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I will be talking about my mental health and daily life. If I ramble on about nothing, that's my therapy in action. :)

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One-night Insomnia Rabbling

i'm thinking now that I should have made a new BLog just for my poems. Ah well. It'll be okay.   Well, i'm depressed again. i'm here. I cannot sleep. i'm wide awake. but I have nothing to say. I don't want anything to happen to my dog or mom. I keep telling them to live forever. "Deny me the crown and live forever'. I tell both of them that everyday. To my dog, I tell her how much she is loved, and I name off all the people in her life that love her. I tell her she's neede

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More of my Poems; Audio Poem; Hope you like it

This is my first poem ever written for the series, and my favorite poem. I won an award for this poem. A Certificate along with a plaque. A Dancing With Dolls Electric Mind Symphony: Swaying to the tune of his own autumn psychosis. Yet in the summer field among the blazing sunflowers he dances with the doll kidnapped from loving arms into the grasp of one Moonstruck: indeed of a great power but not of love, nor of sound mind. Invincible, or so he thinks of himself

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Universe Size Comparison

If I may post a link, please... This will show you that though how tiny we are compared to the Universe, the Universe still cares for us. 🙂    

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How to get rid of Stress, Depression and Anxiety (what helps me)

Go shopping at markets that carry incense. Pick up your favorite smell, purchase it. Don't forget the incense burner. And lighter or matches. While you're out,  buy a yoga mat. Go  home and burn the incense, and place the yoga mat on the floor near a t.v. If you can get YouTube on your t.v., great! If not, then watch it on your computer/phone/etc. Search for "ZenLifeRelax", and find a video on their channel. Make sure it is 432Hz. Meditate.   Other places you can find

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Stress; Lost; Helpful Quotes of Wisdom; My experience; Christmas

Having stress right now, some anxiety and depression. Even listening to my Spirit LIfe Coach … it's not giving me confirmation. I need the Universe to keep sending me the signs and messages, else I feel i'm lost and  just … lost. I need someone to tell me something that will be something the Universe would say.  I was told that The Universe speaks through people. My numbers have been off today. It's like I fell out of the wrong side of bed. Hmmm.. Well here's some thi

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A Struggle; Depression

I have been trying to quit smoking for a long time now. Mom smokes too and when I quit for 3 days in June, she quit too but it was like living with Satan. Or at least a wrathful God. Anyway, I've been burning incense hoping that the smell of it will help me to quit. Also I tried meditation but my mom came in my room and jerked the headphones off my head and said "you were sleeping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" This was at 6 or 7 am, and I had just woke up, after having a bad

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Physical Pain; Speak As If; Action; Thought; Beliefs and Experience

I'm having physical pain - neck and shoulder. I know what it's from: DDD in the neck, and the shoulder, I fell out of bed not long ago. Speak as if it's already there. Speak as if it's already true. Speak as if you've already got it. Believe, then receive. NOT receive, then believe. This Universe was first spoken (breath / spirit) before it manifested physically. Think about that. Action. You move first. Then the Universe will take it from there. If you don't move, if you don't show th

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Some of my Poetry I wanted to share

My Name is Buck I live in the middle, my name is Buck Make a way for me, maybe with luck Beneath me is the basement it is hidden away Above is the attic forbidden, a way. Those Indians make a way for me, my name is Buck Hidden away in the basement is Hell, there I was stuck Forbidden, a way in the attic there is, and Heaven it was. I live in the middle. My name is Buck. I was to choose when the midnight hour struck. Like Aunt Ruth s

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Kind Members; Christmas lack; Signs; Words of Wisdom

You guys are so kind, thank you for helping me by telling me if you could see my signature or not. I didn't see it last night or this morning. And I was told that it won't show up in the blog here. I appreciate you guys. I've only been here a little while, but everyone I've come across so far has a heart of gold. I am very thankful! A lot of forums have jerks. This one has great people. A little personal thing I've been going through lately is not having enough money. Though I had to b

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Testing Sig

Just testing the signature. I found out how to make one. 🙂 Finally!

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Motivational Speech

I hope it shows up; and if it does, I hope you like it. 🙂    To Day - Present - Gift.mp3

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Dreading Blood Test; Ghosts; Mikael; Zombies; Scared Lonely; Orders; Niece and Nephew; Being Sick

I was getting ready to go to bed but dread came over me. That deep depression feeling, not as strong a foreboding though. Just dread. I must get the blood test in the morning. I was going to go this morning but decided not to. I dread it. What if the test results show I have...it? I've just had so many doctors and appointments and illnesses that I don't need another. However, this, if I'm diagnosed, will explain my hyperhidrosis (constant profusely sweating). I'm nervous about the morning.

