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My life has had so many ups and downs. I have followed the road less traveled all my life, meaning my own path different than the average bear. This is a blog about those ups and downs and being on the road less traveled.

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Two Weeks 'Til "I Do"!

It's exactly two weeks now until we get married! We leave sooner than that for our trip! I cannot wait!!!!!!!!!!! OMG, I need a vacation like no other before. I am dying at work, ready to leave by like 3 PM every day, lol. I get my nails done this weekend, then I gotta pack then it's just one more week of work, then we're leaving on a jet plane!!!!!!  YIPPPEEEEEEEEE!!!!!   

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Big Changes At Work

It's only April and I'm already looking forward to our "summer Fridays" schedule at work. We get a 1/2 day every Friday all through the summer -- a MAJOR perk to my job.  My boss is now taking a very difficult & demanding client off my plate in two weeks, so finally I have an end date. He could tell I was getting agitated over it because I've been overloaded with too many clients lately.  We also now have two new senior people on my team, so I am no longer the solo senior team memb

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The Sweet Taste of Success

Wow oh woweeeeeee! I am sooooooooo excited!!!! I am seeing the results of my work, and I am feeling a sense of great success.& accomplishment. I can hardly believe it!!!! I doubt myself ALL the freaking time at work, mainly because my field naturally lends to that, but also because I just doubt and question myself. What I do at work is both an art form AND a science. There is creativity and strategy involved, but there are also certain steadfast rules, meaning very specific DOs and DON'

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Can't Wait for Vacation!!

OMG. Our honeymoon is now weeks away. I cannot wait!!!!  I went wedding dress shopping with mom and sis yesterday and tried on several pretty awful dresses, lol. Wow, I felt like the doll that stands on top of a wedding cake. Hehehe. So I've decided to wear the one I have. It's perfect for a beach wedding in hot weather. I'm going to have it taken in some to give it more shape, and my mom bought me all the right jewelry for it yesterday. Yay!  I am now dreaming of drinks by the poolsid

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Wedding Dress!

I am going wedding dress shopping with my mother next weekend! I had one picked out, a much more casual dress, but now that I've looked in the shops a little, I may swap it out for something more dressy and elegant! I'm excited!! Here’s the one I’m considering! 

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I Feel Healthy and Strong

Life is pretty amazing. I've been through SO much in my life -- so many trials, so many challenges, and so many setbacks... a mental breakdown resulting in two hospitalizations five years ago.. several bouts of depression, months of suicidal ideation, severe anxiety, PTSD, many abusive relationships... you name it, I've been through it.  And today? I feel stronger and healthier than ever. I am celebrating. I've come a VERY long way.  On the work front, I am succeeding and am kicking bu

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Avoiding Toxic People

I’m on another forum and have run into more toxic people there than I care to even deal with lately. I’m contemplating leaving, and have been recently feeling like that forum is unhealthy for me. It hasn’t always been this way - just lately. But it’s beginning to drag me down, which is not good for me. Specifically, I am tired of people trying to pick arguments and fights, and there seems to be a lot of that recently. I go there for support and to offer my support, but for what good? I

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Onto Happier Things!

Our wedding is coming up! I talked to a wedding planner recently about all the details. OMG -- this is going to be opulent! We're getting the royal treatment, it's absolutely amazing and I cannot wait to get there. We're having a very special candlelit, white gloved dinner that evening, breakfast in bed with mimosas served the next morning, they're giving me gorgeous pink and yellow orchids for my wedding flowers, and so much more.  Here's the location we chose -- gazebo on the ocean! 

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Through Tough Times, Have Things to Look Forward To

This is going to be long. Both my fiance and I are having a rough time right now. Together, we are doing great and are strong, so that's not an issue. But we are both facing enormous and mounting work stress. His job is now 100% commission and his checks have significantly dwindled lately, to no fault of his own but due to dysfunction within the company. He is beyond stressed about the dwindling income, naturally, which makes things harder for us financially. I am very stressed about my own job

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Applied for a New Job

It's a stretch and probably fierce competition, but I applied for an editorial role with a top publication company in my industry. It involves public speaking, NOT my forte, and lots of travel across the globe maybe 7 times a year, but what they heck, I figured why not try and put my hat in the ring to see what happens??? I want a different role and need it badly. I like my current job for some reasons, but I don't like my actual position anymore. I want and need something different and I love t

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Honeymoon/Vacation in 3 Months!

OMG, this cannot come soon enough. One month down, 3 more to go!!!! I cannot wait. I just bought my wedding earrings, which I absolutely adore!!!! They're beautiful, with a crystal butterfly, flowers and pearls. They're perfect for me in every way since I love butterflies and flowers.  I am counting the weeks and days until vacation. My therapist told me to pretend that I am working to go on vacation -- so that is working right now. Work sucks. LOL. I don't want to work anymore. I want to w

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Vent: Senior Title/Senior Role & Unclear Expectations

So I have a Senior title now at work, but what does that mean exactly? I had a new client meeting on Friday. Normally, my boss would have attended with me, the Director of Web Services, along with an Account Manager. Neither could attend, so my company CEO came with me. However, we never discussed who would take the lead in this meeting, he or myself, and he talked about how he wanted the meeting to be conversational, rather than them just answering a bunch of questions. The Account Manager prov

