I am not sure where to post this, but hopefully this is the right place. If not I apologize. I spent the past 5 years of my life dealing with depression, anxiety, OCD, and feeling suicidal because the medications I was previously taking stopped working. During this time I don't know how I managed to somehow work part-time, and go to college part-time. I guess I was hiding everything and somehow pushed myself because I didn't want my parents to see me hurting. Like many of you know this is not easy. I tried almost all AD's (with barely any results), lost many friends along the way, got hospitalized a bunch of times, and the list goes on...Fortunately, I am currently on the right path, and no longer depressed.
Anyway, last night I was looking at the old posts I wrote on this site when I was depressed, and I wanted to cry. I can't believe how miserable depression can make you feel. I can't believe what I was writing and how I felt. Now that my depression is gone I find it hard to believe that I would ever think in such ways. But I want to personally thank everyone who replied to my posts and gave me courage to remain alive. It was very comforting to have complete strangers (who deal with mental illness and understand it firsthand) care for me when people in my life did not. I think DF is a great site, and I have gotten some great advice on here (sometimes even better than advice doctors have given me).
For those who are struggling to find a cure, please fight with all you've got. Do it for yourself. Trust me, someday it will all pay off. I know it's easier said than done. I hated hearing people telling me to be patient and not give up, but I somehow held on and now I will be able to help others who were in my situation.
Thank you DF for existing.
