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[avesher]

On Saturday I went to my hometown to see my Dad and Grandma and have not been to that town in 10 years and only twice in 20 years. Horrible memories, bullied, didnt fit in, all the standard stuff. For a long time now I have kept my depression, anxiety, panic and other issues in check with some minor swings here and there. I lasted 5 hours in that town, completely melting down into a nearly immobile frozen position from rank high levels of stress. It was the worst I have been in years.

Now I sit here Monday with gruesome stomach and chest anxiety, no appetite and feeling crappy. I talked with a couple people and they say its backlash from the super high stress of the weekend and I will return to normal soon. I was doing so well for a long long time before this weekend and hope I can bounce back.

Anyone have any thoughts?

[MaddieLouise]

Avesher,

I have had a similar experience. I wanted to show my husband and son where I grew up, so we visited and I had a total meltdown. It was a sad and cruel time for me - growing up, and I tried to show them only the positive and fun places I played (to get away from home), but it didn't work. All it did was trigger a terrible sadness. I do think I needed to get it out of my system though, so although I too felt lousy for a few days, I did return to normal, and realized that for me it was a type of recovery (more like catharsis), and that I don't need to go back to prove anything ever again.

I think you'll bounce back. It's rough on the body to go through that.

Sincerely,

MaddieLouise

[avesher]

Avesher,

I have had a similar experience. I wanted to show my husband and son where I grew up, so we visited and I had a total meltdown. It was a sad and cruel time for me - growing up, and I tried to show them only the positive and fun places I played (to get away from home), but it didn't work. All it did was trigger a terrible sadness. I do think I needed to get it out of my system though, so although I too felt lousy for a few days, I did return to normal, and realized that for me it was a type of recovery (more like catharsis), and that I don't need to go back to prove anything ever again.

I think you'll bounce back. It's rough on the body to go through that.

Sincerely,

MaddieLouise

ya you know exactly what I went through, no doubt about that
Im just so stunned by how beat up my body felt after it. It felt like the worst flu

[MaddieLouise]

I think when we have a mental breakdown, we take it just as hard physically as we do mentally. The two are so closely related, so it doesn't surprise me.