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[Sambo1]

After feeling rather depressed for the past week and my new meds not seeming to make much difference, things just seem bleak.

I started a new college course earlier this week which went ok, though I am anticipating some difficult experiences throughout the course, education never treats me well :(

Anyhow as the course is only 3 days a week I urgently require a part time job to be able to survive as I have no income, and I'm not even allowed JSA because the course is classed as Full Time.

I am finding life very hard at the moment, I have little idea of where my future is going, I have an unstable past which gives me no perch to stand on, and I have no money, no job, no friends (not 1) and no partner. I have a past that I'm trying to understand, and my present is very dysfunctional - I am very dysfunctional.

So I had a Job Interview today and it was horrible, I saw someone who I went to school with and he was in a managerial role at age 23 and I felt so incomplete, also they know I've been a recluse since age 16 now 22. After not being able to sleep last night I took a Lorazepam and I could still feel it's effects this morning, which might have made me come across as a stoner in the interview. =S.Worst of all though, the woman who interviewed me looked at me like she was repulsed with me, I felt very judged by her and it wasn't nice, I don't know if it's me but my judgement of how people are perceiving me is usually correct, and she wasn't nice, so in a way I'm glad I'm probably not going to get a job there.

[friendlessguy]

Hey Sambo1

Why was your job interview terrible? Were the questions difficult or were you too nervous? I dont like job interviews, it makes me very nervous. Once i went for a job interview and it turned into a complete disaster. When the interview started i got so nervous that i started to shake and stutter. The interviewer asked me questions, but due to my anxiety i could not answer the questions properly because i was too busy wondering what the interviewer was thinking about me. I think going for interviews is one of my biggest fears. The interviewer has to judge my personality and that makes me nervous. In an interview we have to live up to a certain standard and if we dont live up to that standard we are not good enough for the job.

[Sambo1]

I am normally relatively able to handle a job interview, so to get one that is a bad experience isn't something I am used to. The reason it was such a bad interview was because the interviewer seemed like she'd already made up her mind that I hadn't got the job before the interview had began, she seemed very cold and judgemental, almost to the point she was weary of certain individuals and maybe she deemed me to fit in her category of individuals she doesn't like - after all we can't like everyone, but she was very unprofessional, or at least in think in the way she looked at me, how she asked the questionas and overall how I felt during the interview.

I know how interviews work, but she didn't orchestrate the interview how interviews should normally be done.