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[Miffy]

I've been on anti-depressants for years and I'm about to return to work tomorrow after 2 weeks off sick because I'm already on citalopram and the addition of amitriptaline for chronic headaches made me feel a bit spaced out!

Anyway, I just feel like I can't be bothered to do anything and also that I just don't care about anything. I can honestly say that I couldn't care less if I lost my job, home and husband and had to live on the streets in just the clothes that I sit in typing this!

I hate feeling like this, I'm 30 so I should be in the prime of my life but I can't get out of this hole!

Am I the only one that feels like this? I just really need someone to tell me that I'm not lazy and that I'm not the heartless selfish person that I feel I am by admitting how I feel right now........

[desireless]

Sorry to hear that Miffy. May be you are going through a Major depressive episode which will eventually pass out...you should speak to psychiatrist about your condition urgently.

[Trace]

Hi Miffy

You are certainly not lazy or heartless, you are struggling right now and DF is a place where you are understood. It is an illness and it is the illness doing this to you. I am not sure if you have added a med recently, but if you have it may have side effects that could make you feel worse for a few weeks. If that is the case then you should start to feel better in a few weeks. Hang in there and lean on us for support.

Trace

[Miffy]

I had a chat with my manager at work today and she was really good, she helped me understand that this isn't me and so I've made the decision to get counselling. I just hope I'm strong enough to do it....

[itstrevor]

Hello Miffy, unfortunately it seems that you are experiencing some of the effects of major depression, particularly anhedonia, or the loss of interest in previously interesting activities, the inability to experience passion/pleasure, and a general emotional numbness or flatness (thyroanesthesia). This may seem a bit confusing at first as many depression sufferers wonder if they are really "depressed" since they dont feel depressed, in fact, they cannot feel much of anything. Hallmarks of anhedonia include loss of interest in sex, the inability to appreciate things like music, and inability to experience romance or passion. If you feel you fit this description, I highly encourage you to go here:

http://www.depressio...ve-experiences/

I am compiling a resource for everyone experiencing this troubling symptom through my extensive research and through relating everyone's experience with it to help find the best strategies to combat it.