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My life has had so many ups and downs. I have followed the road less traveled all my life, meaning my own individual path. This is a blog about those ups and downs and being on the road less traveled. 

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Moved on, kissed another man, dating another

Well, I am moving on. I met someone who is really interested in me that I really like! We have the same energy and love the same music. He loves to dance as much as I do, and has SO much energy, it's infectious! He is happy, kind and decent. I LOVE dancing with him. We had a very passionate kiss the other night. We're going out on a date soon. I met another guy too, and we've agreed to a dinner date next week. We had fun, too! Being single again is fun!

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Move on Down the Road..

I am moving on. I had a first date last night with someone... granted we're not really all that compatible, but since I am just going to casually date and not fall in love, it almost doesn't matter. He was very flirtatious with me, and we had fun. Then next week I have a date with someone else, a second date, that I'm looking forward to. This one is much more compatible with me, but I am still going to keep it casual. No more getting involved, as I've been writing about. I am 100% convinced that

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Morning Coffee ~ Dreams

I woke up at 6:30 AM. That is unheard of. Sometimes when I wake up, I feel depressed. Then I have coffee and can typically shake it off. This morning I feel hopeful. I wonder if I had good dreams? That can make a difference. When I was younger, I used to have dreams of a man chasing me, wanting to seriously harm me. Then I started fighting back years later, and those nightmares stopped. For a while I also had dreams of being able to fly away from situations I wanted to escape. I could flap my ar

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Monday Blues

I really don't know how I feel, the one word I have is disappointed. I woke up feeling disappointed. There is someone who has disappeared from my life, and I am very disappointed in his behavior towards me. He seemed to think he was sparing me from additional pain, but he doesn't realize how much it hurt that he just cut off our communications and friendship. If he does come back, I don't know if I can be friends with him again. This is the second time he's done an about face and has disappeared

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Messages of Light and Love From Beyond

Messages of light and love: Be compassionate with yourself and be kind to yourself. You've been through SO much in life, and you've fought many battles thus far. You are a warrior spirit -- keep fighting to make it through. And you will.   Heal your wounds through the gifts of kindness and love from others. Embrace those who care for you and those who show love for you, and give them your caring heart in return. The blessings will be manifold.   The gift of giving hel

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Meh

Another person who has been in my life passed away while hiking. Yet another one gone. I've known so many people whose lives have been cut short, it's ridiculous. And so sad.   As far as how I am doing? Meh. I am definitely middle of the road these days. I am trying yet again to find a different job. My new-ish job is unsatisfactory, so I interviewed with a company and am waiting to hear back. It's been over a week, and I haven't been rejected nor have I been offered the job. It's frustrati

Mediation Meeting with HR and my Boss

I have to return to work on Monday, and to my ultimate chagrin, I have to report to my bully witch of a boss again. Last week HR told me I could report to her husband instead, the company co-owner, but they changed their minds. So now I am having a mediation meeting with HR and my boss on Monday to mediate/discuss the issues. I have no idea how to handle this.... I have to tell her that yes, I am open to hearing constructive criticism and welcome that in order to perform better, but that it cann

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Me and My Baby!

It was my husband's bday yesterday! I still am not totally used to calling him my hubby! LOL. It's been two months since we got married.... life has been grand between us! We're very very happy! Though we each have our work stress to manage and deal with.  Last night we had a really fun celebration for him at a fine restaurant in the city. And tonight we will celebrate more properly since it's Friday night and we don't have to think about work!  I miss him so much during the day when w

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May Happiness Surround You

My wish for everyone here is for healing and happiness. I am feeling so great these days and want everyone to feel good. But I know that so many here suffer from so many different kinds of issues that are not quickly or easily resolvable. However, if each day can bring just a little ray of hope or happiness somehow into people's lives, I would be happy. There is hope, after all, for better and brighter days ahead. Not all is lost.. never. There is always something to be hopeful about... whether

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Manager blew up at work

Our manager completely lost it late yesterday. He has already blown at me, which HR is aware of. Next, he got angry with a client, so he hung up, or rather, slammed the phone down, then he slammed his computer shut, stormed out of the office, slamming the office door HARD. Our boss and our boss's boss witnessed this. If he doesn't get fired for that, I am going to be incredulous. IF I behaved that way, I would be fired in a heartbeat. So what should make him so immune and special? I am truly hop

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Making the Best of a Sucky Situation

So there has been a huge disappointment, not getting the job I thought I had in the bag. And now I have to return to work to my abusive boss, as I have been writing about. Of course, I don't know whether they will accept me back or not. I have not heard back from HR yet. I've been on a mental health leave of absence for four months now. If they fired me, I could sue. But that's not the route I really wish to take. The main point being, IF they accept me back, I'm going to have to make the best o

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Make or Break Me

While sitting having morning coffee with my parents, I was restless in my chair, tapping my fingers energetically on the armrest. My mom said I looked like the energizer bunny, lol. I am filled with so much energy over this job, I think I need to take a long fast walk today. Getting this job could make or break me, I said to her. She said it won't break you, it'll just set you back. But so much is dependent on this job right now and whether I get it or not. If I get it, I can move anywhere I wan

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Magical Snow & Love

It snowed for the first time last night! I feel so giddy like a little kid opening presents! Well, at least it's the first time I've seen it stick to the ground this year. It's the Christmas season, we have our Christmas tree up and decorated, our house smells like pine from the holiday candles burning and I want to just run outside and play in the snow right now in my pajamas. LOL. I want to play hooky and go skiing! I want to make snow angels and bake cookies! Forget this work thing. How can I

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Low Life Creeps!

