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About this blog

My life has had so many ups and downs. I have followed the road less traveled all my life, meaning my own path different than the average bear. This is a blog about those ups and downs and being on the road less traveled.

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Positive Changes At Work!

WOW. So, now I am in charge of social media marketing strategy for three clients! A BIG CHANGE!!!!!! I am very flattered I was given this responsibility! I will still carry my other digital marketing role, but it will now be split between the two. All I had to do was present to my team a few concrete ideas on how it should be done, and voila! I was given the responsibility. I am sure it helps that I have a FB page for business and am very successful with it. But I am VERY happy that I
 

Exasperated by People

I am feeling exasperated by people. The one woman from my other forum who insulted my blog? She wanted me to function as an inspiration for her.... she read my blog and assumed that I could be some sort of life coach for her. I'm not in a place to take that on right now. I have too much to focus on in my own life. So when I told her I couldn't be her life coach, she then told me that in my blog I come across as a pseudo life coach and insinuated that my blog content is very generic. Well, m
 

Bad Therapists

I am appalled by how many BAD therapists there are out there. I have been in and out of therapy my whole life and since I was 17. And in all my years of therapy, I have only met ONE good therapist, and that's when I was 17! Maybe there was another along the way who was OK, but the point is, I've met far too many bad therapists who have not helped me very much.  My current one shamed me the other night. As a direct result, I've decided to therapist-shop. It made me wonder how truly helpful s
 

Post Honeymoon ~ Reality of Work Life

I am coming down from an amazing wedding/honeymoon/vacation and it was a tough crash landing back to reality. Work? Really?? We were driven around by our three butlers at our resort all week, sipping on frozen mudslides and banana rum drinks, swimming in the warm ocean and pools and lapping it up in our soaking tub on the balcony overlooking palm trees and the calming ocean. You cannot beat luxury living, and that's what we had. Then back to the work grind. The last two weeks of work have been b
 

We Tied the Knot!!

We did it!!!! We are now officially husband and wife! What a gorgeous ceremony!!!! It couldn't have been more beautiful or perfect. Now we're enjoying our honeymoon. This place is absolutely spectacular!!!  So here we are, happy happy happy!!!! 💕💝💞    
 

Paradise Day 1

Here we are! It is absolutely stunning here.... wow! Having an amazing time... wedding in two days!     
 

Two Weeks 'Til "I Do"!

It's exactly two weeks now until we get married! We leave sooner than that for our trip! I cannot wait!!!!!!!!!!! OMG, I need a vacation like no other before. I am dying at work, ready to leave by like 3 PM every day, lol. I get my nails done this weekend, then I gotta pack then it's just one more week of work, then we're leaving on a jet plane!!!!!!  YIPPPEEEEEEEEE!!!!!   
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Big Changes At Work

It's only April and I'm already looking forward to our "summer Fridays" schedule at work. We get a 1/2 day every Friday all through the summer -- a MAJOR perk to my job.  My boss is now taking a very difficult & demanding client off my plate in two weeks, so finally I have an end date. He could tell I was getting agitated over it because I've been overloaded with too many clients lately.  We also now have two new senior people on my team, so I am no longer the solo senior team memb
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The Sweet Taste of Success

Wow oh woweeeeeee! I am sooooooooo excited!!!! I am seeing the results of my work, and I am feeling a sense of great success.& accomplishment. I can hardly believe it!!!! I doubt myself ALL the freaking time at work, mainly because my field naturally lends to that, but also because I just doubt and question myself. What I do at work is both an art form AND a science. There is creativity and strategy involved, but there are also certain steadfast rules, meaning very specific DOs and DON'
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Can't Wait for Vacation!!

OMG. Our honeymoon is now weeks away. I cannot wait!!!!  I went wedding dress shopping with mom and sis yesterday and tried on several pretty awful dresses, lol. Wow, I felt like the doll that stands on top of a wedding cake. Hehehe. So I've decided to wear the one I have. It's perfect for a beach wedding in hot weather. I'm going to have it taken in some to give it more shape, and my mom bought me all the right jewelry for it yesterday. Yay!  I am now dreaming of drinks by the poolsid
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Wedding Dress!

I am going wedding dress shopping with my mother next weekend! I had one picked out, a much more casual dress, but now that I've looked in the shops a little, I may swap it out for something more dressy and elegant! I'm excited!! Here’s the one I’m considering! 
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I Feel Healthy and Strong

Life is pretty amazing. I've been through SO much in my life -- so many trials, so many challenges, and so many setbacks... a mental breakdown resulting in two hospitalizations five years ago.. several bouts of depression, months of suicidal ideation, severe anxiety, PTSD, many abusive relationships... you name it, I've been through it.  And today? I feel stronger and healthier than ever. I am celebrating. I've come a VERY long way.  On the work front, I am succeeding and am kicking bu
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Avoiding Toxic People

I’m on another forum and have run into more toxic people there than I care to even deal with lately. I’m contemplating leaving, and have been recently feeling like that forum is unhealthy for me. It hasn’t always been this way - just lately. But it’s beginning to drag me down, which is not good for me. Specifically, I am tired of people trying to pick arguments and fights, and there seems to be a lot of that recently. I go there for support and to offer my support, but for what good? I
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Onto Happier Things!

