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My life has had so many ups and downs. I have followed the road less traveled all my life, meaning my own individual path. This is a blog about those ups and downs and being on the road less traveled. 

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Going Back to Work is REALLY Hard....

OMG... the end of my first week back to real life, back to a full time job after one year of working only part-time, and after two full years of slacking off. It has been super HARD, to say the least! It's Friday, thank God, & we have half days on summer Fridays, but man am I exhausted. Not only that, but I am scared..... I have to give client presentations, I have to do a lot that I haven't done before, and I am scared and nervous about succeeding. Perhaps if it's not the right ro

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I'm Back... Unofficially or Officially Engaged!

Hi everyone, Well, it appears that I cannot stay away from DF for too long. LOL. It always calls me back. My boyfriend last night asked me to marry him. He's been talking about it nearly everyday saying he wants me forever and wants me to be his wife, and last night he officially asked me, but without a ring in hand, and I said yes! I asked him this morning if that means we are unofficially engaged, and he said yes, 100%. He just needs to buy the ring, which should happen in the next c

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Everything is SO Great, I Think I'll Move on

So, I went down the list of things today of everything in my life that is happening... one after another GOOD things are happening, I cannot even believe it. I have an amazing boyfriend/almost fiance, I love my new apartment, I have a new full-time job coming, and I am successful in my current role... I just received an $1100 bonus at work for exceeding the benchmark goals! WOW oh WOW EEEEEEEEE!! WHEEEEEEEEEEEE as my boyfriend Ken, says! So I think I'll take a wee break from here. I always

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Nervous and Excited! Big Life Changes

I feel nervous and excited, but a lot of nervousness. I have some HUGE adjustments in my life coming up with this new job I just got. I won't start for over two weeks, but I am already anticipating some culture shock, and just shock to my system overall. I haven't worked within an office for ten years, except for some temp work I did in 2014 for two weeks. I have worked from the comfort of my own home for the majority of ten years. This job is in an office setting. That also means that I ha

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WOW.... Engagement Rings

I came home last night to my boyfriend looking at engagement rings for me  - wow! I know he wants to ask me to marry him, which he tells me all the time, but his divorce isn't exactly finalized yet. He says he cannot wait. He needs to wait 90 days until it is fully over, however. They had the final court date this week. It's been a very long, drawn out and ugly divorce for him, lasting 3-4 years. They separated nearly 4 years ago, he's had another relationship since then, then found me. It's ver

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My New "Pham" ~ Family

I've been spending a lot of time over the last eight months with a hippie crew that is now my "pham", ie, family. We all travel near and far to different venues to see bands we all love -- all within the relatively same genre of music. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my new pham! They are the most welcoming, open-minded, down-to-earth, non-judgemental, friendly, and loving people!!!! ❤️ I've always been a hippie/Deadhead since my teens. I've always traveled in this crowd, but now they are truly my family and I

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WOW ~ REALLY???? This just doesn't happen!

So, now on top of everything else that has been going wonderfully in my life, now, after THREE LONG YEARS of looking for a good job, I am getting a full-time job offer! I am STUNNED and blown away! I am SO used to rejections at this stage! One after another after another I faced during those years. The LAST thing I expected after my last round of interviews was an actual job offer. They haven't extended it yet and probably need to check references first, so I don't want to jynx myself, but I thi

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Work Anxiety & Nerves

Ugh. I have so much work anxiety right now. I am in charge of getting traffic to two websites. Well, the traffic is down so far this month for both sites; it was down for one of the sites last month, too. I am working directly on many pages of each site and have made many changes at this point. For one of the sites, the decrease in traffic is explainable; we're getting more qualified traffic to the site now, but the terms we're going after have a lower search volume and are more targeted to our

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Irked by Ex Boyfriend at a Concert

My most recent ex boyfriend, Joe, really irked me Sat night. He showed up at the concert where my boyfriend and I were -- Ok, well, that was to be expected. I knew he would most likely be there. But he and his new girlfriend moved into a spot right next to me and my boyfriend! He must have seen us standing there as he approached the front. But then they move to a spot right next to us??? So I find myself dancing directly next to my ex's new girlfriend! After a while, I felt really awkward. I was

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Nothing in Particular

I have time to **** before I start work, so I felt like writing -- about nothing specific. Ken (my boyfriend) is a real trooper. He is managing the agony of his broken toe very well and far better than I ever could. He has to walk around on it all day at work too. Poor thing. I hope it heals quickly, regardless of him walking on it. We have a lot of concerts coming up this summer & very soon. We have one this Sat night where it's standing room only. I truly hope he can manage that because I

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Broken Toes?? Ouch!

Yikes! My boyfriend dropped a large piece of heavy wood on his foot and I think broke his toes or his foot. He is in agony and is headed to the emergency room today. I feel SO badly. It was my broken desk he was trying to move downstairs to the trash.... I know it's not my fault, but I still feel enormously guilty. He is one brave soul though and tough! He is enduring the pain even though he squeals with every step. I would have been at the emergency room right away asking for pain meds. I ca

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A Down Day

For the first time in a long time, I feel really depressed today and I don't know why. My boyfriend and I had a bad night last night for the first time, but everything is totally fine now. We didn't fight, we didn't argue -- it was a misunderstanding with hurt feelings on my part. I am just far too sensitive sometimes, and I took a comment he made super personally and to heart. But right now he is at work, it's late Sat morning, I am still in my pajamas and cannot motivate to do anything that I

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So Many Storms Weathered ~ Strength & Wholeness

