I've had depression for the last 12 years and it goes back and forth from being bearable to unbearable. Lately though, I'm just so sick and tired of dealing with the world that I just prefer staying inside my house for days at a time. In fact, I don't think I've left the house in a week (I've lost count).
I don't like the town I live in - it is boring and there isn't much to do and I have no friends anyway, so I prefer just staying inside at home all day. It's like my sanctuary and the only place I truly feel comfortable. Also, I just feel like giving up on everything. I'm too tired to go after the dreams I once had because no matter how hard I try, none of my dreams come true, even simple ones like finding true love or living in a town I like.
Does anyone have any suggestions on how to get more motivated? And before anyone suggests antidepressants - Been there, done that for years in the past, and don't want to try them again.