I can get back into walking soon. I may have to start out much slower than I want to. I think I might need to build up to what I was doing (20-25mins
My biggest lesson lately has also been my hardest - learning to forgive myself when I fall short. I have problem forgiving others; it's just me I never seem to accept 'reasons' for. I either pass or I fail. Believe it or not that's an improvement from years ago when I had to exceed my goals or fail. Yep. I could meet my goals and still manage to see myself as a failure. I have a real talent for snatching defeat from the jaws of victory - it's a tough one to overcome.
Monday, April 15
I've missed quite a bit the last couple weeks - either being sick, or walking so much last Saturday that my hips just ached for a day or so.
Monday, April 8th- 1.56 miles, 30 mins - on the way home after work @530, it was nearly 90F, so I was actually in the beginning stages of heat exhaustion when I got home. Weenie me, I know.
Tuesday, April 9th- yay for the gym - 60 mins, 3.1 miles on the treadmill. 30 mins with heartrate at 145-148; 20 mins with heartrate at 133-140; 10 mins wi
I've been sick since Saturday, so I've missed several days already. I had to take off work yesterday from feeling like crap. It's just a bad cold, but I've had a low grade fever, mondo aches & chills, and the sinus drainage is making me queasy. Too much fun for me. It's back to the grindstone, even though I dont feel much better. Doubt I will make my workout or walk today either.
Monday, April 1- missed walking or workout due to being sick; also missed work
Tuesday, April 2- sti