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[NeverCryWolf]

How do you deal with your depression at your job? Or if you are unemployed, does it affect your job search? I really need to stay motivated but I am so discouraged. I am trying to become an Animal Services Officer and I am just worrying so much if I will be able to do it right. I just feel really inhibited with this depression:(

[littleellabella]

I'm experiencing the same problems too :(
For example I had a trial shift at a café today and she said that I picked up the concepts well, but was lacking a bubbly attitude and constant smiley face, as well as personality
I tried my hardest, it was a miracle I even made it out of bed to get there. Consequently I came home and haven't left my bed since.
You can only do what you can, but definitely aim to give it a shot.
Take it in small steps.
I know how you feel and it's horrible. We will get through it though.
Good luck :)

[meistersinger]

How do you deal with your depression at your job? Or if you are unemployed, does it affect your job search? I really need to stay motivated but I am so discouraged. I am trying to become an Animal Services Officer and I am just worrying so much if I will be able to do it right. I just feel really inhibited with this depression:(

It most certainly affects your job search. Right now, I've given up trying to find work. Everything I look at has no interest to me. I might get a phone screening, with the inevitable rejection note afterwards, because I sabotaged myself yet again.

[LilyRain]

My current job was really contributing to my depression- it still is, but it's not as soul shattering since I started my meds. I'm still probably going to quit by the end of the year though, and really worried about what to do after then, since I have no idea what I want to do. I guess my issue is my depression has ruined my passion and desire to do anything, so when I think about what I'd like to do I draw a blank.

I think I've always been okay at interviews... I can put on my "happy mask", but still sometimes fumble awkwardly over words.

[MJLane]

i know how you feel, i used to be able to function okay at work as ive always been a closed off person and am good at faking it. recently though its all fallen apart and im on unpaid sick leave until i can pull it together. hopefully i still have a job when that time comes! i cant imagine job searching while my depression is really strong, its hard enough getting out of bed let alone all the bs that goes with job interviews. i used to be on the hiring end and half the time we didnt even bother with references, it was just based on what we thought of the person. i think the old adage fake it till you make it is really true.

[Sanda]

I'm entitled to 3 wks paid leave a year - but my available leave balance is always hovering around zero, because taking emergency mental health days, or even just mornings to sleep in, seems critical to my managing the job.

When here I'm able to function pretty well, but I do wish I could manage to accrue some paid leave for something "fun", instead of just for trying to cope. SO I'd say that's the biggest impact depression has on my work life at present.

[knope23]

How do you deal with your depression at your job? Or if you are unemployed, does it affect your job search? I really need to stay motivated but I am so discouraged. I am trying to become an Animal Services Officer and I am just worrying so much if I will be able to do it right. I just feel really inhibited with this depression:(

It most certainly affects your job search. Right now, I've given up trying to find work. Everything I look at has no interest to me. I might get a phone screening, with the inevitable rejection note afterwards, because I sabotaged myself yet again.

My current job was really contributing to my depression- it still is, but it's not as soul shattering since I started my meds. I'm still probably going to quit by the end of the year though, and really worried about what to do after then, since I have no idea what I want to do. I guess my issue is my depression has ruined my passion and desire to do anything, so when I think about what I'd like to do I draw a blank.

I think I've always been okay at interviews... I can put on my "happy mask", but still sometimes fumble awkwardly over words.

meistersinger, LilyRain...same here. i've been unemployed for more than two years and pretty much just given up on the job search.
i know i need to work but there is no desire to do anything. thinking back of all the jobs i've had, i've never like a single one. they were
all to pay the bills. if i were to sit down and think of what i'd like to do as a profession, my mind is blank. i have absolutely no interest in anything.
and whats horrible about this is i'm in my mid 30's. i feel like i'm running out of time. so yeah depression has stopped me from becoming a productive
person. it's sucks

[mtclmbr_gal]

My depression, in terms with my job, sometimes goes against me. Thankfully, I have a flexible boss who let me switch to part-time for the summer so I don't feel as overwhelmed & can come back refreshed to take on another school year as a para in the fall. I searched for a few months for a job, and my depression skyrocketed due to feeling like I was a failure for not being able to get a job & simply because I wasn't around people. While I hear of people filling out 50 applications a day, it stressed me out to fill out more than my basic info on 1 application or being turned down by job after job. While it's sometimes hard for me to become motivated to get to work, I usually feel better when I get there as apposed to lying in bed, yet, I still balance my life with rest. I try to put on some good tunes on my way to work to help me get pumped. I just pray that no one sees me jaming out to Lady Gaga on the way. :)

[coolchild]

After recently graduating college, I am looking for a job. I had three school related pratical experiences that I had to complete before I could graduate. I only felt good about one of those experiences. The first and last were a disaster. For the first, I had to go with two extroverted people and I received the lowest grade for lack of enthusiasm. They just didn't know about the depression, and I didn't tell them. My depression was triggered because the people acted as if I didn't exist and the other two students were praised. The supervisor wouldn't even make eye contact with me. I saw her look at the other two students while she was talking, but she ignored me.