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Haunting Music; Poetry; Health; Bad News- Blood Stuff

I was listening to a  couple of song that I know I won't be able to listen to in the future. They are took scary; they're not scary like scary, but scary like dread. I'm having trouble getting comfortable. I couldn't sleep well last night. I'm starting back again on my poetry. I'm also eating better again. But I go through grapes too fast. Need to exercise more. Especially since I found something out. Listen. Are you listening? Do you hear me well? Good. Now.. I know I s

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Online Stuff; Elephant and Monkey; Gratitude

I created a custom shirt, bought it, then had someone else create the same thing, except a little different, and bought that. I also bought myself 2 decks of cards - both inspirational-type. Yes, I splurged. This is my Christmas gift to myself. 🙂 I'll be very happy with it. My mom bought me an Elephant. Not a real one, but a big fuzzy one. He won't replace Munk Monkey. Munk Monkey will stay on my bed too. I just got a new friend for Munk. And for me too. Toys have always been good for

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A Friend; Fruits; Walmart; Poetry; Walking

A friend may be leaving here. Very sad. This person was so nice to me. Though I've only been here a little while, I still meet people and adore them but I want them to do what is best for them. I cannot tell how someone feels, and I don't control it. Even if I could, I wouldn't. People need to get things out their own way. I've been gorging on something. I need to slow down. It's good to eat healthy, but too much is bad. I've been craving grapes, cherries and raspberries and that's all i'm

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Affirmations Notes and Humble Confidence

With humble confidence. With wisdom. With understanding. And applying all I know to be true: 1. I matter. 2. I love myself. 3. I am worthy. 4. I am valuable. 5. I have a great purpose. 6. I came into this world with a gift to share with the world. 7. I deserve to be happy. 8. I am intelligent. 9. I am evolving. 10. I am learning. I know more today than I did yesterday. 11. I am growing mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and I am getting better everyday. 12. I accept m

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Last Time I was on...

Last time I was on here, there was a HUGE power outage and it took away all that I typed. I was also still signed in here when I came back. Gratitude: I need to show more thankfulness to the Universe for it's signs and simple miracles that happen daily. Even when I mess up in life. Even when I'm unthankful. Signs appear. Mostly numbers. Earlier today I went to two stores. On my receipts, one said $13.13 and the other said $14.14. I saw 11:11 today, along with my other numbers, but not

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Not a whole lot going on at the forums, I see

I seen and noticed that there are very old posts and not a whole lot going on in the forums. I guess I was used to other forums, the bigger ones, that have like a million users online at once. But it gives it a peaceful ambience here. Did I use that word correctly? I hope so. 🙂  

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Leaving a comment on my blog, Christmas, Flamingos, Signs from the Universe

I really enjoy reading and replying to comments left on my blog. I'd really like to see how I'm doing, and if I'm affecting people the right way. I want to be an inspiration, not a hinderance. If I ever get 'out of the way', I hope someone will remind me to stay on track. But I try not to get that way. By the way, Christmas is coming and I'm happy about that. I love holidays. I've bought gifts for all my loved ones except I need to buy mom something else. I just got her a dragonfly kit

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Gratitude, Exercise and Foods, Chakras, Dreams, blog views, hermetic principles, universal laws

I want to be more positive. I am more positive than I used to be. Tons more. And I'm thankful that I can feel and be that way. Being thankful, showing gratitude is a good way to show the Universe that you appreciate what you have, and what It's done for you. I keep a gratitude journal. And try to keep an attitude of gratitude. Always being thankful for everything good in my life. I walked 25 minutes yesterday morning, we went to the store and I walked, then I came home and walked 10 more mi

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Notes from my Spirit Life Coach's videos

If there’s no enemy within, the enemy outside can’t hurt you. Lose focus, lose opportunity. The day you plant the seed and the day you eat the fruit are very different. Fall more in love with the process, not just the destination. Watch your words. Trust the Universe. Be patient. Being patient is not about inactivity. It’s about radical action, knowing that the seed you plant today you will not see the fruit of it for a while. But still being okay with it. Fear and

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