When I was sitting down, I asked another person who I'd speak to sometimes. I just came out of a quiet state and asked him something like 'here...do you think I walk funny?'. He replied, 'Well...I sort've didn't want to say anything to you, but you do...sort've like a penguin or something haha.'
'What do you mean?' I said, using a fake laugh. 'Well, you sort've rely on your shoulders more than your legs to drag you along, no offence, but it's kinda weird'. I said nothing. I was always made fun of in high school for walking 'weird'. People say that I just walk to the side a little. My older brother sort've walks the same way as me, heck I could spot him from a mile off because of his walk! People would always talk behind my back about my walk. I even overheard someone accusing me of showing off in front of everyone purposefully by strutting! How wrong that person is, he doesn't know what it's like to go through Social Anxiety. I'd never 'show off' in front of everyone. I've been told I sort've 'walk to the side a little'...my mother even calls it a 'unique walk', though she uses it more for my brother.
I asked my brother earlier about this, and he said he's received the same treatment from people. He sort've just gets on with it, and people seem to love his walk now lol! But I hate it when people laugh at me for how I walk. I feel hurt, pathetic, and just adds another reason to hate myself. I come close to tears while typing this out, I despise it when people laugh at me. It makes me feel like a joke. Any chance anyone else has this problem? Thnx.
Edited by Firework, 20 March 2012 - 02:56 PM.