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[anon74]

I need some help.
I get worried about a close friend to me dieing, there is nothing wrong with her, I just stupidly get worried about her being stabbed or shot or somethibf.
I get worried about leaving stuff open, I lock my front door in the morning and lean against it to ensure it is locked securely. Whilst I walk away I worry about it being open. I also worry about light switches, cooker etc.
I get down and depressed about silly things like if my friendis talking to other friends, I get jealous thinking she doesn't like me anymore even though it's perfectly normal for people to talk to others, I dont always see it that way in a situation though.
I also get super jealous of her talking to other boys, I try to control her and tell her not to and this puts a strain on our relationship.
I like things to be perfect. Everything has to be in it's place, if it isn't then i'd be unable to sleep knowing something isn't where it should be. If I lay in bed and see my curtain is arranged slightly dodgy i get out and sort it. I like stuff like the TV volume to be on a poditive number, everything on my desk needs to be straight etc. If i tap my foot I must tap the other. When walking up the stairs if I start on on foot I must finish on the other so that each foot has an equal amount of steps on the stairs.
What is wrong with me?

[jimbow15]

Hi Anon and Welcome to DF,

Is does seems as though you have a great deal of anxiety that is leading your into obsessional type behaviour , and this can be classified as OCD only by a trained professional.

It is worthwhile to step back ans take time to look at your fears and obsessions and rank them in the order of how severely it impacts on your daily life and other people in your life. Using a CBT style approach then do a little reasoning with yourself as to why you are thinking that way.

Firstly you need to see your Doctor for his professional advise and perhaps a referral for CBT therapy or medication to deal with the high level of anxiety.

You seem to have a good awareness of how your behaviour is impacting on your girlfriend , so if you can try and think of an alternative response to how you are now responding. If you start to see thing differently and have other decisions about what you perceive , you may gradually be able to offer better and more realistic reasons for other peoples behaviour which you currently misinterpret .

But do see your Doctor and get some professional help before you ruin your relationships.

Best Wishes

Jim Bow