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About this blog

My life has had so many ups and downs. I have followed the road less traveled all my life, meaning my own path different than the average bear. This is a blog about those ups and downs and being on the road less traveled.

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CoronaVirus Anxiety

My whole company is now working from home. My husband is still working his job. My anxiety is starting to go through the roof over the Corona virus. Everything in my state is shutting down left and right, the store shelves are empty, and it feels like the apocalypse.  If and when my husband can no longer work, we lose his income and therefore cannot afford our rent and bills. We will have to take out a bank loan in that case, and go further into debt.  I am very scared. I am also sick
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Nearly One Year Wedding Anniversary!

Wow, I cannot believe that nearly a year has passed since I got married! In two months it will be our 1st wedding anniversary! I was remembering the other day how just ten years ago, I had packed my bags and car and drove across the country for school, and how fast time has flown since then. Time is getting faster as I get older, I swear. lol.  Well, hubby and I are doing great. We've had many challenges to contend with over the last year - financial, family, work, and life challenges - and
 

VP?

I got the gumption to apply for a VP role in my field. I haven't heard back on a single application, which is pretty damned frustrating. I am highly employable, so it's a bit maddening. I've applied for Director level roles, one notch above the role I am in now. But the VP role? I couldn't help myself, lol. It was far too tempting... it's a great, well-developed website at a startup company that is seven years old, with a lot of potential and a lot of appeal. It's a work-from-home job to boot. S
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Manager blew up at work

Our manager completely lost it late yesterday. He has already blown at me, which HR is aware of. Next, he got angry with a client, so he hung up, or rather, slammed the phone down, then he slammed his computer shut, stormed out of the office, slamming the office door HARD. Our boss and our boss's boss witnessed this. If he doesn't get fired for that, I am going to be incredulous. IF I behaved that way, I would be fired in a heartbeat. So what should make him so immune and special? I am truly hop
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WOW, what a NIGHTMARE

Holy crap. Work is SUCH a total nightmare. It's making my life difficult right now. I am away from work at the moment so I finally have a chance to breathe and reflect, but it's simply just ******* me right now.  My manager yelled at me last week. He totally blew up at me unnecessarily and unprovoked. I didn't deserve it, and he eventually apologized after I went to our boss about it, but that sucked. Then my account manager tried to take over the direction of my account, that I am in charg
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My Continued Work Saga

Wow, I haven't written a blog entry for months! I finally am sitting down to reflect further on my work situation, which continues to be a thorn in my side and an emotional roller coaster ride.  Last summer, my boss tried to get me fired because I threaten his job security and because I am far more successful and knowledgeable in our field than he is. I had a talk with my CEO where it was hinted I could be fired, followed by a second conversation during which I was then told I could be laid
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Job Choices and Bad Timing

I may have a new job offer coming, from a well-known national brand. It would be a great opportunity -- it's a big job and is 15K more in salary. Then there's another position that I REALLY am interested in, that is 75K higher in salary, a Senior Director of eCommerce role for a travel company. For the latter job I had to take two personality tests and a math test. I didn't even finish the math test -- it was timed and it timed out before I could finish. I may not even make it to the interview s
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Gratitude and Sunflowers

On the road now, headed to Portsmouth for brunch and energy crystal shopping! We LOVE our crystals. We now have a whole collection that we’ve gathered from concerts and different adventures. I love our collection!  Its a beautiful day and I’m grateful. I’m grateful for my adorable most loving husband, for my continued income, and for my awesome friends and family. I’m grateful for everything I have in this life. 🙏🌈🦋 And my husband bought me the most beautiful sunflowers yesterday! Awww
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Couch surfin’

Funny how life is, but I’m perfectly happy at home right now with my husband streaming Peachfest live from PA, enjoying a couple cold ones and a nice night together on the couch, snuggled and cozy in the AC. Just what the doctor ordered. I love how I could care less that I’m getting laid off. Here’s us at Fenway this summer.. at a concert in a rain storm. Now that was fun! 
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Getting Laid Off... Again

Well, I was supposed to be laid off this week. I've had a couple conversations with the CEO who really likes me. He said it's financial. I am the highest paid in my department, with a light client load. He has no clients to give me and he has none in the pipeline. He relies on word-of-mouth only and doesn't do any inside sales (big mistake). We lost a couple huge clients, not mine, and my boss and our manager are having to rely on their own networks to obtain clients for us.  It's not perfo
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Me and My Baby!

It was my husband's bday yesterday! I still am not totally used to calling him my hubby! LOL. It's been two months since we got married.... life has been grand between us! We're very very happy! Though we each have our work stress to manage and deal with.  Last night we had a really fun celebration for him at a fine restaurant in the city. And tonight we will celebrate more properly since it's Friday night and we don't have to think about work!  I miss him so much during the day when w
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Annoyed by Work Now

So they expanded my responsibilities, but now I'm totally overloaded and overwhelmed. GRRRRRR.  I'm totally excited to be doing something different and new, but I am not happy that once again, my plate is overfull. I have to talk to my boss and worry that he's going to push back. I wrote him an email on Friday letting him know that I was working Friday afternoon (when on one else was), that I have to work this weekend too, and that I want to discuss removing 1-2 clients from my plate on Mon
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Positive Changes At Work!

