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12/10/2016

I need to meditate on my breaks and use my time as my most important resourse. If you died what would you differently. Sense of urgency.  Take it all ideas. Make sure you use a G2 and nice journal. Start keeping a journal at al times so you can get better and  capture all ideas. Take notes everywhere and etch. Get the mental effort to get the journal and the picture clear as possible. Make sure you take notes. Focus is important. You focus on what is awesome. The most valuable resource is

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12/09/2016

I had a challenging day. I NEVER QUIT. I always grind. The Chiefs won which is awesome. My medicine seems pretty good. My focus is very good.

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12/07/2016

*****breakthrough***** I had an emphany that I don't want to be ripped and be a pimp and 999 billion dollars too badly...Why? Because I choose sleep and relaxing over those things. If I truely wanted those things instead of sleeping I would jump my happy ass out of bed and do massive action. Every time I choose working out towards getting ripped over sleep over everything it sends a signal to my brain that "Yes this is what it takes to be ripped" Everytime I go out rather than coming hom

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12/06/2016

12/06/2016 I woke up today. I was a bit p*****. I am so far away from my goals and dreams. Oh well time to get to work. I started going for a walk. My goal is not to eat much today and get on the treadmill. I need to get my butt on the treadmill as well. Self-discipline. I am working towards getting money to give back. I want to become the best version of myself. When I raise my toughness and raise my perseverance. If I enforce strategy.  I can look at my vision board to really fuel the f

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122222

Part of the fun in life is dropping knowledge bombs on unsuspecting people. I was getting my haircut at sport clips yesterday and I dropped some knowledge about anxiety and I started a conversation about how would you rather be lit up with anxiety or be sluggish. I personally would rather be lit up with anxiety so I can finish Elder Scrolls online level 50. This lady agreed. We also agreed that half the battle with mental illness is getting used to...dipping your toes...even wadding into the war

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12/04/2016 part 2

12/04/2016 I woke up early today. I have two things on my mind. Getting my body, mind and spirit in awesome shape. I am going to take massive action. I am going to do whatever it takes to be the #1 businessman of all-time. Roth 401k save money network build skils kiss butt where need be WHATEVER IT TAKES. I am doing that to inspire myself and inspire others. Being sensitive to being inspired is a skillset. If you aren't on the lookout on what moves you you will always be depressed and bla.

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Sunday. Kansas City Chiiiieeefs

12/04/2016 I woke up early today. I have two things on my mind. Getting my body, mind and spirit in awesome shape. I am going to take massive action. I am going to do whatever it takes to be the #1 businessman of all-time. Roth 401k save money network build skils kiss butt where need be WHATEVER IT TAKES. I am doing that to inspire myself and inspire others. Being sensitive to being inspired is a skillset. If you aren't on the lookout on what moves you you will always be depressed and bla.

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12/03/2016 part 2

***breakthrough*** I woke up today in some fear. Fear that I wouldn't get what I want that I would get side tracked from my goals of 999 billion dollars being #1 businessman of all time. I said this encantation that helped I woke up in a bit of fear today. I like this saying. "I am fully complete the way I am. I don't need anything. I come from the frame of abundance. I am here to provide value to any situation" That is a great situation to get me out of fear. I can stop thinking about what

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12/03/2016

I woke up in a bit of fear today. I like this saying. "I am fully complete the way I am. I don't need anything. I come from the frame of abundance. I am here to provide value to any situation"

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12/02/2016

Good job from me to walk away from a meal not overeating and not eating pie. Yesterday I went to bed a bit hungry. I try not to eat before bed. Your body stores fat easily when you go to bed full. I had to hone, flex and cultivate my self-discipline muscle of going to bed yesterday. I don't feel great today. I made a video about completing against other people. When I think about my self-discipline being so far ahead of other people I achieve near God-like status that stokes the fire. When I

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12/01/2016

Today was really tough. I was snippy with a lady at work. I felt terrible and I was sick and depressed. I pushed through. I know that when things are tough and the chips are down. You can take that time and look at it as a challenge. Challenges like today happen every once in awhile. I strive to use tough times to cultivate, hone, harness, and grow my toughness and spirit. I made it through the day. I try not to talk crap on people as well.  That is lame.

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11/30/2016

I woke up today. I went down to see my sponsor. So much of life is just meeting with mentors or sponsors. That went well. We talked about loving people for who they are and just be at peace with life. Life on lifes terms. I made my magnificant purpose which is to make 999 Billion dollars on Jan 1st 2026. I will be connected with awesome people and awesome athletes. I will wear brooks brothers outfits and be awesome. The theme song for the Kansas Jayhawks really pumped me up and inspired me

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11/29/2016

Need to come up with description of success you have to put down sight, hearing, sound, what it feels like etc. I would envision myself in brooks brothers pants, nice high end polo's, for sports have the best jersey's, also a wide arange of funny shirts. Boss 429, 2 jeeps BMW SUV, and ferrari in the garage. Steak and fish, and fresh veggies and fresh fruit to eat. Great video games and arcade games to play pinball machines to play. Alice Eve, Krystenn ritter, Elsiha cuthbert on speed dial.

