Felt okay yesterday (the 17th) and felt fantastic today! Woke up feeling alert, energized and motivated. I got a lot done today :) Oh well, tomorrow morning I have a meeting with my advisor which is sure to take the wind out of my sails...
Not feeling good. I was okay until yesterday late afternoon, when my mood started to seriously decline for no reason. I cried a lot and had to take a small Klonopin dose to sleep. The mood has continued today and I don't know why.
It's been a long, long time since I felt THIS bad, and it scares me. It seemed to have come out of nowhere. I guess I need more healthy food, sleep, and exercise? I have definitely been neglecting those things.
Didn't "work out" on my elliptical this weekend, but went for a long walk today (gorgeous weather here! beautiful sunshine). Feeling okay but unmotivated to do homework, because it feels like summer and I just want to play outside :P
Took the weekend off and did no school work. I needed that. But I still feel cognitively slow and sluggish and drained. I think I need some exercise :\
I remembered my L-tyrosine this morning and at lunch and I think it helped! Placebo or effect or no, I don't care - I feel more awake and motivated today and I'll take it! :)
Somehow I made it through the long weekend of research - it actually went well for the first time - but am now exhausted. Haven't been able to work much for the last 3 days. I think I need to take my l-tyrosine again (been neglecting it) to replenish my dopamine.
Have been feeling very tired and gray every single day. I'm totally burned out and that's not a good way to feel since my research trip starts tomorrow. I don't feel depressed, but I seriously need a break. In the last 6 weeks I've had exactly one day where I did no school work at all...
Talk went okay! I am absolutely terrified to the point of feeling physically ill about a research trip I have to take in 2 weeks. Such trips have historically gone very, very badly for me and left my advisor very angry with me (despite the fact that he does not help me prepare my samples for these trips). So last night I cried hysterically about that for a while and today I am predictably feeling panicky and helpless.
Oh, graduate school.
