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[Lionheartvll]

Hey everyone. I really was just curious as to if this is something other people do or if it's just me. Lately I've been feeling worse then I ever have before. It's actually my frist day on the forums and I started this account because of how hard of a time I've been having lately. This may sound stupid, but I was wondering if other people watch the clock just hoping to pass time as fast as possible. Usually I don't do this, but these past couple of days I haven't been able to do anything. I've been lying in bed watching tv, hardly eating or sleeping, and all I want is for the day to end and a new day to start. I've always had a very hard time sleeping, but lately I've been looking forward to that 2-3 hour struggle to fall asleep more than the day itself because the days have seemed so crappy lately. When I'm awake, I constantly try to do things (like play a game, watch a movie I've seen 100 times, ect..) even though I really dont have any interest in doing these things and I only do them to try and pass the time faster. I end up constantly looking at my phone to check the time hoping that the day is coming to an end just so I can no longer be in that day anymore. It sounds weird when I write it down or say it out loud, but I was wondering if other people do this as well, or if it's just another weird thing I do haha.:/

[Trace]

Hi and Welcome Lionheartvll

I don't think you are weird. Depression causes lack of motivation and can take away interest in things that you would normally take interest in. A lot of people sleep to pass the time. I am not a clock watcher, but there are many others that are.

Trace

[dusk25]

Hi, no you're not alone. I want each day to end so I can go to sleep. The days are too long now.

[piscesdreamer68]

The day itself can sometimes feel like a serving a sentence. Often times my favorite part of the day is the end of the day, when I can lay down and simply log off my brain and be embraced by the sweet arms of sleep.

[beachgirl]

I avoid sleep.

[Nellyzen]

I always watch the clock...for something. When I'm at work, I want to go home, when I'm home, I'm bored. Get the picture? LOL

[rapunzel]

at the end of each day I'm glad I made it through this day because it's one day closer to the time when I will start feeling a bit better. it's like surviving day by day. I hope the meds will start helping some day, and my body recovers naturally as well. but meantime, the time is slow and painful, and I'm just happy that it passes by.

[etherize]

Yes, I watch the clock, especially since I feel a bit better emotionally in the evenings. But I avoid sleep, staying up as late as I can, because I dread waking up and the awful feeling of another day.

[Lionheartvll]

I feel the opposite way it seems compaired to a lot of people here. I actually feel the worst in the evenings and at night. I can never fall asleep so that makes it harder. During the day now that school has started back up (second year in college), I tend to keep myself busy enough to not feel totally horrible. As the day winds down though, I always seem to think too much and feel worse. No matter the time of say, I always am watching the clock just hoping it would go fast. I'm not looking forward to anything, I'm usually dreading the night time, but for some reason I constantly am wishing time would pass me by in the fastest possible manor.

[ArthurP]

My depression takes me to opposite ends of the spectrum. On one hand when the days are so miserable I can't wait to go to sleep and get some peace. At my worst I'm sleeping 8-10 hours a day. On the other hand, I'm terrified of losing time. I've become quite obsessed with every moment recently and wasted day or even a few hours fills me with anxiety which leads to one horrible place if not stopped in time.

[livkittykat]

I am the same way-- I do tend to feel worse at night but I also am constantly counting the hours watching the clock and just wanting it to be night time because then I know the day is almost over. I've been this way for about a year now, also about the same amount of time I've been seriously depressed. I am hoping this is something that goes away when the depression goes away...and I have hope that it will, someday. I hope someday I will be enjoying every moment of the day, wanting good moments to last longer instead of just wishing the day was over....but you're definitely not alone. I am constantly watching the clock and at night I try to go to bed as early as possible just so the day will be over that much faster. Not because I'm eager for the morning but because I'm eager to be out of that day.

[davesnothere]

For me time just seems to be slipping by, I dont do much but sit around in my van and time means nothing to me, but for some reason its like I hav ot be somewhere but I dont, and I know that and I just sit.

Hours seems like mins, mins seem like seconds.