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11/27/2016

11/27/2016 I woke up and I didn't feel terrible. I started to think about the .jpg that I made with all the pictures that really move me. You have to go through the internet and magizenes and find pictures that actually make you feel something. I know depression can leave you numb. My dad said that since I didn't buy my nephew anything for his birthday my dad is going to give my nephew my money. That is a good idea and because I was able to attend the party and not have that bad of depress

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my nephews birthday party

I rode for 2 hours to my nephews birthday party. I didn't buy him anything but just being there was a step in the right direction. Those long days around people can be terrible with depression, but welburtrin and stratera seem to bringing my mood a bit up. They do make me jittery though at the end of my sentences I studder a bit. I will trade that off from feeling like I am dead or that feeling of sweat and dread.

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11/26/2016

I wasn't able to sleep yesterday without eating which was a bummer. On the bright side I woke up thinking about cash.jpg and alice eve. So that got me emotionally motivated to go for a walk. It sucked, but I know I have to increase my toughness and increase my self-discipline if I want to move up in the world and grow as a person. If it was easy everyone would do it. I know I am on the right track when I feel like crap, because the things that need to be done to be successful suck. 

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11/15/2016

Every night before I go to sleep I like to type something up that I can read in the morning. It is usually something to the effect of....."your mind is going to play games with you today, focus on your breathing, it is just a game. You winning the game depends on you just breathing and getting through whatever situation you are put in." I also write down what I want to focus on. I want to focus on making 999 billion dollars and becoming physically and mentally fit. I have a vision with me being

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11/24/2016

I really lucked out with Thanksgiving this year. It was small and it wasn't stressful at all. I felt depressed but it wasn't nearly as bad as some years and I wasn't drunk so that was great. My mind and my body feel bad and depressed, but I know I am so much more than my mind. I feel bad and then I think I am a crappy person. I can override that and overcome that if I recognize the fact that depression does that to people. I also looked at some of my friends on facebook with hot wives and I was

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11/20/2016

Yesterday I felt like garbage. I have a sponsor in AA and it is important to let him know when I feel like crap. It is important to me that I don't view depression as good or bad. It just is. I have read a couple books that back that up. "Letting Go" is one of the book. Another book is called "Depression is a Liar." I am going through a a work book called "The neuropsychology of Self-Dicipline. It is on youtube and it is on PDF to download. I have clear goals and I don't care how crazy they are.

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11/18/2016

I walked the dog for a bit today. I went to planet fitness as well. It sucks to go out in the cold. You have to cultivate, hone, improve your self-discipline and get out in the cold and do work.

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Mindset and reps

I lift weights. I know the importance of consistency. I know you get out what you put in. I know having a routine is important. I have been working on being more passionate, happier, and using my will and skill everyday to become better in those area's. I can use my mind body and soul to change my life and others life. Sometimes I feel like crap. That doesn't mean I give up. I still go through my routine in my head. "Well at-least I am alive, well I am grateful I am alive, I won't give up, I wil

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11/13/2016

Some things that help me through my day is acknowledging that there are down times and boring times. That is normal. That is a big part of success and getting out of depression. When things seem bleak and boring. Just keep breathing and staying alive. I am not going to sugar coat it. Things suck. They suck most of the times. I have the goal of dying a natural death.  I feel like it is my job and choice to keep going. Even though I may feel bad and times are tough. I can make money, cultivate my

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09/26/2016

I am almost getting fired at work. That is bad. I did take action to schedule an appointment to see if I am A.D.D. I felt a bit better this weekend. I spend alot of time with my mom and dad and that is always a good thing

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Overcoming fear

One you see that you are battling yourself and your body in situations it really helps you cope and appreciate your growth. I had some fear in one area of my life, but I was able to walk through it with grace, strength and dignity. After that I felt fulfilled and I know that I am winning on levels on life I never thought imaginable. If you work your butt off and with a little luck, you might have a silver lining.  

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09/18/2016

I have been working 40-50 hours a week which is pretty amazing considering how depressed I am most of the time. There is lots of pressure and responsibility on me at work, but I always try my best. I am 35 years old and one thing I know is that you can cry, moan complain, but keep learning and keep at whatever it is that you are doing. I am saving money and I have had some setbacks out of my control but I know the important thing is the character that I am building. I fish, I go for walks, I rea

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