I have been a victim of fraud, major fraud, and once I tell this story you're going to think I am soooooo stupid and sooooooo naive, but that's OK... I think I am stupid and naive!!! Maybe you'll be disgusted too.. I sure am. I still feel slightly traumatized by the incident. So yesterday I received a message from the "IRS" stating that I have committed tax evasion fraud and that I am being sued by the IRS. So I called the number back immediately, feeling scared. They said they had sent notic

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Loving Heart ~ Love to My Friends

My heart last night and this morning has been so full of love for everyone it is bursting. I feel so full in my spirit, simply because of loving people. I love all of my friends. I love all of my close DF friends. Everyone is just so dear to me. So many have helped me along my path of life, and so many have brought joy, laughter, and support in my life, I am so very grateful. Thinking back on all the memories with my IRL friends, and how much I value those fun times we've had. My friend, Stacy,

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Love Will Carry Me Through

My fiance, the love of my life, is peacefully sleeping, but I'm awake super early for a Sunday. I really appreciate him and feel so very lucky to have him. We're going through some tough times financially and career-wise, but I feel that we can get through this together and come out the other side. Together we're stronger than just one, and I am better with him than without. I cannot imagine life without him. So, I know I can get through this, with him by my side. I am so used to having to do

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Love Bitten ~ Once Bitten, Twice Shy

My therapist and friends all tell me not to give up on love. At heart, I truly am a love bug by nature, being a Libra birth sign. But as of late, I've wanted to close my heart up entirely and turn my back on the possibility. All I ever do is get hurt, or abused, or enter into some kind of bad relationship that ends up being hurtful, at least as of late. Maybe the right person really is out there for me, & maybe when/if he comes along, I can open my heart again. But he is going to need to be

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Lost Friendships

I have lost several friendships in my life, which makes me sad sometimes. Some people are only meant to be in our lives a short time though and serve a purpose for us, I do believe--to help us through a difficult time or to teach us a lesson. I don't think all friendships are meant to last or be lifelong. And when those friendships no longer serve us, we must let them go. I had to let go of a seven-year long friendship last summer with a raging narcissist. After seven years, I couldn't take it a

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Life's Adventures.. Every Day is One

I'm feeling reflective today. Life is most certainly one grand adventure... each day is an adventure, if we choose to look at it that way. Full of highs, lows, successes, failures, scary dark corners, the unknown, things that can go right or wrong.... no matter what each day brings, the good, the bad and the ugly, we must face everything that comes with confidence, bravery, and strength. I remember when I was being bullied in school as a kid and rather than being afraid to face the day, I wou

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Life is Far Too Short

On the heels of my last entry, I am reflective about the shortness and fragility of life. I just lost another friend out of the blue. I've lost many people in my life to illness and/or sudden tragedy. Every time I lose someone, it makes me reflective. And I realize how precious and short life truly can be, as cliche as that is to say. We never know what's going to happen or when we may go. It could be tomorrow, it could be years from now.  Life is far too short to hold onto pettiness, grudg

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Letting Go ~

So my ex is now out of my life. I am relieved & feel much more free and happier, but I am also concerned that I have hurt him deeply. I know I have. I could tell in his email. I hate hurting people. It hurts me to know I have caused someone pain. But the pain was inevitable. He hurt me, and I hurt him in return by shutting the door on abuse and shutting the door on him. It's going to be really hard when I do run into him, which could be often. I think I should move across the country! I am g

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Leaving on a Jet Plane!

WOOOHOOO!!!!! It's vacation time! Not sure if I'll ever come back! LOL. I haven't been on a plane in three years, and I absolutely LOVE flying, so I am beyond excited. There is nothing that compares to that most delicious feeling at takeoff, when you have nothing to do but sit back, enjoy the scenery, have a blood.y mary and put all your troubles behind you. My bags are already packed and I'm ready to go. I packed a week early I was so excited, lol. And today, a Friday, the end of the work w

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Leaving DF for Now ~ Farewell and Thank You

I have decided to leave DF, at least temporarily. It is now time for me to move on and spread my wings. I have a new website/blog that is taking off to focus on, a new Happiness Facebook page and an upcoming course that will take over my life for the next two months. DF has served me well, but it is time to now bid my farewells for now and wish everyone here all the best. Thank you from the bottom of my heart to all those who have been generous and kind towards me, and to all those who have prov

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Leave Ego at the Door

For the first time in many years I am mentoring junior staff at work. I was really flattered yesterday when my colleague asked if he could sit in on my training with the junior staff member so that he could also learn something from me. This colleague I think of as my equal, even though I am more senior to him in our job titles. And in some ways, he knows a LOT more than I do. We can all learn from each other and we all carry certain strengths.  They/the company really looks to me as though

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Laid off.... Partially

As though I didn't have enough on my plate to worry about career-wise, I just got partially laid off. They cut my hours from 40/week to 20/week, which includes a half salary reduction. So my fiance and I are now under a lot of pressure financially, and we probably cannot move into our new apartment. I put $4500 down on the new apartment and am praying that with 30 days notification, I can get all of that money back. Stress Stress Stress...... life sure does come with unexpected twists and tur

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