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Life is Far Too Short

On the heels of my last entry, I am reflective about the shortness and fragility of life. I just lost another friend out of the blue. I've lost many people in my life to illness and/or sudden tragedy. Every time I lose someone, it makes me reflective. And I realize how precious and short life truly can be, as cliche as that is to say. We never know what's going to happen or when we may go. It could be tomorrow, it could be years from now.  Life is far too short to hold onto pettiness, grudg

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Sadness ~ Lost a Friend

Just learned that the bass player of our favorite local band died suddenly. He was maybe 30 years old. If it weren't for his band, me and my fiance never would have met or fallen in love. I am SO sad. I'm in shock -- we all are. The wake is Monday and the whole family of friends will be there. This is unbelievably sad. We even talked with him about playing at our wedding party. 😢

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Dilemma over wedding dress!

I can’t make up my mind! I’m browsing but I already own a near perfect dress for a beach wedding. All traditional styles don’t suit me. I found a few online I fell in love with, but I can’t buy it online, even with it custom made, can I?? I’m just in a dilemma and am not sure what I want!  Here's the headpiece I may wear! And the dress! 

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SIGH.... My Mother is Intruding on Wedding Plans

UGH. My mother wants me to wear her garter belt for my non-traditional wedding???? We have no guests! She also today told me I should wear our family jewelry. I don't want to! I bought a gorgeous jewelry headpiece to wear, a turquoise and blue flowery type of headpiece, and I want the rest of my jewelry to be turquoise topaz to match. I saw a gorgeous earring and necklace set on Etsy today that I'd love to buy.  The bottom line is that my mother is upset she is not attending the wedding, an

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Leave Ego at the Door

For the first time in many years I am mentoring junior staff at work. I was really flattered yesterday when my colleague asked if he could sit in on my training with the junior staff member so that he could also learn something from me. This colleague I think of as my equal, even though I am more senior to him in our job titles. And in some ways, he knows a LOT more than I do. We can all learn from each other and we all carry certain strengths.  They/the company really looks to me as though

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NYE Phish Concert ~ Amazing!!

WOW - those concerts were off the hook crazy insane. We had such an incredible time in NYC! Phish was at their best. The second night, NYE, they had acrobats on stage then at midnight thousands of balloons fell from the ceiling into the crowd. I haven’t seen them play this well in a long time - years! They jammed hard core. We danced all night ‘til our feet hurt.  It was a blast.  Now we’re driving home. The let down after NYE. But I’m on such a natural high from this experience that I can’

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WOW!

The band is on fire!!!! That was one of the best shows I’ve ever seen.. and we have another one tonight!!!! Yipppppeeeeeee!!!! 

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A New Year ~ Reflections & New Goals

I LOVE the new year. It's a time to refresh oneself, to reflect back on all that happened last year, and to gear up for new adventures and new goals.  Last year was very good to me... it was a landslide of blessings. I met my now fiance, I moved out of my parents' home into a beautiful apartment with him, we have shared a very fun and adventurous life together so far, I got a new full-time job with a huge raise in salary, and then we got engaged. And this next year? Well, we have our w

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Our First Christmas Together

This is my first Christmas with my fiance! How fun! We have a huge artificial tree (that looks real) that he bought and put up which I love. We have no ornaments, lol, but it's covered with bright lights. It looks amazing from the street through the window. Our cat loves to climb it though so we constantly have to keep her off.  Anyways, this season I've been feeling like a bit of a scrooge. The month-long holiday season is just too much for me to bare. I'd much rather just celebrate one da

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His mother is hurt

My fiance’s mother is hurt and upset that we’re eloping. Ugh. I didn’t want that to happen but she saw my Facebook post about it through a friend and then got upset that he didn’t tell her first. That’s on him to have done but still, it’s upsetting that she’s so upset. I don’t want to hurt or upset anyone, especially our parents. But you can’t please everyone and this wedding we decided will be on our own terms, not anyone else’s. I just have to make peace with the fact that she’s hurt. 

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St Lucia Honeymoon ~

So! We're getting the ball rolling for our elopement/wedding and honeymoon plans. Now we're pretty far settled on St Lucia in the Caribbean, and we're talking to a wedding planner. We're looking at the Sandals all inclusive package vacation/wedding deal, so now we just need to settle on dates and a room! We're looking into May. SO EXCITING!!!! Weird thing though -- they require that you arrive 3 business days ahead of your wedding date, OR you can pay $300 something for an express date of one bu

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Weekend To-Do's ... So Much Going On

I have a big to-do list right now. I have to buy snow tires, investigate wedding/honeymoon options, buy a new mattress for the bed, buy my dad a bday present and prepare for a work presentation... all this weekend and next. The honeymoon/wedding planning is actually a fun task and I am very excited to get going on this. I contacted a wedding planning company yesterday. Hopefully they won't charge an arm and a leg for their services, but after researching the options, it would be far easier

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I Love My Baby!!!!

I am SO grateful. Today is a day where I feel really good and really happy. I've been stressing a lot about work lately and have focused mainly on succeeding in my job, which stresses me out. But when I step back and look at the birds eye view of my life, I am very happy and feel very fulfilled. I am starting to see positive results in my work. I am totally in love with my fiance, and we're very happy. Every day we cannot wait to see each other again. We don't like leaving each other in the morn

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