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[BK79]

I was on Wellbutrin and Adderall for depression/anxiety and ADHD for about 3 years.
I noticed many positive effects, increased focus and productivity at work, more energy etc.
I also had the following negative issues: low weight, muscle pain, sore neck and back, twitchiness almost tweakiness from the Adderall, grinding my teeth, prone to flying off the handle etc.
Increased stress at my job and a sudden onset of troubling symptoms: severe vertigo, heart racing, a sickness in the stomach as a reaction to stress led me to many inconclusive tests and finally, out of frustration quitting both medications cold turkey. I did this without the supervison of my doctor as I was unable to even get an appointment at the time and I was frustrated at the hoops I had to constantly go through to get the Adderall, especially.
To compound this all, I quit my job and moved halfway across the country 3 or 4 months later.

After an adjustment period, my stress related symptoms went away, I put on weight and felt pretty good. I kept a mood journal from then up until present along with the # of drinks I was consuming as alcohol took the edge off the Adderall but seemed to effect my mood too much without it.
Initially it was just low energy, but my mood swings, social anxiety low confidence concentration. Eventually it became debilitating. I nopticed the pattern of never feeling the same for an entire 7 day period. It was a crapshoot every day, up , down, sometimes intense anxiety and bursting into tears for no reason.
Then I get amazing burst of creativity and energy, start a bunch of projects I later get down on myself for not finishing. Or I connect with friends and make great plans to do all sorts of stuff, then feel like s*** and disconnected when the time arrives.

I got a script for 150mg of Wellbutrin, my former dose, felt sharp and energetic for the first time since moving, was able to interact effectively with friends but also becoming irritable and snappy.
Long story short I had about 4 drinks on day 6 and it brought me right back down.
2 days later had intense head and stomach pain, crying fit and vomiting.
Now I've just been really lost in my own head, second guessing every decision I've made and burst into tears in the a.m.
I know I have to ride it out and the side-effects will subside, I just can't believe I have done this to myself and now I'm in a situation where I can't afford to feel this way.
I guess I need ... advice ... someone with a similar experience ... something

Edited by BK79, 23 July 2012 - 01:33 PM.

[Sheepwoman]

_{First off, do not drink alcohol while taking WB. Your gastric SEs are testimonial to this.Do not get discourages if WB isn't as effective as before. Sometimes (and I don't know why) we get no effect when going back on a drug we'd used in the past with good results. Keep track of how you're feeling. If you get too irritable, call your pdoc. This is not a desirable SE that could cause work and social problems for you.
Sheepwoman}

[BK79]

Well, I have a little update to add. Firstly I quit drinking and feel much better. This will be day #4.
Also, I was unpacking some boxes and found my old pills.
The dose I was getting before I left was 300mg.
I am now on 150mg. Somewhere in the course of switching doctors I was given a higher dose by mistake.
Thus explaining all the health issues - side effects - which lead me to discontinue after many years.
Back on the correct dose without alcohol or adderall I'm starting to feel like myself again.
Hard to believe all the suffering I caused myself over such a stupid mistake.