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I will be talking about my mental health and daily life. If I ramble on about nothing, that's my therapy in action. :)

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Everything Will Be Okay; Tiny Lessons

I tortured myself as I usually do, thinking and jumping to conclusions, the worst case scenario. Synchronicities piece things together with reassurance. And the Universe is for me, right beside me, Gratitude shows up everywhere. My dominant thoughts become my dominant experiences and reality. I believe in the Secret. Now I must only apply it in full. The past I cannot change, it is gone, and the future is out of my control Be Present. The Present is the Pa

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Mistakes

I've been gone for a while because I was trying to sort out a problem that I recently had. I had obviously made a mistake, or I call it that. I'm afraid to tell what it is because I don't want people thinking the wrong things about me. But.. well, I had to see my psych doc on the 28th of January. He has me prescribed Cymbalta, Lorazepam, and he used to have me on Invega, but I had a seizure, so I quit taking it for the rest of last month. So, I wasn't on my antipsychotic med. I went about 2 1/2

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My Ginko Biloba Experiment

I was testing the Ginko Biloba that I used to take in high school.... I was trying it as a night-time remedy for remembering my dreams. Indeed, I did remember them. However, there were a few things that made it all worse.   Anger and irritability: It caused me to be more angry and irritable upon waking. It lasted til the early evening. Not good. Sweating: I have hyperhidrosis already, but it made the sweating even more worse. Very Vivid Dreams: My dreams were so vivid th

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Something needed to talk about; Food and Weight; More incense; Magazine; Joy

I'm embarrassed to talk about this, but hoping I can get into one of the forums here to talk about some stuff going on in my life right now that needs to be dealt with before it gets worse. So funny, and ironic, that there's nothing online about it unless you pay (forums included) so I wonder... if it's such a problem among people, why is there no help out there for free? I ate spaghetti tonight. And ate too much. My stomach is almost distinted (however you spell it) because of it. Lately I

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Old Friend; Exercise; Eye Exam; Feelings

I was talking to a friend I had been with as a girlfriend for a little while... we broke it up after a week, but I'm very nervous to talk to her, but she seems to be doing very well, and I'm glad, very very happy for her. She is smiling in her pictures, and with a new guy, and I am sincerely so happy for her. She needed someone decent for her. I walked 10 minutes today. I'm getting back into exercise. I wish I could stick with it. Everyday. My eyes need checked. I have trouble to see m

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A Big Sleep; Universe Enlightens me; Siddhartha; Books; Dreams and Memory

I slept all day yesterday! Missed everything. Even missed getting a package, so we had to go to the ups store and get it. I got a book. I was collecting books by this author this month. I feel like the Universe is making up for lost time with me. I turned on my xbox to watch youtube. Watching vids by Edge of Wonder. They were talking about Prophecy and Messiah. Then the next video that came on was about Enlightenment. I was like... wow! They even mentioned Siddhartha... a book I actually go

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Gratitude; Mantra; Confidence Vs. Arrogance

I am thankful for you guys. And this website. You guys have been a great encouragement to me, and this site has been a great resource. Coming here when I've been depressed has helped me tremendously. The caring hearts and kind words that live here are inspiring. I feel very thankful to have met you guys, and found this website. Lately there have been certain words pop up in my life: Courage Confidence Humility Focus Trust Perspective Responsibility Fear Vs. Love Action

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2 latest collages

I made these two tonight. These are fun to make. Gets my mind off depression. It's better than sitting there staring at the wall, doing nothing. I hope you guys like them :)  

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Notes taken from a Tony Robbins motivational speech

My Notes From a video called "The 3 Steps to a Breakthrough | Tony Robbins" Having courage is that while you are still afraid, you are still facing your fears. And fear is False Evidence Appearing Real. 1. The future as my mind tells me it is, is FEAR. 2. Ghosts are FEAR. 3. The Dark is FEAR. (Those are my fears. You may replace mine with yours, but every fear IS FEAR - False Evidence Appearing Real). Get out of your comfort zone and do something that even you

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A test

A test

I'm testing to see if my background picture will show up.

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Notes from the videos I posted earlier

Notes from Infinite Waters videos Keywords: Confidence and Courage Confidence is moving out of your comfort zone. Having courage is that while you are still afraid, you are still facing your fears. And fear is False Evidence Appearing Real. 1. The future as my mind tells me it is, is FEAR. 2. Ghosts are FEAR. 3. The Dark is FEAR. (Those are my fears. You may replace mine with yours, but every fear IS FEAR - False Evidence Appearing Real). Get out of y

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4 Videos on Confidence and Breakthroughs

I hope you guys can see these o.k. I'm sorry I've posted 4 of them, but they were extremely helpful and full of wisdom, and helped me get out of my blue slump today. I hope it helps you too. Take notes!!            

