Depressed So Long You Get Used To It.
Posted 05 September 2012 - 10:39 PM
Posted 05 September 2012 - 11:18 PM
I think what you describe is pretty common when depressed, but I would describe it more as apathy, and just an unwillingness to care about anything, including your depression. I think that depression itself has caused all these symptoms for you.
Have you seen a professional, and if so have you tried any treatment? The throwing up sounds more anxiety driven, but generally they go hand in hand (depression and anxiety).
I do hope you find some relief.
Posted 05 September 2012 - 11:44 PM
P.S. (this is not a sucidal post or anything like that. Yes I want to die, but I have no interest in suicide or anything like that; just thought I'd clarify)
Edited by Paradiselost4992, 05 September 2012 - 11:46 PM.
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Posted 06 September 2012 - 03:02 AM
There is something called anhedonia, which can be very common with depression. You may want to look into it. Here are a few topics that may help you:
I hope these help.
Listen in deep silence. Be very still and open your mind.... Sink deep into the peace that waits for you beyond the frantic, riotous thoughts and sights and sounds of this insane world. - A course of miracles.
True beauty must come, must be grown, from within.... - Ralph W Trine.
Posted 06 September 2012 - 09:23 AM
I feel like I am dying honestly. If I could desribe it as anything I would describe it as that; dying. I feel like I have already died on the inside. Everyday I feel like I am an animated corpse just walking around; empty of all things good and happy and warm. I'm just cold now. This has become my normal state. Sometimes I get little glimpses of light and conciousness and look at myself and realize how far this has taken me and I start to cry because I realize how out of control it has gotten but soon the feelings of numbness kick back in and I'm back to my dead self again. I'm actually not even negative anymore, I'm generally a pretty positive somewhat talkative person but it's like a corpse talking. People try and become my friend or like me but I'm so far gone already that I can't even relate to them anymore. i don't even feel human. I just want to die already; I've lived enough.
Wow, This almost exactly describes how I feel. Especially the part about being nothing more than a walking corpse.
Posted 06 September 2012 - 06:43 PM
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