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Ssdi & Schizoaffective Disorder

So I've posted here before about wanting to apply for SSDI due to Schizoaffective Disorder. I've discovered that I am not eligible, as I don't have enough work quarters to qualify. You need to have worked for five of the last ten years, or 20 work quarters out of 40. I've been in Canada for nine years between 2003-2011 so I didn't have enough quarters in the U.S. Just putting this up there in case the info helps someone else. I will continue to collect long term disability benefits through m

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Still On Disability

Haven't posted an update in a little while- I am still on disability from work (short term through their insurance policy), as of January 12. I am not doing much better than when I started. My Haldol got doubled from 7.5 mg to 15 mg and that helped with the auditory hallucinations a lot, but it doesn't help with my delusions or paranoid thinking (I'm schizoaffective depressive type). I see my psychologist every week and thank God he supports me in being on permanent disability since that's wha

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Disability Extension Requested

So I had a reprieve when my pdoc entered March 1 as my back to work date. But I'm nowhere near ready to return. My tdoc has taken over the paperwork since I see him more than I do her. He submitted an extension to June 1 last week. I'm really hoping it comes through because I am not in any shape to try to work and I would hate to waste all this time I've already been on disability to have it come to no benefit. I am contemplating applying for SSDI if I end up on long term disability throug

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Short Term Disability Extended One More Month

I am SO relieved. I am still in no shape to return to work. I hired a psychologist this week and have three more appointments scheduled with him, so I'll see my new tdoc weekly until I don't know when. Turns out he's a medical expert for SSDI so he can help with that if it comes to it. For now, the goal is to lessen my agoraphobia so I can go back to work in a different capacity. I see my pdoc again in three weeks for med management and she's turning me over to Dr. M for therapy and disabili

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Paranoia Paranoia Everybody's Comin To Get Me

*sigh* I just need to get this out I guess. I'm on week 3 of a 4 week (as of now) short term disability from work. My pdoc does not want me to return to my current position and I had an appointment with employee assistance program yesterday to go over options. A HR recruiter will work me to find something that can accommodate my needs but there's no guarantee that they'll find me something. My doctor can continue my STD and carry it into long term disability if needed. Eventually I would th

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I Love My New Pdoc

So I commented on someone's blog today to not be afraid to fire their pdoc if the pdoc desperately needed it....and so I wanted to write more on my own blog about how things are going with my new one. I saw her for the third time today (we are having a lot of sessions up front because I am on short term disability through my employer). We talked specifically about why I fear returning to work. She managed to nail it all down into a short little summary that gave me a solid foundation for my ev

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Four Weeks Short Term Disability

This will be my second psychiatric short term disability in the past six months. I have a much better doctor this time though, who will not just throw me back to the same job full time after only three weeks. I'd done a two week inpatient program, and the other pdoc just said a week extra is enough and wrote me back. The new pdoc says it's not going to happen that way this time. So I have four weeks off initially (just completed the claim online). Maybe longer if I need it, we'll re-evaluate

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Here's A New One - Administrative Leave

So I was diagnosed schizoaffective depressive type last Thursday, and I called out from work on Friday because I was too emotional. I tried going today, but when I got my boss and our lead admin assistant together and updated them on my diagnosis, I lost it again and couldn't get back under control. so they suggested I go back home. i called my new pdoc and left a message for her to please write me off from work for a while. She normally doesn't return calls until the end of her day, so I have

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Another New Pdoc

After three years of being treated by residents at one of the "best" university teaching hospitals, I got fed up with what I felt was inadequate care. I found a pdoc locally who isn't part of any insurance network, but has great qualifications and a willingness to work with me. I like her. I think she is a keeper. I was in there for 90 minutes, which surprised me but apparently not her. I had brought some things with me and we went over them. I made a list of meds, past meds, concerns, etc.

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If It's Not This, It's That, Or The Other Thing

Brief background for those who don't know me - I have been white-knuckling through severe agoraphobia since early 2012. Lost a job over it in August 2012 and spent the next eight months unemployed and in full breakdown. Finally, a pdoc who was a resident at a teaching hospital saw how much distress I was in in late June 2014, and gave me 0.5 mg of Klonopin twice a day. Things got better, very briefly. Resident graduated, I did two weeks inpatient, and my new resident refused to prescribe Klo

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Inpatient

So it's been a while since I checked in here - since the end of August. I am slowly getting caught up on everyone's blogs and forum posts. I see many new faces - welcome. Some of you know I suffer from extreme agoraphobia. It came to a head in late August. . I'd been calling out from work, shaking and terrified every time I did leave, and I couldn't take it anymore. I got approved for a short-term disability and spent two weeks in an inpatient setting. I wasn't in a hospital, it was a cris

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Stop This Madness, I Want Out

So after gaining 89 pounds between Geodon and Abilify over the course of a year and a half, I stopped taking Abilify three weeks ago (had already been off Geodon for nine months). Got Abilify withdrawals, got through it, though not without key people at work now knowing my mental illness (except the DID). Switched successfully back to Haldol which has been controlling the worst of my psychosis. I read a little over a week ago that Neurontin also causes weight gain, so I was determined to get o

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~ Recent Journal Entries ~

8.7.14 I cried again before leaving for work today. I left a few minutes late, but I got there with two minutes to spare. I want to cry now, but I'm sitting in the lunchroom listening to Jim crunch on carrots and vending machines humming. Quiet. I need it. I need a lot of it. I just can't handle the everyday noises the world makes without even thinking about it. (The machines just got louder as I wrote that, as if a black alien read my words and cranked up the sound. Let's push her into t

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Update

Well, since my friends Nataya and brokenme have posted blogs, I guess I will put an update. I am mostly still in remission with my depression, which is a very good thing. I have my moments when I suffer situational depression - I am dealing with pain right now - but for the most part, I am doing a lot better than I was. Sitting around 80% of what I used to be, and I'm happy with that. I'm still on the five meds - Effexor, Abilify, Wellbutrin, Buspar, and Lamictal - and I am also on Neurontin

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