Our wedding is coming up! I talked to a wedding planner recently about all the details. OMG -- this is going to be opulent! We're getting the royal treatment, it's absolutely amazing and I cannot wait to get there. We're having a very special candlelit, white gloved dinner that evening, breakfast in bed with mimosas served the next morning, they're giving me gorgeous pink and yellow orchids for my wedding flowers, and so much more.  Here's the location we chose -- gazebo on the ocean! 
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Through Tough Times, Have Things to Look Forward To

This is going to be long. Both my fiance and I are having a rough time right now. Together, we are doing great and are strong, so that's not an issue. But we are both facing enormous and mounting work stress. His job is now 100% commission and his checks have significantly dwindled lately, to no fault of his own but due to dysfunction within the company. He is beyond stressed about the dwindling income, naturally, which makes things harder for us financially. I am very stressed about my own job
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Applied for a New Job

It's a stretch and probably fierce competition, but I applied for an editorial role with a top publication company in my industry. It involves public speaking, NOT my forte, and lots of travel across the globe maybe 7 times a year, but what they heck, I figured why not try and put my hat in the ring to see what happens??? I want a different role and need it badly. I like my current job for some reasons, but I don't like my actual position anymore. I want and need something different and I love t
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Honeymoon/Vacation in 3 Months!

OMG, this cannot come soon enough. One month down, 3 more to go!!!! I cannot wait. I just bought my wedding earrings, which I absolutely adore!!!! They're beautiful, with a crystal butterfly, flowers and pearls. They're perfect for me in every way since I love butterflies and flowers.  I am counting the weeks and days until vacation. My therapist told me to pretend that I am working to go on vacation -- so that is working right now. Work sucks. LOL. I don't want to work anymore. I want to w
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Vent: Senior Title/Senior Role & Unclear Expectations

So I have a Senior title now at work, but what does that mean exactly? I had a new client meeting on Friday. Normally, my boss would have attended with me, the Director of Web Services, along with an Account Manager. Neither could attend, so my company CEO came with me. However, we never discussed who would take the lead in this meeting, he or myself, and he talked about how he wanted the meeting to be conversational, rather than them just answering a bunch of questions. The Account Manager prov
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Life is Far Too Short

On the heels of my last entry, I am reflective about the shortness and fragility of life. I just lost another friend out of the blue. I've lost many people in my life to illness and/or sudden tragedy. Every time I lose someone, it makes me reflective. And I realize how precious and short life truly can be, as cliche as that is to say. We never know what's going to happen or when we may go. It could be tomorrow, it could be years from now.  Life is far too short to hold onto pettiness, grudg
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Sadness ~ Lost a Friend

Just learned that the bass player of our favorite local band died suddenly. He was maybe 30 years old. If it weren't for his band, me and my fiance never would have met or fallen in love. I am SO sad. I'm in shock -- we all are. The wake is Monday and the whole family of friends will be there. This is unbelievably sad. We even talked with him about playing at our wedding party. 😢
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Dilemma over wedding dress!

I can’t make up my mind! I’m browsing but I already own a near perfect dress for a beach wedding. All traditional styles don’t suit me. I found a few online I fell in love with, but I can’t buy it online, even with it custom made, can I?? I’m just in a dilemma and am not sure what I want!  Here's the headpiece I may wear! And the dress! 
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SIGH.... My Mother is Intruding on Wedding Plans

UGH. My mother wants me to wear her garter belt for my non-traditional wedding???? We have no guests! She also today told me I should wear our family jewelry. I don't want to! I bought a gorgeous jewelry headpiece to wear, a turquoise and blue flowery type of headpiece, and I want the rest of my jewelry to be turquoise topaz to match. I saw a gorgeous earring and necklace set on Etsy today that I'd love to buy.  The bottom line is that my mother is upset she is not attending the wedding, an
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Leave Ego at the Door

For the first time in many years I am mentoring junior staff at work. I was really flattered yesterday when my colleague asked if he could sit in on my training with the junior staff member so that he could also learn something from me. This colleague I think of as my equal, even though I am more senior to him in our job titles. And in some ways, he knows a LOT more than I do. We can all learn from each other and we all carry certain strengths.  They/the company really looks to me as though
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NYE Phish Concert ~ Amazing!!

WOW - those concerts were off the hook crazy insane. We had such an incredible time in NYC! Phish was at their best. The second night, NYE, they had acrobats on stage then at midnight thousands of balloons fell from the ceiling into the crowd. I haven’t seen them play this well in a long time - years! They jammed hard core. We danced all night ‘til our feet hurt.  It was a blast.  Now we’re driving home. The let down after NYE. But I’m on such a natural high from this experience that I can’
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WOW!

The band is on fire!!!! That was one of the best shows I’ve ever seen.. and we have another one tonight!!!! Yipppppeeeeeee!!!! 
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