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About this blog

My life has had so many ups and downs. I have followed the road less traveled all my life, meaning my own individual path. This is a blog about those ups and downs and being on the road less traveled. 

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I Ended Things

Well, my new guy and I ended things a few weeks ago. There was a dealbreaker that crept up, so I had to end it, unfortunately. I really liked him a lot and we have a ton in common except for this one issue that got in the way. So, I am single again, or have been for a while now. Oh well... that's how it goes in this crazy life!!

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I got a Job!

After months of searching and failing through many many interviews, I am finally get a job offer!!!! Granted, it's a part time (20 hour/week) contract role, but I will be working full time between two jobs now, which is awesome! No benefits of course, so I will have to buy health insurance, and I don't get any paid days off, which sucks. But I will have the extra money now to cover any unpaid days off I take. The hourly rate for the new job should be pretty high. I have yet to receive the offici

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Job Search Discouragement

I'm at an impasse and am getting really frustrated by this job search. I am too senior for many jobs in my field; then the jobs I DO qualify for, they administer personality tests and knowledge-based or skills tests, and I can't seem to get past the front door with these. Two companies have rejected me based on their stupid personality tests. I am too honest. People tell me I should tell them what I think they want to hear, but I don't know what they want to hear. Then this other company rejecte

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Downturn - relationship is up in the air

Well, things suddenly changed a bit yesterday and now things are up in the air with my guy. We talked about being exclusive with each other & then it came out that he has a certain history that makes me wary. So, now things are up in the air and I don't know what to do. A future is still possible, but my wariness may prevent me from being able to move forward. I just don't know. Maybe??

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I’m dating someone wonderful and amazing!!

I haven’t been on the blogs in a while! For the last 6 or so weeks, I have been dating the most amazing man!! I wrote about him before, but we're very much dating now. He treats me with kindness and respect, he is very funny, very fun, mature, down to earth, spontaneous and adventurous! We enjoy many of the same things and have a TON in common, almost freakishly so. He is creative like I am, he’s in a bluegrass band and sings (he has a great voice!!), he is intelligent, very positive, positive e

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OMG... I think I've Met my Match!

My new man surprised me last night by showing up at the club where I was at, dancing to a Dead cover band. He arrived after his bluegrass gig, that I had to miss. We danced all night together and close. It was intimate and sexy. I really dig this guy! We've seen each other three times in just one week. We met a couple weeks ago. I don't want to get carried away with this just yet, but I think I may have met my match! I can't wait to see him again. He is very fun, he is a very positive spirit and

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I Met a Man..

Also, I’ve met someone new. My most recent date didn't work out and it’s still early yet but we’ve had two great dates so far and I’m seeing him again next week. We have a lot in common and share similar music tastes. He came with me to see one of my favorite local bands Sat night and loved them! I cannot wait until our next date! He plays in a bluegrass band and sings. He's very cute, too! He’s just my style, so we’ll see! He wants to spend New Years together, which I will probably do, seeing a

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Music, Skiing and Nature are my Soul Food

So, music is my greatest passion, especially seeing live music, and second is skiing. Being close to nature is up there, too. There’s something about live music that makes me so very happy and fulfilled. I LOVE to dance. I grew up as a dancer throughout my childhood and teen years.. with ballet and modern dance. My mother is a ballet dancer/teacher. When I get lost in the music and in dancing, I feel happiest. I feel grounded within myself and at peace. I don’t even care if people are watching m

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I am Happy

Things are going well and I feel happy. I am seeing my friends, I am expanding my social circle to include new friendships, I am getting out a lot, meeting a lot of new people, and am having a lot of fun! Things are good and I cannot complain. The only one glitch is trying to find a new job, but I know that will come in time. I just need patience and persistence. My current job is going better than usual, my boss is (mostly) receptive to my ideas and they're getting implemented, which will help

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I know What I Deserve and It's Better Than That

My last boyfriend was total crap, or rather, ex fiance. He used me like a bank account and took full advantage of my kindness and good heart. Well, I know what I deserve, and it's FAR better than whatever crap he gave me. He's a total liar and a con artist who scammed me from the very beginning and all along. He lied about just about everything under the sun, yet claimed to be honest and trustworthy. He even claimed to be faithful. It's all bull crap. He stole meds from me. He even stole a pair

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Had a date, now picking and choosing

Well, I had a first date since my breakup and it was fun! He is very talkative, an interesting conversationalist, and has a lot to offer. He's an incredible artist -- WOW. I LOVE people who are creative, like me. He made a painting for a mutual friend that is Native American. And he made the most amazing painting of Tom Petty, with lyrics and a true portrayal of his face with glasses on. He is from here too. He is very fun and very energetic. I LOVE his spirit and energy. He believes in Karma an

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Moved on, kissed another man, dating another

Well, I am moving on. I met someone who is really interested in me that I really like! We have the same energy and love the same music. He loves to dance as much as I do, and has SO much energy, it's infectious! He is happy, kind and decent. I LOVE dancing with him. We had a very passionate kiss the other night. We're going out on a date soon. I met another guy too, and we've agreed to a dinner date next week. We had fun, too! Being single again is fun!

