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Frustration

I've been thinking a lot lately about being grateful. Idk if anyone's heard of The Secret, but it talks a lot about being grateful for what you already have before you get more. I've always kind of passed this off, thinking I did express gratitude. But I've realized it's more than that--it's FEELING gratitude. I don't know, I made a gratitude journal and I'm going to write three things a day I'm grateful for a day. I'll have to keep you updated on how that's going. Anyway, what I really want to

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Did

The last few weeks have been really hard for me. Not the hardest ever, but difficult. It's hard to explain but I think I'm finally accepting the diagnosis of DID. I've known about it for five years and have been hiding from and denying it. Recently I've been fairly aware of the fact that I don't feel alone in my head. I was able to see my therapist on an emergency basis last night and ask her a lot of questions. As of now, I no longer believe I am Bipolar 2. I believe I have DID (no longer NOS,

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Stressed

I seem to get overwhelmed extremely easily and I hate it. Everything feels messed up. Misunderstandings b/w my hubby and me, money issues, I feel like I suck at my job, etc. It'll pass, I know that. I just gotta tell ya, I hate this little girl in me that gets upset over every little tiny thing! I know I'm supposed to love her, but I don't know how I can. I feel like she's ruining my life.

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I Don't Know

I'm just needing a place to ramble, that's all. I'm sorry I haven't been keeping up with this as much as I'd like to be. I guess that's just how it is sometimes. I had another sleepless night on Sunday night. Second one this month. Both were around a new/full moon and I wonder what's up with that. It messes me up big time. In good news though, my stomach is doing a bit better since going gluten free. I hope that keeps up! I'm feeling overwhelmed and stressed right now. My job is stressful but mo

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I've Noticed

When I am not doing well emotionally, I can't be on this forum. It overwhelms me. I have posted to get help and advice when I'm in the bad place emotionally, but I've noticed it still doesn't really help until I'm feeling better. Then I LIKE to be here. I feel like I have something to contribute. I don't know, I guess it's an epiphany for me.

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Triggers

I think I've had a few triggers recently that have brought out the little girl in me. It's super confusing though. I guess I don't know what to say. Just...whatever

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Job Time Again

In the last year and a half I've had three jobs. Two I never started and one I had to quit after a month. Well today I got a job. It's perfect for me. I just hope I'm not in a manic phase and have to quit when depression hits again. I think I'll be okay though. I'll keep you updated. :)

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Random

I just feel random today. Am I hypomanic?? Everything is funny and I feel awesome. I haven't even cried today which is some sort of miracle! I hope this lasts. It's like I can't remember depression even though I was just in it last week. I'm somewhat scared...

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What Is Going On?

I had the anxiety stomach go away after getting on meds but only for like a week. It's back now and I'm freaked out! What if nothing will help me? Idk what's wrong with me.

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History

I was nine years old when I was diagnosed with depression. I took Prozac until I was 18. I'm the oldest of four kids. My family moved around a lot. I went to five different elementary schools. My parents both struggle with depression. My mom has Bipolar II and suspected BPD. I was her caregiver as a child and even now, although we're working on boundaries. I started taking Zoloft when I was 18 b/c the Prozac didn't seem to be working anymore. I went through a really bad depressive phase, but a l

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