WOW. So, now I am in charge of social media marketing strategy for three clients! A BIG CHANGE!!!!!! I am very flattered I was given this responsibility! I will still carry my other digital marketing role, but it will now be split between the two. All I had to do was present to my team a few concrete ideas on how it should be done, and voila! I was given the responsibility. I am sure it helps that I have a FB page for business and am very successful with it. But I am VERY happy that I
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Exasperated by People

I am feeling exasperated by people. The one woman from my other forum who insulted my blog? She wanted me to function as an inspiration for her.... she read my blog and assumed that I could be some sort of life coach for her. I'm not in a place to take that on right now. I have too much to focus on in my own life. So when I told her I couldn't be her life coach, she then told me that in my blog I come across as a pseudo life coach and insinuated that my blog content is very generic. Well, m
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Bad Therapists

I am appalled by how many BAD therapists there are out there. I have been in and out of therapy my whole life and since I was 17. And in all my years of therapy, I have only met ONE good therapist, and that's when I was 17! Maybe there was another along the way who was OK, but the point is, I've met far too many bad therapists who have not helped me very much.  My current one shamed me the other night. As a direct result, I've decided to therapist-shop. It made me wonder how truly helpful s
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Post Honeymoon ~ Reality of Work Life

I am coming down from an amazing wedding/honeymoon/vacation and it was a tough crash landing back to reality. Work? Really?? We were driven around by our three butlers at our resort all week, sipping on frozen mudslides and banana rum drinks, swimming in the warm ocean and pools and lapping it up in our soaking tub on the balcony overlooking palm trees and the calming ocean. You cannot beat luxury living, and that's what we had. Then back to the work grind. The last two weeks of work have been b
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We Tied the Knot!!

We did it!!!! We are now officially husband and wife! What a gorgeous ceremony!!!! It couldn't have been more beautiful or perfect. Now we're enjoying our honeymoon. This place is absolutely spectacular!!!  So here we are, happy happy happy!!!! 💕💝💞    
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Paradise Day 1

Here we are! It is absolutely stunning here.... wow! Having an amazing time... wedding in two days!     
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Two Weeks 'Til "I Do"!

It's exactly two weeks now until we get married! We leave sooner than that for our trip! I cannot wait!!!!!!!!!!! OMG, I need a vacation like no other before. I am dying at work, ready to leave by like 3 PM every day, lol. I get my nails done this weekend, then I gotta pack then it's just one more week of work, then we're leaving on a jet plane!!!!!!  YIPPPEEEEEEEEE!!!!!   
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Big Changes At Work

It's only April and I'm already looking forward to our "summer Fridays" schedule at work. We get a 1/2 day every Friday all through the summer -- a MAJOR perk to my job.  My boss is now taking a very difficult & demanding client off my plate in two weeks, so finally I have an end date. He could tell I was getting agitated over it because I've been overloaded with too many clients lately.  We also now have two new senior people on my team, so I am no longer the solo senior team memb
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The Sweet Taste of Success

Wow oh woweeeeeee! I am sooooooooo excited!!!! I am seeing the results of my work, and I am feeling a sense of great success.& accomplishment. I can hardly believe it!!!! I doubt myself ALL the freaking time at work, mainly because my field naturally lends to that, but also because I just doubt and question myself. What I do at work is both an art form AND a science. There is creativity and strategy involved, but there are also certain steadfast rules, meaning very specific DOs and DON'
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Can't Wait for Vacation!!

OMG. Our honeymoon is now weeks away. I cannot wait!!!!  I went wedding dress shopping with mom and sis yesterday and tried on several pretty awful dresses, lol. Wow, I felt like the doll that stands on top of a wedding cake. Hehehe. So I've decided to wear the one I have. It's perfect for a beach wedding in hot weather. I'm going to have it taken in some to give it more shape, and my mom bought me all the right jewelry for it yesterday. Yay!  I am now dreaming of drinks by the poolsid
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Wedding Dress!

I am going wedding dress shopping with my mother next weekend! I had one picked out, a much more casual dress, but now that I've looked in the shops a little, I may swap it out for something more dressy and elegant! I'm excited!! Here’s the one I’m considering! 
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I Feel Healthy and Strong

Life is pretty amazing. I've been through SO much in my life -- so many trials, so many challenges, and so many setbacks... a mental breakdown resulting in two hospitalizations five years ago.. several bouts of depression, months of suicidal ideation, severe anxiety, PTSD, many abusive relationships... you name it, I've been through it.  And today? I feel stronger and healthier than ever. I am celebrating. I've come a VERY long way.  On the work front, I am succeeding and am kicking bu
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Avoiding Toxic People

I’m on another forum and have run into more toxic people there than I care to even deal with lately. I’m contemplating leaving, and have been recently feeling like that forum is unhealthy for me. It hasn’t always been this way - just lately. But it’s beginning to drag me down, which is not good for me. Specifically, I am tired of people trying to pick arguments and fights, and there seems to be a lot of that recently. I go there for support and to offer my support, but for what good? I
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