Anxious About Visiting Friends
Posted 22 April 2012 - 04:35 AM
I'm feeling OK Today, as I'm not feeling particularly depressed or anxious (I do feel tired and am lacking motivation though and have spent all Weekend alone, which doesn't help my mindset)
I'm going over to some friends place for dinner Tonight ...It's just me and a couple I know and their Kids...I'd feel better if there were other people there, so I wouldn't be the centre of attention..
I'm worried I will have nothing to say or maybe even have a panic attack..
Then again, neither of those things are likely to happen and they both know I have just had a bad time with depression. In fact the Husband suffers depression as well..
So even if I do spin out, it won't be the end of the world..
At least I didn't cancel this time (have been known to pull the plug at the last minute)
I'm going to the gym just before I leave, as it always puts me in a more positive frame of mind..
I sort of wish it was over and I could sit in front of the TV and have a few alcohol's.. (how sad is that?)
Anyway, will report back and tell you how good it was to get out of the house and what a nice time I had catching up with mates no doubt..
PS: I can't wait until my new meds really kick in! LOL
Posted 22 April 2012 - 06:34 AM
Back home from dinner, suffered almost no anxiety and had lots to say even though I have done nothing for weeks and weeks due to my state of mind.
I sort of knew things would be OK but having been hiding from life for so long, I wasn't sure how I would do..
I had a really nice evening, including wrestling on the floor with twin 5 year old boys for a good half an hour which was fun...
I have to remember how important it is to do things you aren't quite sure of...
For me, the best way of overcoming depression and anxiety is all about proving to myself that I can handle the things that I think I cannot..
I'll be getting in touch with some people I haven't seen for a while and inviting them out for drinks or over for dinner soon...
What a winner going over to a friends place for dinner was, as opposed to sitting home alone
I am the best!
Posted 22 April 2012 - 12:34 PM
Thanks for sharing.
Posted 23 April 2012 - 03:19 PM
I'm glad you made the effort and succeeded! I would love to be out with friends but nobody asks me anymore (everyone has their own life) and I don't have the guts to ask anyone myself for fear of chickening out at the last minute. I commend you for taking the risk. Good job!
Major depression, generalized anxiety disorder, PTSD, insomnia, chronic pain and neurological damage from legionnaires.
Medications: Mirtazipine, clonazepam, ambien, and various vitamins and supplements.
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