Now i been told by the therapist it was depression. But i fail to see how me feeling depressed can completely shut down my mind.
I personally believe it was down to intense anxiety regarding my mind not working and that in turn caused it. But the first time it happened was due to me putting my mind under intense stress.
But i have been left so confused i'm not even able to make sense of all this.
If i ask myself what is on my mind, the answer is not applicable because it's just not working.
So i'm asking you guys when you are depressed anyone else experience such intense and devastating mental symptoms?
You must have some mental function right? So most likely it is caused by severe anxiety.
This has been on going for 5 years now and it has effected me severely as you can imagine. I don't even know my identity anymore.
I don't even feel depressed, sad or low. Don't have any depressive thoughts at all.
99% of thoughts that intrusively come into my mind are ridiculous anxious ones and i can't even deal with them effectively because of the way my mind is.
And i know there were several intense period of anxiety before this happened but i can't see it in my head because of the way my mind is.
sometimes i wish i could feel so depressed about this but anxiety won't let me because it says that if i feel depressed my symptoms will get worse and then my mental symptoms will get worser.
I hate my mind not working at all. Honestly it is destroying me.
Edited by Logic, 22 April 2012 - 08:33 AM.