Next, I had an internship. I came in and the manager was constantly putting me down. This really triggered my depression. I felt like nothing was good enough, and she didn't tell me something important about my project. When I had to present it, it was a disaster. I really haven't been motivated to find a job since graduation, but I have a lot of debt that I need to pay off. My depression is being triggered by the stress of not having a job right now, and I am looking really hard for one.

I only hope that I can find a job where there are wonderful people. When I come into a bad environment, I have really bad suicidal ideations because people are constantly putting me down for not being perfect. I really want to be happy because I do not want to be pushed to the edge.

[NeverCryWolf]

After recently graduating college, I am looking for a job. I had three school related pratical experiences that I had to complete before I could graduate. I only felt good about one of those experiences. The first and last were a disaster. For the first, I had to go with two extroverted people and I received the lowest grade for lack of enthusiasm. They just didn't know about the depression, and I didn't tell them. My depression was triggered because the people acted as if I didn't exist and the other two students were praised. The supervisor wouldn't even make eye contact with me. I saw her look at the other two students while she was talking, but she ignored me.

Next, I had an internship. I came in and the manager was constantly putting me down. This really triggered my depression. I felt like nothing was good enough, and she didn't tell me something important about my project. When I had to present it, it was a disaster. I really haven't been motivated to find a job since graduation, but I have a lot of debt that I need to pay off. My depression is being triggered by the stress of not having a job right now, and I am looking really hard for one.

I only hope that I can find a job where there are wonderful people. When I come into a bad environment, I have really bad suicidal ideations because people are constantly putting me down for not being perfect. I really want to be happy because I do not want to be pushed to the edge.

I totally get where you're coming from. My whole life I've felt invisible and over-sahdowed by people more outspoken than me. I was an intern at an animal shelter and I was criticized for asking too many questions. I've been let go from two jobs, both within my first week of working. One was because I was late a couple times and the second was I wasn't learning fast enough. These experiences have mede me extremely self conscience about working. I have been working at my current job for four years and I want to start my career but so afraid to fail. I am trying to become more assertive and confident in myself but I just don't know how i can do that.

[alpheus]

I may have an interview soon, the dread is palpable now. I wish I was going into something easy, like a torture session, or my execution.

[NeverCryWolf]

I have two next week, and I am already having anxiety. I want the job so bad.

[mtclmbr_gal]

I have two next week, and I am already having anxiety. I want the job so bad.

That's great to hear that you have two interviews! The passion will help you with your confidence! Best of luck to you NeverCryWolf! I hope you get the job too! Keep us posted!

[Phantastic Mirage]

Well, I had SUCH a hard time finding a job because of the reason why I left my last job. I was lucky to find a new job since, but even that can be hard sometimes. I'm still in a type of customer service, and I just don't like people. Well, people are okay..it's just I end up being fustrated, annoyed and short-tempered with them, so that's why it's hard for me to keep friends.

Eh, I do the best I can.

[Viola]

Being in work with depression is hard. I used to have a boss who was not at all understanding, and she did and said things that still make me cry a year on. Probably she didn't mean to upset me, but certainly she was very thoughtless and inconsiderate.

Thankfully I now have a boss who is understanding and kind. But it seems like the damage has already been done with the bad team leader, and I'm struggling to let this resentment go, even though I know it's making me worse.

I have applied for a few other jobs to try and escape, but I've not been offered any of them. Bigging yourself up is so difficult when you feel really down.

So to all those who are looking for a job, the very best of luck. I'm willing you on.

[ExProud]

I'm still working and my job stress is part of what caused my depression. I was fortunate to be able to get a month leave, most of it paid. I've been back for a while and it's pretty tough, I'm handling some thing better I guess. I can kind of wrap myself up in my work a lot and that makes the time go by, but whenever I pause I still feel bad, and have all the thoughts, etc.

it's a tough situation, but on the other hand, if I could stay home all day I might feel even worse - all that idle time on my hands and being bored but not wanting to do anything. The thing for me now is to just keep going and take it in short increments.I have to keep the faith that as time goes by I'll get to a point where I will function better and feel better at the same time.

[dukeofjarvis]

I've dealt with the depression/work issue by (consciously or not) seeking out jobs that aren't very people-oriented. I've had days at work where I was barely holding it together, fighting off crying spells, etc., yet no one really knew. The work I do is auditory, so it involves wearing headphones. As a result there's little co-worker interaction and no contact with the public. Bonus: the concentration required to do my job means I can't do my work and be lost in depressive rumination at the same time. I also choose (most days) to commute by bicycle, so the exercise helps, too.