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Collages; I wish I could touch you and you know what I know now

I've been pretty depressed, so I got busy, keeping myself busy with something so the depression wouldn't be felt as terribly, and to keep my mind active through it; active on something else. I made two collages. I've got about 3-4 more posterboards I can use to do more. And I'm still cutting out of magazines now. I'll post the pictures. I hope you all will like them. It's mostly words, but a few pictures that mean something to me. I wish I could touch you all, and you would then k

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For Smiles, My Dog

This is my doggie daughter. Her name is Baby. But she likes to be called "BoBo" in front of the cats. I hope this picture of my doggie daughter brings many smiles to many faces this New Year. I love you guys.

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Medication; Celebrating New Year; Scar; Numbers; Scary Video; Incense; Changes; Confidence

I'm feeling much better right now. I'm surprised but assume it's only because of a medication I'm on now. I've also been taking the Cymbalta that was changed from Wellbutrin. Wellbutrin is good, but it doesn't take away as much depression as Cymbalta. However, if I would have stayed with it and quit buying cigs, I would have been able to quit smoking. I know it. But I just didn't have the willpower. I know I can still quit. I don't have to have a medication to quit. I just need to be ready to gi

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The Last Night of the 2018 World!; Sleep; Source Energy; Mysteries of Sight and Sound

It's almost 2019 world! It feels strange to type it, see it and write it because it seems too futuristic. I was depressed earlier and it lingers a little now. I know if I sleep tonight, I'll feel better. But I don't want to sleep now. It's 1am and I don't want to sleep. I feel like I have things to do. The Source Energy - I found out things today. How would we know infinity if we had nothing to compare it to? How could we know good unless we knew evil? We created 'God' to control one a

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Laundry; Writing; Daily Routines; Diet; Brother; Money; Guidance; Springtime

I've been helping mom a lot with laundry lately. I enjoy getting to help. Because a lot of the time, my body hurts and I have to take meds and take it easy and don't get to do what I'd like to get done. I'll be putting in more today. We need towels done. I woke up today with the Memoir and/or Autobiography on my mind. It more that I just want to tell what I've learned and the stories that go with them. So maybe that's just a regular book?? I'm not sure so I'll keep researching. I'm used t

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Comfortable; Memoir; Eyesight; Med Change; Doc

I"m currently trying to get comfortable in bed here. My thumb is huge because of a bandage. The thumb nail got dumb, I bashed it a while back and it's coming out of the bruising and all. IT's the thumb I use to make spaces between words. I've been having trouble seeing lately. Much trouble. I need to see my eye doc I guess. I've been slowly working on my poems, and memoir, and reading some great books. I got a new medication today but I"ve been on it before. Invega. I hated A

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Way too coincidental to be a coincidence...

I was reading more on that Warrior of the Light book.  I wrote down the pages numbers of all the coincidences. I just gotta tell what it's guiding me to. Long ago, I asked for Wisdom. I was finally given a good definition of it, and how it related to understanding and knowledge. Then I was noticing everything talked about patience. So I had plenty of opportunities for to practice it. Then I learned about Enlightenment. Peace. Joy. Then something called Humble Confidence. And

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New Meditation; Quotes; Definition

I was reading in the book Warrior Of The Light by Paulo Coelho about when the Warrior's path becomes too routine, there's a way to meditate that's good for the soul. It says that if you can't meditate, repeat one simple word over and over until it will eventually lose it's meaning. (My brother and I done that when we were little, but didn't think anything about it, just thought it was funny how numb you become to something that's repeated over and over.) Once it loses it's meaning (the

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Merry Christmas; thoughts; meh.

I'm beginning to wonder why I stay on the computer so long. I took a 6 month break away once. Then I didn't want to get back on! Been seeing things out the corner of my eyes the past week, it is worse today. Shadow people blacker than black. They keep looking around the corner at me. And last night I saw what looked like smoke in the living room, but I wasn't smoking in there, I was headed to the kitchen from my room. When I took some pictures, I saw orbs, but they left before I could

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Responsibility; Gratitude; Notes I took from a Video

What you seek, you already have. It's inside you. All along we often go out of ourselves to seek truth and wisdom. But it's inside us. YOU are the power you are searching for. Enlightenment is knowing how much you don't know. (Wisdom) What you believe creates your reality. Seeking Truth and Wisdom? You're on the right path now. When you don't want it, that's when it comes. People always give up right before the magic happens. What you believe creates your re

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Warrior of LIght

" The Warrior of the Light acknowledges the significance of intuition. In the middle of any battle, he does not think about the enemy's disappointing setbacks, so he uses his instinct and obeys his angel. In times of peace and harmony, he deciphers the signs and synchronicities that God sends him. The Warrior knows that intuition is God's way of communication (Language) and he proceeds in hearing the wind and gazing, and talking to the stars. " - Paulo Coelho, Warrior Of The

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There is HOPE in bringing it to LIGHT; Motivational Quote

My Spirit Life Coach says " When you just express yourself, you feel a whole lot of weight lifted off your shoulders. What is greater than really saying how you really feel, no matter what people think. THAT will set you free. " I decided not to keep the post up, because I just didn't feel right about it. Come to think of it, it could have sparked arguments, etc. I've been coming here lately when I get depressed, because reading your posts, comments and blogs, it helps me feel not so t

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