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Betrayal

He promised to love me. He promised I was the only one. That is not true. It's all a lie. Everything he told me is a lie. That I made him happy, that I made him the happiest. That he was so lucky to have me. It's all a lie. I thought he wanted to marry me. I thought I was "it". I gave my all to this guy and more. He's left me bleeding and in pain. Thank you for your lies. I will find someone else far better for me, I assure you of that. 

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What's Up

25 years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination I realized quickly when I knew I should That the world was made up of this brotherhood of man For whatever that means And I cry sometimes when I’m lying in bed Just to get it all out what's in my head And I’m feeling a little peculiar And so I wake in the morning and I step outside And I take a deep breath and I get real high And I scream from the top of my lungs What's going on????

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Hurtful Words

Words can hurt like daggers. I am not immune to this and am very sensitive. I have always been very sensitive and sometimes overly emotional in response. I can be hurtful, too, when someone has hurt me with their words. I don't like that about myself and want to do better in the future. There is no point in lashing out when someone has hurt you first. The key for me is to avoid people who can be hurtful, but sometimes you just don't know a person fully until you allow them in and get to know the

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Confidence, Positive Mindset and Determination

I had a great interview yesterday and am so excited and proud of myself! I sold myself MUCH better than I have in past interviews, and it worked! The recruiter said it was a "fantastic conversation" and she wants to move things forward. I've had a poor experience over the last year with interviews, and realized that I just need to exude the confidence, even if I am not exactly feeling it. Fake it 'til you make it. Thing is, I KNOW I can achieve in my jobs and career, and I have so far. I'm just

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Ahhh.... Stress Lifted?

Well, it seems that my fiance got some work finally, but neither one of us is convinced until he actually starts working. He's had two false starts now, with two different restaurants that both hired him, but couldn't get their act together to actually start him. This went on for an entire month with each restaurant. Who's ever heard of such a thing? It's been INSANE... the waiting, the multiple phone calls every day and night, trying to get a hold of someone who could put him on the schedule. I

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Blog Writing Block ~ Not on DF

I have a blog about happiness and have a writing block. I've written 37 original articles, all by me, and all on personal development, career and relationship topics. I know my next topic is going to be about anxiety, especially since I am dealing with major anxiety right now, but it's hard to write since I am so stressed overall. I am stressed and anxious about writing about anxiety, LOL. What to do, what to do. I guess the answer is to just wait until this fog clears, have a couple drinks and

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I Want to Go Off Meds

I want to go off all meds, except maybe Ativan for my anxiety. I am sick of changing psych doctors due to changes in health insurance carriers, and I am sick of trying to find a doctor who will see me after regular business hours. I have changed psych doctors three times in the last three years and therapists at least six times. I am so tired of it all. I don't know how I would be if I went off my A/D or Abilify, and it's probably not a good idea atm given the stress I am under. My therapist wou

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Anxiety and Depression Getting Worse

Things have gotten far worse. I am filled with anxiety every waking moment. I don't know how we're going to be able to make our rent payment next week. I don't know if we'll have enough money for groceries and other necessities. I decided today that I am not good at my job. I cannot figure out Google, so I suck at my job and what I do. I should know this after seven years, but whatever I am doing, it's not working. Depression is sinking in and worsening. All I can do is lie down during the day t

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When the Going Gets Tough...

So, I write on a blog - it does not rank well on Google, which is my job - my field, I mean. I am not a web designer, nor am I a web developer. I am an SEO professional. But I think I TOTALLY suck at my job, even after seven years of so-called "expertise" in the field. The thing is, SEO is really, really freaking HARD. To get a website to rank high on Google for specific terms is a HUGE TASK that takes many, many different tactics and avenues. It doesn't just happen overnight or magically - it t

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Love Will Carry Me Through

My fiance, the love of my life, is peacefully sleeping, but I'm awake super early for a Sunday. I really appreciate him and feel so very lucky to have him. We're going through some tough times financially and career-wise, but I feel that we can get through this together and come out the other side. Together we're stronger than just one, and I am better with him than without. I cannot imagine life without him. So, I know I can get through this, with him by my side. I am so used to having to do

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Gratitude and Silver Linings ~

I am so very grateful for all that I DO have, including my fiance, who is the most wonderful man I have ever known. In the face of adversity, I am trying to see the silver linings, and there are many. Now that I have been partially laid off, I can job search in the open and have the time now to do it off the clock. I can apply for unemployment benefits, which will help bolster us financially. My fiance starts work on Monday (officially), which we have been waiting on for a month now. We reali

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Laid off.... Partially

As though I didn't have enough on my plate to worry about career-wise, I just got partially laid off. They cut my hours from 40/week to 20/week, which includes a half salary reduction. So my fiance and I are now under a lot of pressure financially, and we probably cannot move into our new apartment. I put $4500 down on the new apartment and am praying that with 30 days notification, I can get all of that money back. Stress Stress Stress...... life sure does come with unexpected twists and tur

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Career Problems

I am having trouble in my career. I haven't worked very much in my current job for eight months now, and the lack of progress is beginning to show itself. I am limited in my role in terms of what can be implemented due to an overstretched boss, lack of resources and what I suspect is a lack of open-mindedness from the top. I've been interviewing for other roles for over a year now, facing numerous rejections and one rescinded job offer because I asked for too much in the negotiation process. I a

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