I feel strong. I have weathered through so many storms, through so many ups and downs, but I am feeling stronger each day. I have been through a lot in my life -- really, I've been through the wringer. Life has not been easy for me. In fact, it's been an uphill battle, one which I've had to fight for years upon years. Now, finally at the age of 47 I feel grounded within myself and far stronger. I am finally living on my own again (i.e., not with my parents), and the missing parts of myself are c

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Gratitude ~

I woke up this morning feeling extremely grateful. Ken came into my life as a blessing, and at exactly the right time. He has supported me through some rough moments and has been absolutely amazing about it. He does not judge me, he supports me fully and I feel very very very blessed. I even cried this morning with tears of gratitude because of what the universe delivered into my life that has been so wonderful and such a complete 180 degree turnaround from all the crap of the past that I've dea

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Peaceful Home ~ Home Sweet Home

I feel perfectly at home in my new apartment. I am at peace. It is SO nice to have a refuge that is sheer happiness and joy. The cats are fun and adorable. They keep me company while I work. My boyfriend works a lot of hours, but when he comes home, it's like a happy little sanctuary for him. We have candles all over the apartment and incense for ambiance. I haven't felt this relaxed in ages and ages. Our new TV table arrives today. Yesterday it was a new brightly colored handwoven rug that w

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Each Day Just Gets Better and Better

My love gets excited to see me at the end of each work day, and I get excited to see him! He brought me roses the other day after work, just because. He does that.. brings me flowers--it's SO sweet and SO romantic--I love that!! He treats me like a princess -- he treats me like precious GOLD. I am not used to this. I am used to the opposite. I've written about that already, but with each day that passes, things just get better and better. I wonder when I will wake up? Is this a dream? Is this

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Deliriously Happy!

I am SO happy, it's nuts. I have never been this happy in my whole life - except perhaps when I was living in Nepal having an adventure of a lifetime when I was 18. But I cannot imagine a happier time in my life than right now. But because I am so happy, I fear that the other shoe will drop at any time. However, with my most loving boyfriend who supports me fully and who has my back at all times, I am more confident that I can face and handle anything -- job rejections, interviews, catastrophes,

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Finally, a Healthy Relationship!!!! Love is NOT a Battlefield!

FINALLY, I have found a HEALTHY relationship! OMG, so THIS is what I have been missing ALL these years!!! I am astounded. I am in awe. I am very happy and I feel VERY loved, appreciated, respected and honored, each and every day! FOR ONCE!!!!!! ALL this time, for ALL these years, I believed I would never find a TRULY GOOD MAN. All this time, I thought he didn't exist. All this time, I've been meandering and getting involved with ALL the WRONG types of men -- men who used and abused me, men wh

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All Moved In! Day Two of Living Together

Well, my boyfriend and I have moved and the apartment is PERFECT! It's HUGE.... I get lost and keep losing where things are, lol. There's sooo much to unpack still. The first morning of living here, he called me to tell me he wants me to be his wife and that he cannot wait to marry me. He's not divorced yet, so that's a little monkey wrench in the equation. But that will finish up very soon (long, dragged out legal issues), and I suspect he will present me with a ring shortly afterward. He is ge

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Moving Day With My Boyfriend!

So my boyfriend and I move tomorrow!!! We are SO excited. We spent last night carting belongings to the new apartment, ordered pizza delivery and had some delicious cocktails in our new place! We lit candles, dimmed the lights and had a romantic evening without any furniture in our new dining room. It was perfectly romantic in every way. We are so happy about this. I am ecstatic to be moving out of my parents' home.. finally!!!! Four years of living under their roof, and now I will have a

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New Apartment, Amazing Boyfriend, I'm In Love

I have been reluctant to write about my love life lately because the last time I did everything fell apart, but I must say that I am very happy right now and very content. I have a beautiful new apartment to move into with my boyfriend who is a true GEM of a guy. My last guy was amazing until I found out something that was a deal breaker for me, so I had to end it, but this one is absolutely incredible and perfect for me. He knows my past and promises he won't change on me or be someone he is no

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Old Bully Boss Strikes Again ~ I Can't Win

I got laid off from one of my jobs and my boss from that position now is refusing to give me a reference. Or at least she hasn't responded to my email requesting a reference from her. She bullied me severely for a year, I reported it to HR, ended up in the hospital suicidal over it and had to take off over four months from work. Then when I returned, HR watched over my boss and was involved in every single employee interaction that occurred with my boss. So, I assume my boss is extremely resentf

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Upside Down and Topsy Turvey

There's so much going on, some good and some not so good, and I'm starting to freak out -- or am I? I may only have four months of unemployment and I have to move AND find another job. I am not stressed like I have been in the past though, strangely enough. Perhaps because I have a bad cold and I cannot be bothered with stress, lol. Perhaps also because I am generally positive and optimistic, despite some periodic weaker moments. And perhaps because I have some time to move, but perhaps more so

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Rolling With the Punches

Well, I got laid off from one of my jobs on Friday. Wooohooooo -- NOT. I need that income to afford an apartment right now. Hopefully I can qualify for partial unemployment, but I am not thrilled at the timing. This is the worst timing since I need to find a place to live. BUT, I am rolling with the punches, since that's how my life has been lately. First, I was partially laid off in June; next, they demoted me in my job; and now, I've been fully laid off. Thank God I just got another job offer

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Job Performance Anxiety

So I started a new job this last week and I am worried about my performance. I am trying to hire an expert as a mentor -- someone in my field who really knows their stuff. I should have more confidence, but I don't. I was kind of demoted in my other job, so I am worried it's because I wasn't doing a good enough of a job. But it could be because they hired a new Marketing Director who is reallocating internal resources. It may not have been a true demotion. The one thing that gives me confiden

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